Skinny Mama

Send Message

Block

Add Friend

TO EVERYONE,

KRYSTLE PASSED AWAY ON JULY 4, 2007. SHE IS MISSED

DOUG (HUSBAND)

Wow, its been awhile since Ive updated. Ive been doing well. I actually decided to gain some weight back. Im in therapy and finally saw the real me. I was looking very sickly at 119-125. Everyone was telling me how sick I looked but I couldnt see it. After a lot of therapy I realized how sick and pale I was looking. Ive gained back up to around 135 and am wearing size 2-4 in clothing. My face is no longer sunk in, my ribs and spine arent sticking out anymore, and well I look healthy now. I do want to keep my weight under 140, but anywhere from 130-140 is fine as long as my clothes fit and I look healthy. 

I workout reguraly and try to eat as healthy as possible. I am more confident in my appearance now. I even got the nerve up and bought 3 string bikinis!!!! I wear them and feel confident that I look good in them now. My body is well toned and my mental picture of myself is now matching what everyone else sees. No one believes me when I tell them I had been very obese and have 2 young children. I have young men (18-19 years old) that hit on me at the pool thinking that I am my childrens babysitter. What a self esteem boost!!!

So, now its just concentrating on staying mentally and physically healthy and happy. I recommend therapy to anyone who is loosing weight, heck for everyone in generak too!!!! I can now see me for me and like the inner as well as outer me.

okay, getting better every day. My incision under my bellybutton does'nt want to heal and scab, but pain wise, Im doing well. I still get tired very easy, and if I sit at school too long I get sore, but overall I am doing much better. I go back to the Dr. on Friday for my final follow up to my hernia/gallbladder surgery, so I guess its wait and see if I can go back to the gym yet. Still tired, so I will go into more detail when things get better. Oh, wieghing in at 122 still. Hopefully it doesnt go down OR up too much.

Talk to ya'll soon!

Okay, so this gallblader and hernia repair has kicked my ass. ive had a lot of surgeries, but this one, owwwwwww. This is rougher than the hysterectomy was. Im bouncing back, but its taking a long time. I cant go to the gym for 2 more weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!! AGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I know its okay, but damn! I miss the gym!!!!! Anyway, Im still having a hard time with the recovery, but I'll be okay.

Well time for an update: Last week I had to be admitted to the hospital. I had been having some abd pain and just feeling really bad in general. They ran tests did and endoscopy, and decided to remove my gallbladder and do some exploratory surgery while they were at it. Turns out my gallbladder was inflammed and had some stones, bleeding areas in my pouch were found that had to be fixed, and I had a small hernia, oh and just for fun (yeah right) they think that I may have ulcers in my old stomach!!!!!. I came home Friday and am still feeling like I'm gonna keel over any minute. Soooo, needless to say my Christmas SUCKED! I still feel really bad so I'm headed to the doc to see whats goin on. Will update more once I feel better and all that jazz.

MY BOOOTY IS SHAPIN UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAH thats right.... All this damn gym time is payin off!!!! NO MORE CELLLULITE ON THESE THIGHS or ARSE!!!!!!!!!!!!  Of course hubby noticed, but now, the guys AND GALS in the gym notice too, and they dont live with me!!!!~!!!!!! Oh I feel so goood. Now to keeep it this way!!!!! Damn this is a lot of work, but its worth it!!! I applied at HOOTERS just to see if I was "qualified" to work there. Guess what???????????? HIRED!!!!!! I ended up turning it down due to the hours, but can you imagine??????????? ME, A HOOTERS GIRL?????????? OMG, what an amazing moment!!!! I did tell them that if the hours could be worked around (I have 2 kids) that I would be more than willing to join the team. The manager acted like he REALLY wanted me!!!! He said hed see what could be arranged!!!!!!!!!!
Life is great now!!!!!

OUCH!! But does it feel good! Ive been adding on to my workout at the gym and boy do I feel it today! 2 miles uphill in 25 minutes! Ive been working up to it for awhile, but yesterday I went full force! Plus I did an additional 30 at 3.5 to cool down with no slant.

THEN, I did my weight training for an EXTRA 12 minutes in addition to the circuit of 20 min that I had been doing. My butt and thighs are screaming since I work them the most lol! But boy, it feels good in a weird way. My arms have always been in pretty good shape, so they arent yelling at me. My tummy however. That one I have to go very slow on. Since my tummy tuck with muscle tightening last year, boy its hard to work em. I guess the doc just got them so tight that they dont need much help? I dont want a 6 pack so Im not worried about it. Im just doing preventitve measures to keep it as flat as a board like it is now.

Funny, I cant wait to go back to the gym lol!

I love this journey!

GRRRRRRRRR. Today is not my day at all! So I'm going to school this morning, woke up got myself and the kids all ready, everything was going okay. Then it started:

First my mom (she waits with the kids at the bus stop so I'm not late for school), who I am so grateful to for doing this for me, was 10 minutes late. Well 10 minutes on 85S makes a BIG difference. Okay, well no big deal right? Then I get on the road and  every car on 85 was trying to hit me! I swear I had a sign on my bumper that said "HIT ME PLEASE!" By the time I get to Atlanta Im pretty shook up, one of the cars almost pushed me into the median, but at the last minute of him plowing his way over he saw me and got back in his lane since I couldnt go anywhere BUT the median. 

Okay, THEN, I get to the parking lot. All the parking in this area is pay parking. It cost $5. I had $3 in cash and $2 in quarters, just enough. Hubby doesnt get paid till tomorrow so that was all I had period! Can you believe the stupid machine wouldnt take the change! Ive used change there before without a problem. Of course no ones around but the attendant so I ask him if he can trade me for my change. Oh no heaven forbid! You woulda thought I asked him to lick my feet by the look he gave me. By this time I'm so upset that I want to cry. Since no ones around I decide to get my money back and just go somewhere else.

Its 8:31 so Im now late for class. I wait at the post for a few minutes hoping someone would come up to pay and Id ask them since my money was still in there. Well, I give up on waiting for someone to come, thinking maybe they might help. So, I figure I'll just go across the street and get cash for my quarters. I hit cancel on the machine to get my money back and guess what: THE DAMN MACHINE ATE MY MONEY!!!! The only money I had, so now Im late for school and out of money, paydays not till tomorrow. I go tell the attendant what happend so I could get my money and go somewhere else. NOPE!!! No refunds, well I didnt even park though! That was the last straw! I explain that I didnt have enough cash so the transaction was never completed. He basically said tough luck. Then he has the nerve to tell me I should have had enough cash with me!!!!!! It took every ounce of willpower not to just cuss him out.

I finally just give up, the moneys gone, theres no where I can park. I call the school and tell them I wont be in. Then back on 85 I went. The sign must have still been on my bumper, but I made it home in one piece.

So now Im home hiding out hoping nothing else will happen.

Wow! I can't believe how fast time has been going. This time last year I was in full force cleaning my house in preperation for my plastic surgery and the beginning of my life as a healthy thin woman. I was looking thru old pictures that I had taken the night before my gastric bypass and at the ones the night before my plastics. I dont even look like the same person anymore! I can wear anything even a bikini (who woulda thought??? NOT me!), lowrise jeans and tight tops, skirts, suits, you name it I can wear it! And I look normal and pretty good if I say so myself! 

I can just grab stuff off the racks and know it will fit. Thats an incredible feeling right there for me. Everytime I pick up those size 0/1 jeans and xsmall/small tops I praise GOD and all of my doctors that made this new life and body possible for me.

Todays really been a day of realizations for me. I'm finally able to see me in a mirror and realize that, yes, that thin attractive woman IS me, not some optical illusion. I'm able to LIVE my life like the 24 year old mom that I am, and I can keep up lol! Overall Im happier, healthier, and a lot more fun to be around too. Its amazing how much can change in under two years.

I've started back to school and am so happy! No one there knows Ive had any sort of weight issues and it just amazes me that for the first time in my life I feel comfortable talking to "normal" sized people. I used to feel like a freak when I would go up to people smaller than me and try talking. I would feel like I was being stared at and just felt so akward. Now I have the self confidence to actually start conversations and be part of the group instead of staying to myself. Life is great!

I remember being in high school, I never wanted to answer questions or get in front of the class. I felt like a fat freak. I still resent the media for making me feel that way by showing nothing but stick thin flat chested girls and saying that was how you should look. So I felt like the "fat freak"and I was only160lbs and 5'6. Aghh, anyway. So thats not the case anymore. I freely volunteer answers, have no problem jumping in front of class and actively participating with everybody. Time really does fly when youre living life and being happy