March 6th, 2010

Mar 05, 2010

Okay, lets see.... I joined a gym and hired a trainer.  ( Hiring the trainer was to keep me in the gym long enough to get results and feel better.  Doing it on my own would surely be a tripper.  I would have joined the rest of the clan at work that joined the gym, but experience tells me every one  else eventually quits and I am on my own. )  So, I made my goals about controlling stress and gaining on nutritional knowledge.  I wanted to add losing 50 lbs, but my trainer was adiment that I had an hourglass figure and it was not a good idea to take another 50 lbs off.  Toning up was my replacement.  It will take weight off me while gaining muscle. 
I am learning a lot about my eating habits, and what I am doing wrong that keeps a 12 pound roller coaster going on in my life. 
I am also learning that I can only concentrate on one thing at a time.  Dating and work  with built in manditory overtime and my home life and the gym is just too much.  (So I dropped dating, LOL!)  It wasn't going so hot anyways.  I guess am too independant , and my life is so crammed full... that I cannot give these guys all the adorning attention they seem to need to make things work.  I guess I am just not that type of person.  It doesn't feel  like too much of a loss... it doesnt feel like  a loss at all, it actually feels like a relief to stop trying.  (Wonder what that says about me!  Everyone thinks I am giving up and  tell me I am too picky.  I just don't care to raise a boyfriend.  Sorry .  I don't have the patience for that.
My body is coming together nicely though.  My core (tummy and back)  are pulling in nicely.  and the cardio seems to be relieving a lot of stress.  I have also discovered HOT YOGA, which is a wow thing to do.   I am just  too tired to worry.  LOL  It actually felt good to get on the eleptical yesterday. 
I am bouncing between sizes 14 and 16.  (No petite flower here)  but I like the way I am shaping.  I know it will take till summer to smooth out the lumps and bumps I have left on my body.  (Sagging skin and big boobs are another thing)

My work is having another biggest loser/ gainer contest.  I am joining in just so I can sit in on the lunchen/ classes they are offering.  I want to get as much info as I can!  Outside of that, I am keeping my workouts private and personnal.  It is about me.  The only thing I have right now that is just about me.  I kinda like it.  the gym has become my escape from the world.  feels pretty good to have an escape. 

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