My mirror must be lying to me
I don't know if you've experienced this, and it may sound like I'm *****ing about nothing, but I am sometimes disturbed by what I see in the mirror. I don't recognize myself anymore, and it is unsettling. I was a fat girl all my life, and now I am no longer obese. The visual impact of that is unexpectedly striking.
People tell me how I should be so happy I've lost this much weight (112 pounds in 8.5 months), and I am, but it bothers me sometimes to look in the mirror and see this person who is no longer fat-- I don't recognize myself. My clothes look too small before I put them on, my feet are smaller, my face is different...there is no other way to describe it except that it is vaguely disturbing.
I didn't expect to be emotionally affected in this way by my weight loss. Anyone else dealing with this?
on 4/29/13 10:34 am
I totally get what you are saying. I feel the same way many days. At this point I have lost around 50 pounds and I am really starting to notice that parts of me just don't look like me anymore- like my hands look different. My face is changing...It is very emotional, and kinda scary- this really is transformation- and some days are better than others!
I totally understand how you feel, except not for quite the same reasons. I wasn't really the big girl growing up and didn't really gain most of my weight until I was in my late 30's. I see myself in the mirror now, before surgery and I don't recognize myself. I am looking forward to the day that I see the same person in the mirror as the one I feel like I am.
Great job on your weight loss. You will get used to the new you and be comfortable in your new skin.
Ha! - That is exactly how I feel. I didn't get big until my 30's when I started having kids. 12 years later I am 100 pounds heavier, but I still have a mental image of my slim self, even though I know I'm not that person anymore. I look in the mirror and I have to turn away, can't stand it.
I still have the skinny clothes, and I can't wait to fit them again.
Give it time. You'll get used to the new you that you see in the mirror. After a while, you'll look at an old picture of yourself and wonder who that person was? You've had such a rapid loss in such a small amount of time, that it will take a while for your brain to catch up. It's okay to feel this way, but know that it is probably only temporary. Congratulations and celebrate the differences!
Deb
Goal Reached in 12.5 Months
HW: 274 Pre-OpW: 266 SW: 254 CW: 125 GW: 145
You must permanently change your lifestyle if you want your weight loss to be permanent. You can do it!