Still Fighting 4.
Uncle Cracker yummmmmmmmmy
Mar 10, 2007
July 05
Jul 03, 2005
7-4-05 Hello y'allJust a quick up date, my info was sent off to Preffered Care for approval, it was sent back because it was incomplete!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I called Dr J office, Mary said that the pyshc eval was not in yet. WHAT!!!!!! I seen her on 5-4-05 and its not back as of yet. So I called Dr O office, they said the transcripitionist was on vacation and Dr J office will have it early next week, (7-5-05 ) so again fingers crossed. I really hate waiting!!!!!!!! LOL I must be being taught a lesson. I did get a letter in the mail, from Dr J's stating was going to be approved by my insurance but my packet was missing a letter.
So that is good news. I hope to hear something by earily next week. Please pray for me. I miss y'all.
Thin wishes and WLS dreams-Tammy
7-12-05
I really hate to type this and I hope I can do this without crying. I was on the phone just about all day yesterday to Dr J's office insurance and the pyshc office. Mary at dr j's said she will submit but it WILL be denied due to a mid year policy change with Preferred Care. WTH!!!!!!!! I called PC and they said the same thing. NOW (as of 4-1) everyone who has WLS with PC HAS to complete a 30 week program with One TO one ($700). I called Preferred Care in April and asked if there was a policy change and I was told NO. I called 4 times that month, again in May & June. They have record of me calling each time and asking, Sandy a manger at PC confirmed that. Yesterday they admitted about the policy change. I am so pissed its not funny. They out and out lying to me, they have deprived me of 3 months of being on this program. NOW I have to wait 7 months to have WLS instead of 3. IF and I do mean IF i choose to keep PC as insurnace. I want to fight this but I dont know what to do. They (PC) did say I could submit for a case by case bases. I hope the fact that I am 100% disabled and the WLS will give me back my life and get me off pain meds will prove to be in my favor. We pay boat load of money each month to have insurance for what, for them to pick and choose your life for you. I am so sick about this. Just when it looks like I will have my life back I get smacked in the face with this. I swear I am not suppost to have anything in my life go right. One bad thing after another, good god what else. I know this is a pitty party for one, but if you could not play with your 22 month old because of the pain you are in everyday or have to tell your older children no about enjoying a day at six flags because you cant walk the park that really sucks I AM SO TIRED OF THIS!!!!!!!! I AM TIRED OF PAIN PILLS< I AM TIRED OF PAIN, I AM TIRED OF BEING FAT AND NOT BEING ABLE TO DO A THING ABOUT IT. Everyone says just excerise and the weight will come off, no kidding, i would have never thought of that myself. IF i could exercise I would BUT I CANT BECAUSE OF MY BACK!!!!!!!!!! I do have children to take care of and if I exercise I will be in the bed for 2 days just trying to get feeling back in my legs. THE Wls was suppost to help me with that. We can not change insurance until January. I dont know what to do now.
Thanks for your prayers.
June 05
Jun 16, 2005
6-22-05
Hello y'all
Boy ol boy its been awhile, alot has happened. My puter is now just a box collecting dust, my back has been out about 4 times. Baseball and softball season is now over. My son was asked to be on the all stars team but we had to turn it down due to him going to his dad's for 5 weeks, its not fair to him or his team so he did not join, :-(. Its finally warm here, down right hot for a week. I was in heaven. But I also found out I am allergic to sun bathing. Nasty, but I am hard headed, fat looks better tan, and our pool does not clean its self.Mothers day was pure hell, not going to get into that. That kids were great tho, I am so blessed. My truck has bit the dust, I love that truck. My DH wants me to trade it in on a mini van,hmmmmmmmm nope!! I am going to get the truck fixed. Hopefully by the time my chicklettes get back from their fathers. I am going to miss them :-( . I am glad they see him, but I want them here with me, but they will have a good time. They are going to see our neighbors in ND when we lived there, my DD and Em were bestest friends and she now lives in the same state as my ex. Arlies Q was a wonderful friend to us when at Minot. We lost touch, then she found us through my ex's wife. It was so nice to hear from her and she has had WLS and looks great, such a sweetheart, but we still dont talk often. Its hard when time and distance is there. I am just really excited she will get to see the chicklettes after 8 years.
Well as of Friday 6-17-05 my info was sent to insurance for approval, fingers crossed it will be approved. I am so ready for this. I really need to have WLS so that I can get a handle on my back. I am so tired of pain, not being able to do things, not being able to walk normal. BUT clear skies are coming. I know it. I will one day look back on this as a memory, :-). Well I miss y'all and hope to get on more often while the chicklettes are with their father, its frees up 2 puters. Bye for now Thin wishes and WLS dreams-- Tammy
Hello y'all
Boy ol boy its been awhile, alot has happened. My puter is now just a box collecting dust, my back has been out about 4 times. Baseball and softball season is now over. My son was asked to be on the all stars team but we had to turn it down due to him going to his dad's for 5 weeks, its not fair to him or his team so he did not join, :-(. Its finally warm here, down right hot for a week. I was in heaven. But I also found out I am allergic to sun bathing. Nasty, but I am hard headed, fat looks better tan, and our pool does not clean its self.Mothers day was pure hell, not going to get into that. That kids were great tho, I am so blessed. My truck has bit the dust, I love that truck. My DH wants me to trade it in on a mini van,hmmmmmmmm nope!! I am going to get the truck fixed. Hopefully by the time my chicklettes get back from their fathers. I am going to miss them :-( . I am glad they see him, but I want them here with me, but they will have a good time. They are going to see our neighbors in ND when we lived there, my DD and Em were bestest friends and she now lives in the same state as my ex. Arlies Q was a wonderful friend to us when at Minot. We lost touch, then she found us through my ex's wife. It was so nice to hear from her and she has had WLS and looks great, such a sweetheart, but we still dont talk often. Its hard when time and distance is there. I am just really excited she will get to see the chicklettes after 8 years.
Well as of Friday 6-17-05 my info was sent to insurance for approval, fingers crossed it will be approved. I am so ready for this. I really need to have WLS so that I can get a handle on my back. I am so tired of pain, not being able to do things, not being able to walk normal. BUT clear skies are coming. I know it. I will one day look back on this as a memory, :-). Well I miss y'all and hope to get on more often while the chicklettes are with their father, its frees up 2 puters. Bye for now Thin wishes and WLS dreams-- Tammy
May 05
May 03, 2005
Hello all 5-4-05
I had my pysc eval today, you would not believe what happened. Keep in mind I called yesterday for directions and told her who I was and that I had a appointment AND called twice today to confirm and ask about the payment. I get there after a hour in a half drive in a city I have not driven in and check in. The receptionist tells me I am not suppost to be there until Friday, ahhhhhhhhhhhh. I open my case and take out the letter showing her the time and DATE. She then says I have to see what Dr Olivares wants to do about this. In the mean time another lady walks in, she checks in and has a seat. After about 10 minutes the Dr comes out and calls my name, then says, I have both of you here for the same time. There has been a mistake. You are not to be here until Friday, and if it was any day but today I could see you both. Due to a concert at the dome their parking lot was rented out for the night and everyone HAD to be out by 6. So she then says" how are you 2 going to work this out?" I step up and say, I have a letter showing the time and date plus the fact I had to arrange a babysitter and the dang drive plus miss my chicklettes softball game. The other lady said and bless her heart I will reschedule, just how soon will you be able to get me(the other lady) in. 2 weeks Dr Olivares said, the other lady said ok. While waiting for the Dr to get her a card she asked how long have I been waiting for this appointment, I told her since March but I meant to say Feb., I asked her the same and she said since Oct. Now I feel very bad. My heart really hurt for her, she never once smiled, not upon entering, not when she sat down, not once. She said its no big deal, again I am feeling bad. She left.(its sad that some people can not find something in the day to smile about) The dr takes me back to her office we talk, SHE is a very sweet lady and she has had WLS. I would not have ever thought that she did, she is beautiful, Latin, just her ora is nice. We talk for 40 minutes, she asked me my age and weight, I told her and she said I would not have guessed that. She asked about what I had tried in the past, what i knew about WLS the +'s and the -'s. I told her my history, about 1994 when I tried for WLS before. My chicklettes :-). We talked about my back, she said something that suprised me, she said usually when someone has a injury they become the injury. Please dont get me wrong, my back hurts like hell constantly, I take muscle relaxers and pain meds regularly, but I know exactly what she was talking about. Its weird, my life is my injury. I have stopped doing things because of my back. Just gets you thinking. She was just wonderful. She asked me if I have thought about a year from now what I would look like. Truthfully I havent. I said I know I will need plastic surgery in about 3 years. I have HUGE stretch marks, very wide. That is a sign of skin damage plus the fact I have had 4 babies, stretched muscles. She said ok, but that is not what she was talking about. Cross that bridge when we come to it. She asked if I feel sensual. I thought about it for a moment, after the memories of a voice from the past left I said no. She then said there is nothing wrong with feeling sensual, its a good goal, due to the fact that when you feel that way you are confident, you hold yourself in a great way, its shows on your face and your body language. You strive to stay that way. I told her that I told my DH I wanted to be sexy, she said good, hold on to that, keep it as a goal. She wants me to start walking :-|, its kills me. and I need to get off the effexor. She asked if I wanted someone to talk to about the past, and if I did she would be there for me. She said that I have taken positive moves towards my new life journey. She said most of the people she sees have not done/change one thing to make this life altering journey. She said alot of people look to WLS as a cure. I then said its not a cure only a tool. She miled so big. SHe then said, I am so happy you said that. She said I am making the correct chooses and guess what, SHE IS GOING TO RECOMMEND ME FOR WLS!!!!!!!!!!!! Doing the happy dance!!!!
So now I have to get the papers together and submit for insurance approval once Dr J gets her letter.WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to thank everyone for your support and encouraging words, this OH family that I have is wonderful and I am so very blessed.
Thin wishes and WLS dreams-Tammy
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Hello all 5-5-05
Guess what, I got a call after I called Mary in Dr Johnson office to see what I need to do next, it was the Nuts office asking if I would take a cancelation TOMORROW!!!. Let me think about ithmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, YES!!! So I go tomorrow at 3 pm for the follow up visit, I am nervous about it. If i gain more then 3 pounds I have to wait a month for another visit. During that time of the month I tend to gain 8 or more pounds for a week then woooosh its gone. The nutritionist told me not to have a appointment during that time, well its not that time for me BUT I am having bowel problems. So when I took DS to PT today at the hospital to went on a hunt for a scale. I am the same weight, yippppeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! But I am doing a bowel prep for releif. This means that within a few weeks we can put in for insurance approval!!!! I cant believe it. Someone pinch me.I am sooooooooo very berry happy. I just wish the bowel prep would work, when I was a teen I abused laxatives, they no longer work on me. I really hope this nasty stuff does, it said from 30 minutes to 6 hours. Its only been about an hour. Fingers crossed. I am going to wear light clothes tomorrow just to make sure I do not add weight from jeans and a sweater. I know I am a nut, you gotta love me those, I grow on ya. Okey dokey I am going back to the main board. I will up date ya tomorrow. Thin wishes and WLS dreams :-)
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5-6-05 Hello all
Today has been very LONG. Its been a great day, but i am tired. So this is what happened, I got up early and sat with Zach while he ate bfast, he is so cute, my favorite red head!!, off to school for him at 8. Dh and Ry where still sleeping so I crawled back into bed. ( last night I did a bowel prep to make 100% sure I did not gain weight for the Nut follow up appointment, now if you have EVER done this before you know you are not to far from the toilet for long until its done clean :-|). Within seconds I am asleep, (1st time that has happened in years), about an hour later my back decided I had been in bed to long, so while DH and Ry were still asleep I made myself up, put on a light weight dress, did my hair,etc... I decided that I did not like the dress (I am not a dress wearer) so I change. I go into Ry's room and she is standing in her crib with the biggest smile and starts to jump. Babies are so much fun!!! I get her feed and we are in the recliner in my room and she and I play tickle, after a while DH moves his foot, have you seen the pampers commerical with the baby trying to find her dad snoring, well that was Ry and her daddy. She grabbed his foot and tickled it and he jumped , it was tooooooo funny. Then she crawled up on the bed and started tickling daddy. Great start to the day. I get clothes out for DH and for RY and get her dressed, DH follows along. He asked what I had planned, I told him that I was taking us out to bfast. So we went to Denny's, I got the Sausage gravy bowl, yipee skippy you would not believe how good that was, I gave DH the other meat that came with it. I only ate about half of it. Yummy for the tummy. I know once I have WLS I will not be able to have that. After bfast we went to Wally World for a few odds and ends. Then home, DH took me a new way home and it was beautiful. Everything is greening up, spring flowers are in bloom. The sun was shinning, kinda warm out today. I am kinda new here still, since I had a work accident only after 3 months of being here, then I was pretty much in bed trying to recoupe, so needless to say I dont get out much. By DH going this new way was wonderful, I truly see why he loves this state so much. OK so we get home and the last night stuff is still working, I only have about 10 minutes until I have to head for the city. Ok on the road on time. I have to do 80 though because I got on 390 by my house instead of the next town. But I made it. Busy day at Highland, I park on the upper deck, pretty nice over look of the park. Once I get inside there is a sea of white hair, I love older people, I smile and say Good Afternoon to as many as I can, they smile back. I register, and go to a different Nut Office. I dont know the ladies name, but I honestly hope I dont have to talk to her again. She looks as if she has never had a weight problem, telling me that I still have to make better choices, ok we can ALWAYS improve, she told me that I still eat to much sugar, hmmmmmm 1 glass of chocolate milk in March, and 3 lemon cookies on 4-2. A bit confused, but I smiled and said ok. Then she preceeded to tell me I should not eat cheese. I do not fry food, I do not eat butter or its substitutes. I eat very little fatty meats. NOW according to her no cheese to much fat. Our bodies either big, little, skinny, or fat need fat. Granted not alot but some. She also said no fried eggs. I use Fat Free Pam,
hmmmmmmmm, I explained this to her, she said eggs are not good for you. Now I am completely confused. In my uneducated opinion on nutrition I dont think she knows what she is talking about. So the true southerner that I am I smiled and said yes ma'am, I will work even harder on that. She then said ok just work on that and you will not gain any weght back. She then told me I need to only buy the more expensive cuts of meats to eat. Hmmmmmmm is she going to pay for that since I have a huge family. I dont see anything wrong with buying the cheaper, 75 to 80% lean ground beef/chuck, frying it up then rinsing it in hot water to get the extra grease out. OHHHHHHH she also said meals should take 30 to 45 minutes. I have read Pouch Rules for Dummies, its states that if you take over 25 minutes to eat you will FAIL. Can we say very CONFUSED. I know once I have WLS I will not eat sugary things due to dumping, nor will I eat higher fat foods due to dumping, I will not drink pop, I will follow the CORRECT rules. I tried to tell miss nutritionist that, but she shot me down everytime I opened my mouth. (I think everyone knows the type, they know it all, even the person inside me that wants to shed this big body riddled with pain for the slimmer nonpain body I know is in there) I read the main message board a few times a day, I see OH family memebers eating cheese, eggs, SF cookies etc..... I honestly beleive that the nutritionist that deals with WLS patients should themselves be WLS patients. Then they would know how to treat a WLS patient. I even told her I would be getting protein from protein shakes andI said during that time of the month when we want chocolate ( I am not really a candy eater), I can have the Belguim Chocolate Protein drink. She asked how many calories, fat content, etc. Then went on to say its not a good choice, no more chocolate ever. Well our time came to a end. She said Mary in Dr J office will call me, I asked "so does this mean you are going to recommend me?" she said YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (happy dance). Now its a visit with Dr J and insurance approval!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeahhh. I am so happy, I truly though she was going to make me come back with anohter months worth of food diaries. I left before she could change her mind, came home and when to Zach's make up ball game. He plays catcher, he is soo good. After 3 innings, the couch switched him to right field, the next inning 1st base. He was great at first base. He batted 3 times, the first 2 striked out, the 3rd was a grounder and he made it to first. He did so good. I am very proud of him. Tomorrow in the morning Zach and Kairee have a parade, for opening day and both have games at the same time. That is going to be fun, I will diffently get my excerise in tomorrow. Well I am very tired and I am going to bed and dream of WLS and life after words. Sleep sweet everyone, thin wishes and WLS dreams- Tammy
I had my pysc eval today, you would not believe what happened. Keep in mind I called yesterday for directions and told her who I was and that I had a appointment AND called twice today to confirm and ask about the payment. I get there after a hour in a half drive in a city I have not driven in and check in. The receptionist tells me I am not suppost to be there until Friday, ahhhhhhhhhhhh. I open my case and take out the letter showing her the time and DATE. She then says I have to see what Dr Olivares wants to do about this. In the mean time another lady walks in, she checks in and has a seat. After about 10 minutes the Dr comes out and calls my name, then says, I have both of you here for the same time. There has been a mistake. You are not to be here until Friday, and if it was any day but today I could see you both. Due to a concert at the dome their parking lot was rented out for the night and everyone HAD to be out by 6. So she then says" how are you 2 going to work this out?" I step up and say, I have a letter showing the time and date plus the fact I had to arrange a babysitter and the dang drive plus miss my chicklettes softball game. The other lady said and bless her heart I will reschedule, just how soon will you be able to get me(the other lady) in. 2 weeks Dr Olivares said, the other lady said ok. While waiting for the Dr to get her a card she asked how long have I been waiting for this appointment, I told her since March but I meant to say Feb., I asked her the same and she said since Oct. Now I feel very bad. My heart really hurt for her, she never once smiled, not upon entering, not when she sat down, not once. She said its no big deal, again I am feeling bad. She left.(its sad that some people can not find something in the day to smile about) The dr takes me back to her office we talk, SHE is a very sweet lady and she has had WLS. I would not have ever thought that she did, she is beautiful, Latin, just her ora is nice. We talk for 40 minutes, she asked me my age and weight, I told her and she said I would not have guessed that. She asked about what I had tried in the past, what i knew about WLS the +'s and the -'s. I told her my history, about 1994 when I tried for WLS before. My chicklettes :-). We talked about my back, she said something that suprised me, she said usually when someone has a injury they become the injury. Please dont get me wrong, my back hurts like hell constantly, I take muscle relaxers and pain meds regularly, but I know exactly what she was talking about. Its weird, my life is my injury. I have stopped doing things because of my back. Just gets you thinking. She was just wonderful. She asked me if I have thought about a year from now what I would look like. Truthfully I havent. I said I know I will need plastic surgery in about 3 years. I have HUGE stretch marks, very wide. That is a sign of skin damage plus the fact I have had 4 babies, stretched muscles. She said ok, but that is not what she was talking about. Cross that bridge when we come to it. She asked if I feel sensual. I thought about it for a moment, after the memories of a voice from the past left I said no. She then said there is nothing wrong with feeling sensual, its a good goal, due to the fact that when you feel that way you are confident, you hold yourself in a great way, its shows on your face and your body language. You strive to stay that way. I told her that I told my DH I wanted to be sexy, she said good, hold on to that, keep it as a goal. She wants me to start walking :-|, its kills me. and I need to get off the effexor. She asked if I wanted someone to talk to about the past, and if I did she would be there for me. She said that I have taken positive moves towards my new life journey. She said most of the people she sees have not done/change one thing to make this life altering journey. She said alot of people look to WLS as a cure. I then said its not a cure only a tool. She miled so big. SHe then said, I am so happy you said that. She said I am making the correct chooses and guess what, SHE IS GOING TO RECOMMEND ME FOR WLS!!!!!!!!!!!! Doing the happy dance!!!!
So now I have to get the papers together and submit for insurance approval once Dr J gets her letter.WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to thank everyone for your support and encouraging words, this OH family that I have is wonderful and I am so very blessed.
Thin wishes and WLS dreams-Tammy
Hello all 5-5-05
Guess what, I got a call after I called Mary in Dr Johnson office to see what I need to do next, it was the Nuts office asking if I would take a cancelation TOMORROW!!!. Let me think about ithmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, YES!!! So I go tomorrow at 3 pm for the follow up visit, I am nervous about it. If i gain more then 3 pounds I have to wait a month for another visit. During that time of the month I tend to gain 8 or more pounds for a week then woooosh its gone. The nutritionist told me not to have a appointment during that time, well its not that time for me BUT I am having bowel problems. So when I took DS to PT today at the hospital to went on a hunt for a scale. I am the same weight, yippppeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! But I am doing a bowel prep for releif. This means that within a few weeks we can put in for insurance approval!!!! I cant believe it. Someone pinch me.I am sooooooooo very berry happy. I just wish the bowel prep would work, when I was a teen I abused laxatives, they no longer work on me. I really hope this nasty stuff does, it said from 30 minutes to 6 hours. Its only been about an hour. Fingers crossed. I am going to wear light clothes tomorrow just to make sure I do not add weight from jeans and a sweater. I know I am a nut, you gotta love me those, I grow on ya. Okey dokey I am going back to the main board. I will up date ya tomorrow. Thin wishes and WLS dreams :-)
/center>5-6-05 Hello all
Today has been very LONG. Its been a great day, but i am tired. So this is what happened, I got up early and sat with Zach while he ate bfast, he is so cute, my favorite red head!!, off to school for him at 8. Dh and Ry where still sleeping so I crawled back into bed. ( last night I did a bowel prep to make 100% sure I did not gain weight for the Nut follow up appointment, now if you have EVER done this before you know you are not to far from the toilet for long until its done clean :-|). Within seconds I am asleep, (1st time that has happened in years), about an hour later my back decided I had been in bed to long, so while DH and Ry were still asleep I made myself up, put on a light weight dress, did my hair,etc... I decided that I did not like the dress (I am not a dress wearer) so I change. I go into Ry's room and she is standing in her crib with the biggest smile and starts to jump. Babies are so much fun!!! I get her feed and we are in the recliner in my room and she and I play tickle, after a while DH moves his foot, have you seen the pampers commerical with the baby trying to find her dad snoring, well that was Ry and her daddy. She grabbed his foot and tickled it and he jumped , it was tooooooo funny. Then she crawled up on the bed and started tickling daddy. Great start to the day. I get clothes out for DH and for RY and get her dressed, DH follows along. He asked what I had planned, I told him that I was taking us out to bfast. So we went to Denny's, I got the Sausage gravy bowl, yipee skippy you would not believe how good that was, I gave DH the other meat that came with it. I only ate about half of it. Yummy for the tummy. I know once I have WLS I will not be able to have that. After bfast we went to Wally World for a few odds and ends. Then home, DH took me a new way home and it was beautiful. Everything is greening up, spring flowers are in bloom. The sun was shinning, kinda warm out today. I am kinda new here still, since I had a work accident only after 3 months of being here, then I was pretty much in bed trying to recoupe, so needless to say I dont get out much. By DH going this new way was wonderful, I truly see why he loves this state so much. OK so we get home and the last night stuff is still working, I only have about 10 minutes until I have to head for the city. Ok on the road on time. I have to do 80 though because I got on 390 by my house instead of the next town. But I made it. Busy day at Highland, I park on the upper deck, pretty nice over look of the park. Once I get inside there is a sea of white hair, I love older people, I smile and say Good Afternoon to as many as I can, they smile back. I register, and go to a different Nut Office. I dont know the ladies name, but I honestly hope I dont have to talk to her again. She looks as if she has never had a weight problem, telling me that I still have to make better choices, ok we can ALWAYS improve, she told me that I still eat to much sugar, hmmmmmm 1 glass of chocolate milk in March, and 3 lemon cookies on 4-2. A bit confused, but I smiled and said ok. Then she preceeded to tell me I should not eat cheese. I do not fry food, I do not eat butter or its substitutes. I eat very little fatty meats. NOW according to her no cheese to much fat. Our bodies either big, little, skinny, or fat need fat. Granted not alot but some. She also said no fried eggs. I use Fat Free Pam,
hmmmmmmmm, I explained this to her, she said eggs are not good for you. Now I am completely confused. In my uneducated opinion on nutrition I dont think she knows what she is talking about. So the true southerner that I am I smiled and said yes ma'am, I will work even harder on that. She then said ok just work on that and you will not gain any weght back. She then told me I need to only buy the more expensive cuts of meats to eat. Hmmmmmmm is she going to pay for that since I have a huge family. I dont see anything wrong with buying the cheaper, 75 to 80% lean ground beef/chuck, frying it up then rinsing it in hot water to get the extra grease out. OHHHHHHH she also said meals should take 30 to 45 minutes. I have read Pouch Rules for Dummies, its states that if you take over 25 minutes to eat you will FAIL. Can we say very CONFUSED. I know once I have WLS I will not eat sugary things due to dumping, nor will I eat higher fat foods due to dumping, I will not drink pop, I will follow the CORRECT rules. I tried to tell miss nutritionist that, but she shot me down everytime I opened my mouth. (I think everyone knows the type, they know it all, even the person inside me that wants to shed this big body riddled with pain for the slimmer nonpain body I know is in there) I read the main message board a few times a day, I see OH family memebers eating cheese, eggs, SF cookies etc..... I honestly beleive that the nutritionist that deals with WLS patients should themselves be WLS patients. Then they would know how to treat a WLS patient. I even told her I would be getting protein from protein shakes andI said during that time of the month when we want chocolate ( I am not really a candy eater), I can have the Belguim Chocolate Protein drink. She asked how many calories, fat content, etc. Then went on to say its not a good choice, no more chocolate ever. Well our time came to a end. She said Mary in Dr J office will call me, I asked "so does this mean you are going to recommend me?" she said YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (happy dance). Now its a visit with Dr J and insurance approval!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeahhh. I am so happy, I truly though she was going to make me come back with anohter months worth of food diaries. I left before she could change her mind, came home and when to Zach's make up ball game. He plays catcher, he is soo good. After 3 innings, the couch switched him to right field, the next inning 1st base. He was great at first base. He batted 3 times, the first 2 striked out, the 3rd was a grounder and he made it to first. He did so good. I am very proud of him. Tomorrow in the morning Zach and Kairee have a parade, for opening day and both have games at the same time. That is going to be fun, I will diffently get my excerise in tomorrow. Well I am very tired and I am going to bed and dream of WLS and life after words. Sleep sweet everyone, thin wishes and WLS dreams- Tammy
April 05
Apr 06, 2005
4/3/05 Hello again
Well its been bumpy ride this pass few days. I wish I could get out of my mind for a few minutes. It continuely goes. Kairee my oldest daughter fell down the staires. I took her to the ER and she is ok thank God. No physical activity for a week. I have been thinking about WLS. I am so excited about it. I hope to have it by July. The past 3 days Ih ave been thinking (go figure) about long term. What happens to you long term? Do you have complications long term. Will i be shortening my life by doing this. I talked to my aunt this weekend, she said a few things to me that got me thinking. ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH. I have researched ans researched this. I was going to have WLS in 1994 so why am I now worrying. Maybe because I am going to drive myself insane. just kidding. I look on the boards for dates before 1999 and I dont see any. I try to read everyones profile I can. I am usually up until 1 am reading. I hope I am making the right desicion I have 4 children to think about. I guess i am just nervous. Why I dont know. My Dr said this can be reservable if they have too, so I dont know why I have this nagging feeling to find post ops over 5 years out. Well i need to finish the wash. Until Next time. :-) P.S. I posted some on my questions tonight and Tooter gave me some great sites, here they are, freepgs.com/bariatricbytes/Risks.html, freepgs.com/bariatricbytes/Failure.html, beyondchange-obesity.com/medicalMatters/medicalMatters.html. She is really a mountain of information. I wish I had 1/4 the knowledge she has.
4/3/05 1:40am
Well i guess the time change has gotten to me. I have been thinking of reasons why I want the WLS. everyone talks about goals, so many profiles have them in it. So i have been thinking (go figure I am surprised I do not have smoke coming ou tof my ears all the time....lol) As I was laying in bed with DH sleeping away I thought about it and here it goes:
Here are some goals for after surgery....
Even tho I am healthy, be at a healthy weight
Lose 25 lbs
Lose 50 lbs
Lose 100 lbs century card member
Lose 150 lbs
Weigh under 275 lbs
Weigh under 250 lbs
Weigh under 225 lbs
Weigh under 200 lbs
Weigh under 175 lbs
Weigh under 150 lbs
Fit into a 22/24
Fit into a 18/20
Fit into a 14/16
Fit into a 12
Fit into a 10
Fit into a 9
Possibly a 8 (my dream size)
Fit into my DH's jeans
Feel my hips bones
See my collar bones
See my jaw line
Have ENERGY
Have my chicklettes hug me so their hands touch
Have my DH be able to pick me up and hold me & possibly do adult things that way
Be able to weigh myself and not get sick to my tummy doing it
Get the seatbelt of our Toyota on and off with ease
Sit in our Toyota without the belt holder digging into my thigh
Sit in either of our trucks without looking down and seeing nothing but belly
Climb a flight of stairs without becoming winded
Sit in a plane seat and be able to pull the tray down without it hitting my tummy
Cross my legs and sit like a lady not with my ankle on my knee
Sit on the floor indian style and my feet not falling asleep
Sit with my legs pressed up against my chest
Sit on the floor without intense back pain
Get up off the floor and not need any help
Be able to have my back surgery and it work
Sit on a swing and not feel like it going to fall
Use the treadmill I have for its for not a quilt rack
Use the other work out equipment we have
Wear a bathing suit and look awesome in it
Actually swim in our pool
Be able to wrap up in a bath towel
Join the school walkers in town
Be able to walk around without people staring because I am fat
Walk by someone I know and have not seen in a while and them not recognize me
Actually develop and continue a excerise routine at home
Be able to run a mile in less then 7 minutes
Ride a Beach Cruiser Bike
Ice skating with my chicklettes
Go sledding with my chicklettes at Swains
Look in a mirror and see a smaller me
Blow dry my hair and not get hot and sweaty
Buy sexy clothes
Buy a pair of Levi 505 jeans and they FIT
Buy clothes from ANY store
Add colors to my wardrobe (not so much black)
Stop watching life and fully be able to participate in life
Live my life as a healthy, active women and be free from back pain
Play at the park with my chicklettes
Go rock climbing again Utah was amazing
Go to amusement parks and ride the roller coasters again
Dress up for Halloween again I use to love doing that
Be excited about the holidays again
Polish my toenails without bending in weird positions
Get a belly button ring
Not be embrassed to go to Vikki’s secret and buy anything in there
Weat a thong and it look good
Wear thigh highs and not have my thighs rub
Wear a skirt and not be afraid on my knees rubbing together
Be in more pictures then I take
Wear clothes without an X in it
Not lying about my weight on insurance forms
Get a tummy tuck
Feel good about myself again to wear makeup
Get my girls lifted maybe implants (dh is completely against that)
Actually be sensual, sexy
Most of all be happy with me!!!!
4/6/05 Hello all
Today was my consult with Dr johnson. He was great. I lost 2 more pounds, now down 13 from 3-3-05. (no clue how or why I am losing) Dr Johnson said without inner complications I will have a lap RNY, he wants me to be one of the top 5 WLS that he does on his own. He thinks I could have a 80% plus weight lose IF i follow instructions and eat right. WOOOOT!!!!!! I am so excited, hmmmm but yet scared :-} & :-{...lol. This is the best news, I called Ga. today to see where i was on the list to have my records copied and sent to me. (remember i had a 40 plus day wait and i was at the bottom of the list). The wonderful mr. burbank said something has been weighing on his heart about me and he took me from the bottom of the list to the top and he was mailing my records to me tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!! Yippeeeeeeeeee!!!! I also called my other dr there in GA and i got the supervisor in records and I told her I have been requesting for the past 3 weeks to get the release form from them so they could sent me my records. She knew nothing about it, so I ask what I could do to speed this up and not have to wait another 3 weeks, she said she would fax the form to me to sign, I gave her a local fax number and she tried it 3 times, and could you beleive it would not work. I called the place and I got a different number and believe it ot not that did not work either, very weird. So I asked if she would email me the form and I would print it out and fax it back to her. Guess what, I could not get the file open! I do not have excel on my computer. SO I called the library and asked if their computers have excel and THEY DID!So i ran out of the house got there, printed, signed and faxed it back. now the wonderful sweet supervisor Ansley (isnt that a beautiful name) said she will personally mail out my records TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!So in about a week I will have both of my records. my PCP can varify my history and off to the surgeon it goes for insurance approval!!!!!!!! Dr johnson said again they never have had a problem gettting approval from my insurance company!!!! He said once approved surgery will be within a month!!!!!!!!! A MONTH!!!!!!!!! A MONTH!!!!!!! A MONTH!!!! OMG that is scary but FANTASTIC!!!! I have not even told DH yet. I am waiting until bed. We talk the best in bed :-). I have spent the day in the ICU after getting back from my appointment with Dr Johnson because my mother in law is in there. (She was admitted on tuesday because of a major headache and dizziness. her BP spiked and then dropped just as fast to 40. So needless to say she has been admitted. I have been with her since. I hope they figure out what is wrong BEFORE they send her home PLEASE pray for her to recover from this mystery.) So now I am extremely tired and excited. A MONTH!!!!!!! or soon after hehhehehehe. take care,
thin wishes and WLS dreams good nighters
4-14 Hello all
Today in the mail i got my med records from Moody!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!! I have about 6 past attempts in those records so I might not need the other set coming. I am a rage of emotions now, maybe due to my monthly, who knows. I know I am scared. But I dont really know of what. I posted on the main board about driving myself nutty (which I probably am due to the fact my dang brain never stops). I know this WLS is the best thing for me. My back can not handle much more of my weight, exspecially since I have yetanother herination. Once the weight comes off I can get my back fixed. You dont know how that excits me! BUT in the back of my head i have doubt, I have read the memorial page to pay my respects to the brothers and sister that have lost their lives trying to become healthy. My biggest fear is not waking up after they put me under. Normal I guess. Its driving me nuts. Like i said before I want good things for me finally. I have a preatty face (so my DH says) now I want the rest to match :) I read the before and after gallery all the time due to its up lifts me. I am so happy for all the people that have gone before me and changed their lives for the better. I read tonight Jersey Judy. She has a great spirit. I will probably reread her profile again.What i need to learn is the foods that are high in protein. I know its protein first, then veggies then carbs? hmmmm i forgot the third one. lol. I have cut out soda, sweet tea ( that was not as hard as I thought it would be) I drink 3 - 32 oz bottles of water a day, trying to get to 4. So that would be 128oz a day.I still love my carbs, but once the WLS happens I know myself I will follow the rules to a T. I am just that way, afraid of screwing up.I wonder how my personality will change, at one time I was so confident of myself. Never did I second guess myself, now I second guess my second guess........lol. I have read that during WL marriages go in the toilet, I dont want that to happen, my divorce was hell on me. I never want to do that again. Plus my DH is a wonderful man. :-). I asked him tonight if he thought maybe the devil was putting doubt in my head and he said possibly but more likely it was me. LOL leave it to him to give it to me straight. I think my biggest fear is if I fail he might fall out of love with me. Its happened before. BUT i guess its hard to fail if you do the right things, so that is what I am going to do. This is for me and me alone. Someone posted to me dont forget to love yourself, I think that was great advice. Well I better get to bed its 1:40am. Nighters :)
Well its been bumpy ride this pass few days. I wish I could get out of my mind for a few minutes. It continuely goes. Kairee my oldest daughter fell down the staires. I took her to the ER and she is ok thank God. No physical activity for a week. I have been thinking about WLS. I am so excited about it. I hope to have it by July. The past 3 days Ih ave been thinking (go figure) about long term. What happens to you long term? Do you have complications long term. Will i be shortening my life by doing this. I talked to my aunt this weekend, she said a few things to me that got me thinking. ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH. I have researched ans researched this. I was going to have WLS in 1994 so why am I now worrying. Maybe because I am going to drive myself insane. just kidding. I look on the boards for dates before 1999 and I dont see any. I try to read everyones profile I can. I am usually up until 1 am reading. I hope I am making the right desicion I have 4 children to think about. I guess i am just nervous. Why I dont know. My Dr said this can be reservable if they have too, so I dont know why I have this nagging feeling to find post ops over 5 years out. Well i need to finish the wash. Until Next time. :-) P.S. I posted some on my questions tonight and Tooter gave me some great sites, here they are, freepgs.com/bariatricbytes/Risks.html, freepgs.com/bariatricbytes/Failure.html, beyondchange-obesity.com/medicalMatters/medicalMatters.html. She is really a mountain of information. I wish I had 1/4 the knowledge she has.
4/3/05 1:40am
Well i guess the time change has gotten to me. I have been thinking of reasons why I want the WLS. everyone talks about goals, so many profiles have them in it. So i have been thinking (go figure I am surprised I do not have smoke coming ou tof my ears all the time....lol) As I was laying in bed with DH sleeping away I thought about it and here it goes:
Here are some goals for after surgery....
Even tho I am healthy, be at a healthy weight
Lose 25 lbs
Lose 50 lbs
Lose 100 lbs century card member
Lose 150 lbs
Weigh under 275 lbs
Weigh under 250 lbs
Weigh under 225 lbs
Weigh under 200 lbs
Weigh under 175 lbs
Weigh under 150 lbs
Fit into a 22/24
Fit into a 18/20
Fit into a 14/16
Fit into a 12
Fit into a 10
Fit into a 9
Possibly a 8 (my dream size)
Fit into my DH's jeans
Feel my hips bones
See my collar bones
See my jaw line
Have ENERGY
Have my chicklettes hug me so their hands touch
Have my DH be able to pick me up and hold me & possibly do adult things that way
Be able to weigh myself and not get sick to my tummy doing it
Get the seatbelt of our Toyota on and off with ease
Sit in our Toyota without the belt holder digging into my thigh
Sit in either of our trucks without looking down and seeing nothing but belly
Climb a flight of stairs without becoming winded
Sit in a plane seat and be able to pull the tray down without it hitting my tummy
Cross my legs and sit like a lady not with my ankle on my knee
Sit on the floor indian style and my feet not falling asleep
Sit with my legs pressed up against my chest
Sit on the floor without intense back pain
Get up off the floor and not need any help
Be able to have my back surgery and it work
Sit on a swing and not feel like it going to fall
Use the treadmill I have for its for not a quilt rack
Use the other work out equipment we have
Wear a bathing suit and look awesome in it
Actually swim in our pool
Be able to wrap up in a bath towel
Join the school walkers in town
Be able to walk around without people staring because I am fat
Walk by someone I know and have not seen in a while and them not recognize me
Actually develop and continue a excerise routine at home
Be able to run a mile in less then 7 minutes
Ride a Beach Cruiser Bike
Ice skating with my chicklettes
Go sledding with my chicklettes at Swains
Look in a mirror and see a smaller me
Blow dry my hair and not get hot and sweaty
Buy sexy clothes
Buy a pair of Levi 505 jeans and they FIT
Buy clothes from ANY store
Add colors to my wardrobe (not so much black)
Stop watching life and fully be able to participate in life
Live my life as a healthy, active women and be free from back pain
Play at the park with my chicklettes
Go rock climbing again Utah was amazing
Go to amusement parks and ride the roller coasters again
Dress up for Halloween again I use to love doing that
Be excited about the holidays again
Polish my toenails without bending in weird positions
Get a belly button ring
Not be embrassed to go to Vikki’s secret and buy anything in there
Weat a thong and it look good
Wear thigh highs and not have my thighs rub
Wear a skirt and not be afraid on my knees rubbing together
Be in more pictures then I take
Wear clothes without an X in it
Not lying about my weight on insurance forms
Get a tummy tuck
Feel good about myself again to wear makeup
Get my girls lifted maybe implants (dh is completely against that)
Actually be sensual, sexy
Most of all be happy with me!!!!
4/6/05 Hello all
Today was my consult with Dr johnson. He was great. I lost 2 more pounds, now down 13 from 3-3-05. (no clue how or why I am losing) Dr Johnson said without inner complications I will have a lap RNY, he wants me to be one of the top 5 WLS that he does on his own. He thinks I could have a 80% plus weight lose IF i follow instructions and eat right. WOOOOT!!!!!! I am so excited, hmmmm but yet scared :-} & :-{...lol. This is the best news, I called Ga. today to see where i was on the list to have my records copied and sent to me. (remember i had a 40 plus day wait and i was at the bottom of the list). The wonderful mr. burbank said something has been weighing on his heart about me and he took me from the bottom of the list to the top and he was mailing my records to me tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!! Yippeeeeeeeeee!!!! I also called my other dr there in GA and i got the supervisor in records and I told her I have been requesting for the past 3 weeks to get the release form from them so they could sent me my records. She knew nothing about it, so I ask what I could do to speed this up and not have to wait another 3 weeks, she said she would fax the form to me to sign, I gave her a local fax number and she tried it 3 times, and could you beleive it would not work. I called the place and I got a different number and believe it ot not that did not work either, very weird. So I asked if she would email me the form and I would print it out and fax it back to her. Guess what, I could not get the file open! I do not have excel on my computer. SO I called the library and asked if their computers have excel and THEY DID!So i ran out of the house got there, printed, signed and faxed it back. now the wonderful sweet supervisor Ansley (isnt that a beautiful name) said she will personally mail out my records TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!So in about a week I will have both of my records. my PCP can varify my history and off to the surgeon it goes for insurance approval!!!!!!!! Dr johnson said again they never have had a problem gettting approval from my insurance company!!!! He said once approved surgery will be within a month!!!!!!!!! A MONTH!!!!!!!!! A MONTH!!!!!!! A MONTH!!!! OMG that is scary but FANTASTIC!!!! I have not even told DH yet. I am waiting until bed. We talk the best in bed :-). I have spent the day in the ICU after getting back from my appointment with Dr Johnson because my mother in law is in there. (She was admitted on tuesday because of a major headache and dizziness. her BP spiked and then dropped just as fast to 40. So needless to say she has been admitted. I have been with her since. I hope they figure out what is wrong BEFORE they send her home PLEASE pray for her to recover from this mystery.) So now I am extremely tired and excited. A MONTH!!!!!!! or soon after hehhehehehe. take care,
thin wishes and WLS dreams good nighters
4-14 Hello all
Today in the mail i got my med records from Moody!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!! I have about 6 past attempts in those records so I might not need the other set coming. I am a rage of emotions now, maybe due to my monthly, who knows. I know I am scared. But I dont really know of what. I posted on the main board about driving myself nutty (which I probably am due to the fact my dang brain never stops). I know this WLS is the best thing for me. My back can not handle much more of my weight, exspecially since I have yetanother herination. Once the weight comes off I can get my back fixed. You dont know how that excits me! BUT in the back of my head i have doubt, I have read the memorial page to pay my respects to the brothers and sister that have lost their lives trying to become healthy. My biggest fear is not waking up after they put me under. Normal I guess. Its driving me nuts. Like i said before I want good things for me finally. I have a preatty face (so my DH says) now I want the rest to match :) I read the before and after gallery all the time due to its up lifts me. I am so happy for all the people that have gone before me and changed their lives for the better. I read tonight Jersey Judy. She has a great spirit. I will probably reread her profile again.What i need to learn is the foods that are high in protein. I know its protein first, then veggies then carbs? hmmmm i forgot the third one. lol. I have cut out soda, sweet tea ( that was not as hard as I thought it would be) I drink 3 - 32 oz bottles of water a day, trying to get to 4. So that would be 128oz a day.I still love my carbs, but once the WLS happens I know myself I will follow the rules to a T. I am just that way, afraid of screwing up.I wonder how my personality will change, at one time I was so confident of myself. Never did I second guess myself, now I second guess my second guess........lol. I have read that during WL marriages go in the toilet, I dont want that to happen, my divorce was hell on me. I never want to do that again. Plus my DH is a wonderful man. :-). I asked him tonight if he thought maybe the devil was putting doubt in my head and he said possibly but more likely it was me. LOL leave it to him to give it to me straight. I think my biggest fear is if I fail he might fall out of love with me. Its happened before. BUT i guess its hard to fail if you do the right things, so that is what I am going to do. This is for me and me alone. Someone posted to me dont forget to love yourself, I think that was great advice. Well I better get to bed its 1:40am. Nighters :)
March 05
Mar 16, 2005
