Today was a test

I love cake. Cake and Ben and Jerry's are my two biggest weaknesses. A co worker brought in a huge sheet cake left over from her baby shower this weekend. Everyone talked about how delicious it was. I had to walk past it at least 15 times. Everyone had it at lunch. Then they brought it down to staff meeting. I kept thinking.... Just one small bite. I thought about that damn stupid cake all day. My old self kept rationalizing that one small taste couldn't undo the last month. But I resisted. I made a promise to myself and a commitment to my health. 

I kept thinking of this girl in my support group who at three weeks had cake, chickens wings and wine and tried to tell all of the pre ops that with the sleeve you can have a little bit of everything. I remember thinking a. That was terrible horrible advise and 2. I would not be that person eating cake at under a month out. 

When I got home my roommate ordered Chinese. And said you could probably have the inside of a crab Rangoon, it's soft. And physically I probably could have, but I said No thank you again. 

Today was was just a realization that these battles over our trigger foods are never over, at least for me. I remain committed to making the most of this tool. 

Good for you! Stuff like that happens to me all the time at work too... it sucks! Day 2 of my pre op diet happened on valentines day. That was tough. Good for you for resisting... twice!

You did great.  Several times I gave in to the urge to have a little something off the diet.  A little bit became too much, and I've regretted it for days.  I think you have the right idea to put your health first, and just walk away.  It is tough to do. 

I am often humbled to realize how those trigger foods can still get me, even now, after the surgery, after many months of developing new habits, after so much success, and those triggers still have power over me.  I've come to realize that I will have to be diligent the rest of my life to keep myself healthy.

best wishes,

Carol

Girl I feel for you. it's amazing how clear we see ourselves and bad eating habits after surgery. I've only been home from the hospital for 3 days but already I see it in all my impulses. Making lunch for my kids for example I would always take a bite here or handfu of goldfish there. We stopped at McDonalds and everyone in the car got something but me. I had to sit and smell and listen and oh my God SMELL it lol before surgery I would have been eating a huge burger and probably "helping" the baby eat her 10 piece nuggets lol

But enough about McDonald's lol 

Bless your heart for staying the course. Cakes and pastries have always been my weakspot.