just jacie
September 17, 2007
Sep 17, 2007
I haven't lost any more weight and I'll be honest and say that I have been so frustrated that I'm not making the best choices all the time. Of course that will not help me lose any more weight so it's a vicious cycle here that I need to get out of. I need to go back to the basics, making sure I get all my protein in.
July 18, 2007
Jul 19, 2007
Week before last I lost 4.something pounds, then this week I put less than half back on again. My measurements are going down so I guess it's not a technical plateau. It's still frustrating. I hate to keep posting bitching about it, so I think I am going to really focus on getting the scale moving again.
To be honest, if I could just have plastic surgery on my stomach and arms and some breast implants I would be happy at this weight. I think getting rid of my stomach would put me in about a size 14 pants. I always said 12 was my ultimate goal. Right now nothing fits right because I still have so much weight in my stomach. I don't know how small I have to get before considering plastics. I know I won't ever been a size 6 person and I have no problem with that at all! If I could just have a proportionate figure and be able to wear pants without long shirts that cover up my belly, or pants that fit in the butt AND the waist, I would be happy and feel normal.
I started a new job last week and I am loving it so far. Actually it's my old job, so it wasn't that hard to adapt to, lol. It is weird being back in an enviornment from my past and I'd be lying if I said there weren't ghosts there that can be hard to deal with. Hopefully that will get easier with time.
To be honest, if I could just have plastic surgery on my stomach and arms and some breast implants I would be happy at this weight. I think getting rid of my stomach would put me in about a size 14 pants. I always said 12 was my ultimate goal. Right now nothing fits right because I still have so much weight in my stomach. I don't know how small I have to get before considering plastics. I know I won't ever been a size 6 person and I have no problem with that at all! If I could just have a proportionate figure and be able to wear pants without long shirts that cover up my belly, or pants that fit in the butt AND the waist, I would be happy and feel normal.
I started a new job last week and I am loving it so far. Actually it's my old job, so it wasn't that hard to adapt to, lol. It is weird being back in an enviornment from my past and I'd be lying if I said there weren't ghosts there that can be hard to deal with. Hopefully that will get easier with time.
June 11, 2007
Jun 11, 2007
Man, I am SOOOOOOOOO pissed off!!!! Why can't I lose weight any more? I work out for over an hour at least 4 days a week. I have been at the same weight for a month and a half now with no inches lost. This is so unfair. I see people who are so much further out than I am who keep losing weight, like 2 pounds a week. I would get down and kiss the scale if I lost 2 pounds at this point. Is this it? Is this all I'm gonna lose? Am I really going to be the fat girl my whole life? I thought I was doing everything right. I thought this was my chance to be normal. There is no reason I should not be losing weight with my calories in vs. calories out, especially for this long. 
June 6, 2007
Jun 06, 2007
Still frustrated with the weight loss but I did make up a new face comparison. I wish I could get the latest one at the same distance to make it easier to compare, but I think you can see a difference in my neck at least from the last picture.
May 31, 2007
May 30, 2007
Still getting settled in after my big move. My weight has been bouncing up and down between the same couple of pounds, it's driving me crazy. I'm back at the gym here at least 4 days a week and I'll admit that eating good food has not been the easiest thing. I am struggling a bit but I am still taking in few enough calories that paired with my workouts I should be losing. Such a mystery.
April 23, 2007
Apr 23, 2007
Well thank Goodness my arm is getting better. It's not perfect but it's not nearly as bad as it was!
I'm still having these weird issues about how I look. I know I was relatively happy with my weight when I weighed this before, I'm even in some smaller clothes than I was last time my weight was this low. However, I still feel horrible. I think I look terrible. I can't take a good picture to save my life and I used to love having pictures taken!! Now I'm disappointed in every one I see!
Right now eating right is pretty hard because I'm getting ready to move out of state. In Los Angeles you have to buy yourself a refrigerator when you move into an apartment. Now I've sold mine in preparing to move, so I'm eating out of a cooler right now. I can't keep any kind of meat or anything so I'm relying on my protien drinks again. It's boring. I'm usually getting one meal out a day, trying to make good choices. I wish there was Wendy's closer. Taco Bell has been my main food of choice. Not great, but I can work with it.
I'm pretty excited to be moving back home. There isn't much I will miss here. There is a great restaurant here though, it's PERFECT for post ops!! It's called Gyu-Kaku and if there is anyone reading this in the L.A. area (or NYC or Hawaii, I guess they have locations there too) make sure you check it out!! You order meat either plain or seasoned/with sauce (there is one that is soybean based and delicious!) and then you cook it yourself at a little grill in the table. I think an order of meat is about 2oz. I usually order 3 types and we split that between 2 people. I can't say enough good things about this place. I'm going there on my last night here.
I'm still having these weird issues about how I look. I know I was relatively happy with my weight when I weighed this before, I'm even in some smaller clothes than I was last time my weight was this low. However, I still feel horrible. I think I look terrible. I can't take a good picture to save my life and I used to love having pictures taken!! Now I'm disappointed in every one I see!
Right now eating right is pretty hard because I'm getting ready to move out of state. In Los Angeles you have to buy yourself a refrigerator when you move into an apartment. Now I've sold mine in preparing to move, so I'm eating out of a cooler right now. I can't keep any kind of meat or anything so I'm relying on my protien drinks again. It's boring. I'm usually getting one meal out a day, trying to make good choices. I wish there was Wendy's closer. Taco Bell has been my main food of choice. Not great, but I can work with it.
I'm pretty excited to be moving back home. There isn't much I will miss here. There is a great restaurant here though, it's PERFECT for post ops!! It's called Gyu-Kaku and if there is anyone reading this in the L.A. area (or NYC or Hawaii, I guess they have locations there too) make sure you check it out!! You order meat either plain or seasoned/with sauce (there is one that is soybean based and delicious!) and then you cook it yourself at a little grill in the table. I think an order of meat is about 2oz. I usually order 3 types and we split that between 2 people. I can't say enough good things about this place. I'm going there on my last night here.
April 2, 2007
Apr 02, 2007
I am in so much pain it is almost unbearable. I went to the Urgent Care yesterday with pain in my shoulder going down my arm. The doctor said I have a muscle spasm that is affecting the nerve. It's killing me. I can't sleep, I can't get comfortable and even with a muscle relaxer, an anti inflamatory (she said the one she gave me is ok for bypass patients) and Vicodin I can not get comfortable. I feel like I'm in hell. I'm also not losing like I would like and I don't know what I can do about it. I just want to give up on everything.
March 31, 2007
Mar 31, 2007
I seem to be in a real rut with this lately. Last week was the first time in this whole process that I gained weight. I can't believe it. I don't know what is up with that but it really pissed me off. I did very well last week, went to the gym 4 or 5 days for 2 hours each time. I just don't know what to do. My losses have slowed down so much and I don't know why. I hope this isn't it. At this point it's so much work with so few results.
It's also hard because I don't feel different. I feel just the same as I did when I weighed 388 pounds. Then there is the skin. I knew I would have skin, I knew I would need a tummy tuck and breast augmentation and an arm lift. I didn't know it would be this bad. Even places where I thought my skin wasn't stretched out are getting bad. My legs, which never had stretch marks on them, have developed them now as I am losing weight!! I'm just depressed because I have ruined myself so extensively, and I will never have a normal life with a normal body. Why did I do this to myself? Why couldn't I have just been normal?
It's also hard because I don't feel different. I feel just the same as I did when I weighed 388 pounds. Then there is the skin. I knew I would have skin, I knew I would need a tummy tuck and breast augmentation and an arm lift. I didn't know it would be this bad. Even places where I thought my skin wasn't stretched out are getting bad. My legs, which never had stretch marks on them, have developed them now as I am losing weight!! I'm just depressed because I have ruined myself so extensively, and I will never have a normal life with a normal body. Why did I do this to myself? Why couldn't I have just been normal?
March 7th, 2007
Mar 07, 2007
Oh boy. Some days the messageboards here at OH just really tickle me. I have started to notice a trend in that there seem to be a lot of us who admit to looking down on obese people with some kind of pity and disgust now that they are no longer obese. People who look in other people's carts at the grocery store and judge what they are buying. People who look at what an overweight person is eating at a restaurant and think about how disgusting it is. Why on earth does anyone think this is any of their business? Can we not just live and let live? I can't believe so many people forget where they came from. It really amazes me. Have some compassion or reserve your judgement at all. You aren't better than someone who is overweight because you lost weight and they haven't.
Tuesday, February 27th, 2007
Feb 27, 2007
I updated my ticker today and I just realized that I have finally passed the half way point! I have lost 117 pounds since surgery and I have 116 more pounds to go to my goal of 155. As of Feb. 25th I was six months out from surgery. I know it will be more of a struggle from this point on. My losses have already slowed down somewhat. Luckily they haven't stopped yet. I need to get back to the gym. I have been having a lot of back pain. I am going to the doctor today. I have also had a terrible time sleeping. I can't fall asleep and then once I finally do, the last 2 nights something (people outside in the alley) has caused me to wake up. I don't know if things just used to be so quiet around here, or if now I am just tuning into it more. I guess I'll ask my doctor about that too.
About Me
Minneapolis, MN
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29.8
BMI
Surgery
08/25/2006
Surgery Date
Jul 02, 2005
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