Jane C.
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8/30/05 I got approval today from my insurance company. My date for Lap RYN is 10/17/05. My consultation with Dr. Sonnanstine was 7/21/05 so you can see it didn't take long. But I had researched for 2 years and I knew I had everything in order. I know this went so smoothly because of Dr. Sonnanstine and his wonderful staff.
10/12/05 Been a while since I posted. I went today for all my preop. I had a GB ultrasound 2 weeks ago. So far everything has gone great. My doctor doesn't require any pre surgery diet but on the same note you can't eat like everything is your last meal. I have gained about 6lbs since my consult in July but my weight jumps that much sometimes in a day. So I only have 5 days until my new beginning. I thought I would be freaking out but surprisingly right now I'm not. I am at total peace with my decision. So I will post again when I am home.
10/24/05 Surgery was fine!!!!! No problems. My doctor, Dr. Sonnanstine, is so dedicated. I really felt he had my best interest in hand the entire hospital stay. He was in and out of my room 3,4 and 5 times a day. I was up walking by 7pm that first night. My stay was totally uneventfull. I was home on the 19th. Been trying my darndest to get in 60g of protein. That is so hard and the water is really tough. So far can only manage about 16 ozs. But today will be better. Having a hard time sleeping but its just from my side where the biggest instrument was, but that too is better. 10/24/05 and I'll be on my own. My wonderful husband is going back to work and the girls will be in school. I'm even going to drive today. Had some hunger sensation yesterday but not too bad. Everything on TV was food. I even managed to go out to dinner with the family. I did great, just ordered an ice tea and enjoyed the complany. I go to the doctor 11/2/05 at that time I will update again.
11/4/05 Been doing OK. I developed the dreaded left side pain post op and it wasn't fun. The pain was more than I could take. Dr Sonnanstine said it happens about 20% of the time. He gave me muscle relaxers which has helped with the spasams but the pain getting up and down are bad. I lost 20lbs my first 2 weeks, I am very happy with that. I have a hard time making myself eat. I am just not hungry at all and The water is hard to get down also. But tomorrow is a new day and I will try even harder. I was able to walk a lot today. I took the kids to the park and they played while I walked. Well thats all for now will check in later.
11/15/05 Still doing great. I really have to make myself eat and after 4-5bites I'm full. I sip on warm decaf tea all day to get my water in. Ice water just doesn't feel right. I'm down probably 30+ pounds not really sure. I go to the doctor next week. My clothes are really baggy. My jeans will fall down so wearing pull on pants with a draw string. I have hardly any signs of surgery. Everything is totally healed and gone. Get tired in the afternoon but walking a mile in the AM and sometimes at night. Will post later.
12/01/05 Had my check up was a little over 4 weeks. I have lost 37lbs. I have joined Curves and love it. Had my first wow moment. I went to buy a new pair of jeans. When I started I wore a size 28 jeans. I tried on a pair of 24s and they were too big. I was thrilled. I didn't buy anything, I figure I'll wait another week. I baked cookies today for our girlscout troup to take to a nursing home. Made 10 dozen cookies, didn't eat one and didn't lick my fingers. YEA
12/21/05 Went and saw Dr. Sonnanstine. I'm doing great down 50bs on my 2 month check up. I completed my first month at Curves and I lost 16.75 inches in one month. I was so shocked. Still doing great. No problems except with meat. My grouchy pouch still doesn't like meat. Also I can't get all my fluids in but I do get all 60 gr of protein. I feel great. I am trying to find really cheap clothes which I have a few things. Life is GREAT!
12/28/05 Christmas was so great!!! I was able to kneel all through church this years. Its been a long time since I was able to do that at mass. I have I think a little psyc. problems with everyone telling me how great I look. I can finally see it. I have no clothes but I pick up a pieace here and there to keep me going. On the 26th I became really ill. Started with back pain on my rt side and then I dry heaved for 2 hours. Since then I am very nausiated. My doctor is sending me for a Gall Bladder US this Sat. I sure hope it is nothing like that. I am starting a little job on Tues. Since then I just stay nausiated. Maybe I just have a bug. Oh well wanted to do a quick up date.
01/02/06 Well the holidays are done. This morning I weighed 237. wow that is 59lbs. I feel good. Still have a lot of nausia. Still can't get 64oz of fluid in. The cold stuff just doesn't settle. I had my GB US Saturday. See doctor tomorrow to find out if I have Gallstones. My clothes have gone from a size 28 paints to a 22-20 and my shirts are from a 3x-4x 28 to a 2x. I need new undergarments that is for sure. Start a new little job tomorrow. Just going to babysit for my sister and 2 of her 4 children. She had a baby girl the same day I had my surgery plus she has a 2 year old boy. I just love the kids. When I had mine I had to go right back to work so I missed all the baby days. I feel so good, I could probably get a regurlar job but I couldn't afford clothes right now. Oh well just wanted to do a quick update. It feels great knowing I am not setting some New Years resolution this year only to fail at my diet like always. I am going to be a loser. YEA
1/20/06 Completed my second month at Curves. I lost 18.3 lbs and a total lost a total of 12 inches. Its just amazing. I can finally see it. I feel great no problems.
2/1/06 I have lost 70 pounds. Its so hard to believe. Clothes are an issue because I don't want to wear all my big clothes. When I wear stuff that fits I feel beautiful. Thats hard to say. I don't think I have ever felt this way. The lose skin/fat is really a bother but there is nothing to do about it now. I have been over weight my entire life so the skin has been stretched all my life. Nothing is going back. Exercise makes me feel great. Babysitting is going so good. I only wish I had then energy I have now when my twins were born. I missed out on soooo much but I have a lot of time to make up. my starting weight was 296 this morning I was at 224.9. I just take a day at a time. I struggle with eating at times. I am never hungry so I miss lunch a lot of the time. I try to grab a yogurt and a piece of cheese. I have no problem getting protein in. Still wish there was a magic spell that I could drink all my water. Every day is a good day.
03/01/06 Can't believe its a month since my last post. Still doing really well. Down to 214 thats 82 lbs lost. I have had a stall the last 10 days wt keeps going up to 217 and back down to 214. It's been at 214 for two mornings in a row hope this is the end. Still working out at Curves and love it. Last month I lost 18 inches. I still find myself apologising to the people at Curves for my rapid loss. That is something I am working on. People are really noticing. My hair really isn't falling out. I thought it might be but no more than usual. My niece is now in the process of having surgery. I hope she does as well as I have. Still vomit every now and then but usually when I do something stupid. I have found I can eat sugar. I can't believe I tried it but I did and nothing happened but I will not push it. I ate a girl scout cookie and believe me it didn't taste the same. Oh well better finish for now.
03/02/06 Have had 2 really great WOW moments. The first one was about a week or so ago. I thought I posted it but I guess I didn't. My daughter gave me a hug and she said, "Mommy my hands touch." Needless to say I cried. I didn't relize they knew the diffrence. Then my other daughter (they are twins) gave me a hug, now she is 2 inches shorter than her sister so her arms aren't as long, she hugged me and said, "Suck it in mom" then her hands touched and she too was so excited. My second wow happened last night. I took a wonderful long hot bath......You can't imagine how long it has been since I was able to do that. This too made me sit and cry. I have missed so much that are just normal things. Oh well just wanted to make note of this while it is still fresh in my brain.
3/12/06 Well the stall is gone again. Down to 209 this AM. Feel great!!!!We bought a new camper this weekend, which is so much fun and great exercise. We traded our pop up in for a 27ft travel trailer. Things are still going great. I have so much energy and I stay so busy I still find I am not eating enough. Like today it was after 2pm and I hadn't even started any fluids. I got up and ate and then we were busy and I just really messed up. Tonight was my nephew's birthday. Family get together. We had salad, Lasagna and ice cream cake. I ate a little salad. I had some of the sauce left over in the pan with the cheese and ricotta cheese stuff but no cake. This weekend a lot of people commented on my weight. But I stopped telling people that I had the surgery. I just tell them its been a work in progress. The reaction from people is always diffrent and some people just hurt your feelings and its just in the tone of their voice. So for this week I'm not telling.....
MARCH 30,2006 WE CAMPED LAST WEEK IN OUR NEW CAMPER AND IT WAS GREAT. WE WALKED AND WALKED AND I WAS ACTUALLY ABLE TO JOG, SOMETHING I HAVE NEVER DONE. I WAS MEASURED AT CURVES THIS WEEK AND LOST 1.75 IN ON MY WAIST, 4 IN FROM MY TUMMY, .50 FROM MY HIPS, .50 THIGH .25 ARM FOR A TOTAL IN INCHES OF 7 AND TOTAL SINCE NOVEMBER IS 54 INCHES. I AM AT A LOSS OF 95 POUNDS FEELING GREAT. I SEE MY SURGEON IN APRIL FOR MY 6 MONTH CHECK UP.
APRIL 20, 2006 MY 6 MONTH CHECK UP WAS TODAY. DOWN 100LBS DR SONNANSTINE SAYS I AM DOING GREAT. THEY TOOK A PICTURE AND COMPARED TO THEIR BEFORE PICTURE IT IS AMAZING. I went shopping for the first time. Spent 100.00. Bought size 16 shorts. 14's zipped but they were too tight and I need stuff now. The neatest thing was I tried on my size 28 jeans I wore before. My daughter stood in one leg and I stood in the other, pulled up the pants and they buttoned and zipped. I will get some new pictures. Labs were all in the normal range. My iron is a little low so I have started on b12. Otherwise it was a great day!!!! May 5 Things are moving along. Down to 188. Wore a pair of Tommy H. capri pants yesterday. They were a Size 14!!!!!!I can't believe it I have never in my entire life been this small. I probably wore a 14 in Jr. High. We are having a big party Sunday. My twins make their first communion. I went to a funeral this week for my husbands uncle. There were so many people who didn't know me. Its funny those who did and didn't know about my surgery thought I must be sick. 2 people ask my mother in law if I had cancer. I looked damn good. But no one has ever seen me thin. As a matter of face neither have I. My niece is having surgery May10. I pray she does as good as I have. My BMI is 30.3 only one more point and I am considered overweight. Can't wait. Life is great!!!!!
May 12 Had my daughters first communion and it was great. Saw a lot of family who hadn't seen me and they were just speachless. They say I look like my Mom, she passed about June 2003. She had Alzhimers. She lasted 10 years. She started with symptoms when she was 59. My niece had her surgery May 10. She did great. She is home trying to get rid of gas of course. My other niece was also there. She hasn't seen me since Dec 05. She burst into tears. I thought she was upset about her sister and she was upset with how I looked. She knew I had lost 113 lbs but she didnt realize what that looked like. She just hugged me and I her. It was quit a wow moment. My biggest thing is people just don't recognize me. I feel strange to say "its me Jane" Oh well just wanted to update. As of today down to 183. In to two pairs of size 14. So hard to believe. Need to shop now for bathingsuit. Yuck Jane 296/183/150 goal highest wt was 311
June 1 2006 It will be 8 months the 17th of this month. Today I weigh 178. I am still in disbelieve every time the scale moves. I bought a bra. No big deal for most but this was a big WOW. When I was 11 years old my mom bought me a bra. It was a size 36C. She told me it was bigger than she wore. I cried all night in my room. I did not want to wear it. Needless to say I was the biggest in the entire family all my life but........ Yesterday I bought a bra, size 36C. I cried and cried. I am so small. I can stand look down and see my feet. When I eat things now fall to my lap and another WOW I can sit with my legs crossed like a lady and I do it all the time. We camped for 3 days this past weekend, had a great time. It was 90 degrees, but I still needed a long sleeve shirt and jeans to sit by the fire. Rick thinks I'm half dead. I am cold all the time. And of course he is in the heat all day so when he comes home he wants to sit in the cool air. So I am back to long robes. But Oh well. I also wore a bathing suit this weekend. My nephew ask me how I got so old. He was looking at my wrinkeled skin on my upper arms. He said my skin looks so old. Oh well out of the mouths of BABES. Its now all mind over matter. If I don't mind my loose wrinkled skin...it don't matter.
June 8 Weighed in at Curves Lost 16.5 inches and 26 pounds since March. Love Curves. Big Wow this week. My husband picked me up. I cried like a baby. I don't ever remember being picked up. Skin is becomming a big issue. With the heat I have some rashes. I am thinking about doing the TT if insurance covers it. Life is still great. This week I took the girls to the park but instead of sitting on the bench watching. I climbed all over the stuff and went down every slide. Had a great time. My girls laughed and laughed.
July 9, 2006 Weight still comming off. Down to 166 and wearing a size 12-14 and Medium tops. Bigs wows lately was going to the water park and wearing a bathing suit. Climbing all the way to the top of the tower and riding the water slide. YEa yea yea yea!!!!! It was so great. My kids talked me into it and they went down first so they were all waiting. They screamed and said "I was the coolest mom." Still working out. I really think that is and has been the key. Exercise really is fun. I now walk to Curves and Walk home. I even jog the last 4 blocks comming home. This week I bought a little black dress. I have never owned one. It looks so cute. I ran into a cousin of mine today. I had to tell her who I was and she asked, "What the hell happened to you?" I laughed and told her about my surgery and she hugged and hugged me. It made me feel so good. Now when I am out in public people really don't know me so if I feel like talking I do, otherwise I can just go on and save some time.
August 9,2006 Weight has stayed the same. I go from 163-167 staying steady. Everyday is still a new day and WOW moments happen all the time. Rick is just wonderful. I ask him if he was ok with all the weight loss and he said he loved me no matter how I looked, but he also said he has never seen me so happy as I am now. Before my surgery I struggled with Headaches for years. They have been gone until about 5 weeks ago. They are back. So that is getting me down otherwise my health is great. We are going to Coney Isand this week and then we are camping for 3 days. I can't wait. Kids are getting ready for 3rd grade and they are excited. It will be strange taking the girls to school. No one hardly recognizes me any more. So we will see.
August 17, 2006 Still staying the same wt but that is fine. I have changed so much and I feel confident at times that I will keep making good choices about food. Last Thursday we went to an old Coney. I had the best time ever. I approached the first ride scared to death. I hadn't really ridden any rides in years and years. The first ride I was scared to death. Worried the bar wouldn't latch. Worried I wouldn't fit and I would have to get off the ride. Worried I sat in the wrong side of the ride and I would smash my daughter. Panic almost took over. I was still that fat, morbid obese, woman. But guess what, the bar fit. The seat belts all buckeled. I slid from side to side and hurt my hip bones and I didn't smash my daughters once. I climbed the 100 stairs to do that crazy yellow slide which I have never done and raced my husband to the end. I no longer had a fear of heights and later I figured out I wasn't afraid of heights I was just afraid of what ever I was standing or sitting on would break and I would fall. I no longer have that fear. The chair will not break anymore. I am normal!!!!! What a wow day. But like I said before everyday is a wow day.
Sept 15, 2006 Everything weight wise is the same. In my entire life I never wore a prom dress. I never even tried on a wedding dress. Over the weedend my sister, and I were going thru stuff at my dad's and we found her wedding dress from 15years ago. She told me to try it on and what a hoot we had. I laughed and cried. We took pictures in my parent formal livingroom. It was a great time. My weight is still staying about the same. I bought a size 10 pair of pants. I seem to be very grumpy lately. I wear my imotions on my sleeve I guess, but people just hurt your feelings at time. I keep it inside rather than cause a an argument. Something I need to work on. Oh well my niece is doing great. My two sisters are in the process of having the surgery. One is doing bypass and the other lap band. The pressure is too much. I hope, and know they will both do great.
October 9, 2006 Well I am almost at 1 year. Just a week and a day away. I thought I should post because so much happens and I forget to put it down. Most important my sister Amy is having surgery in 1 week. She will do fine, she is ready and knows what to expect. My sister Mimi is still in the process. I hope all goes well for her she wants the band. My life is crazy right now. But I had a WoW moment yesterday. I said from the start I wanted to ride on the back of a motorcycle when I lost 100lbs. Well at a loss of 145 "I DID IT" it was so awsome. Something I have never done in my life but it was a lot of fun. So now the only thing left is to ride a horse. I also played kick ball with the kids again. Something I could never do. It was funny all the kids wanted me on their team. I had one more tearful moment. I have a before and after picture that I carry. My 13 year old nephew, who is so darn cute, girls always calling ect, ask me if he could have one of those pictures. I asked him why would he want that and he said he wanted to put it in his room. He told me I look really great. I was so touched and then another picture incodent happened. Me and my 3 year old nephew were looking at a family calander. He saw a picture of me and my family. He looked at me and said, "I don't like this picture", "Why I ask" and he said I like you better little. I don't like you BIG. Oh well just thought I would share.
October 17, 2006 Oh my gosh today is my new Birthday. It is wonderful. So much has changed not only the physical but the mental change is unbelievable. I am no longer invisable. I have had no regrets. Today I am down 149 lbs. I bought new clothes. I call it Vintage shopping, really I just shop at Good Will. All those clothes I loved before and never could wear, well I can now. The styles from 10 years ago are back. I bought 9 things and spent $3.41. You can see day light from one foot, all the way up and down to the other foot. In other words my legs no longer touch. This week my wow moment was riding on a motorcycle. It was awsome. My labs are all normal. That makes me very happy. All I take is 2 vitamins a day. Everyone ask what can you eat? I can eat anything I just choose to eat better things now. My family has been the best support. My sister Amy had the surgery yesterday. How neat that is. She can see where she will be in one year. She was never as big as me. Mimi hopes to have her LapBand by the end of the year. So I can say I think I have inspired my family to jump on the wagon and get healthy.
Oct. 30, 2006
My first and hopefully only problem. On Sunday a week ago I had pain in my left side. I went to bed, thought I needed a good BM. At 2:30am woke up my dear husband and we went to the ER. A CAT scan was done and 2 shots of Morephine and I was sent home in no pain. Monday night I took a pain pill the pain was back. I tried to eat but that was not a good idea. I called Dr. Sonnanstine who did my By pass. He sent me to admitting, no ER, yea. Dr. Tom beat me to the hospital. He checked out my CAT scan from the night before and I had a small twist in my intenstine. He was wonderful. First he got me calm down and stopped the dry heaving. Then I slept good and went to surgery the next morning where he fixed that problem, cleaned up the adheisions and took out my Gall Bladder. I came home on Wednesday and feel pretty good other than I went in the hospital at 161 and came home at 174. I didn't eat anything. 6 days later I am down to 166. Still puffy. So that was my terrible, nothing at all, complication. I still would do it again in a heart beat. The thing is this can happen again, just pray it doesn't.
November 27, 2006
Just thought I would drop a quick line. I have now lost more weight than I weigh. I started my journey at 311. Sunday I weigh 155 that means I have now lost 156lbs. Mimi had her banding done last MOnday and she did great. Amy had her surgery 6 weeks ago and she has now lost 30. I am so happy they have had no problems. I continue to do great. I have slacked off on exercising but I will get back on track. I am still very active. I don't stop all day long. Rick's uncle told me I was too thin and I needed to gain weight. But other than that I have heard good things. I don't want to look ill. I feel as though I look like I am melting. The skin is so much. I was told I had to be 18mths out of surgery before I can get plastics. I don't know if I will look into it or not. I can cover everything up with my clothes. Its my face I would like to tighten up. That is what everyone sees.
December 9, 2006
Ok my weight is now under 150 and my BMI is 23.9. I went shopping today and I am in a size 8 jean. Its amazing to think only 14mths ago I wore a size 28 jeans. Its a crazy time of year. Very hard. Eating hasn't been a problem. I have now dumped 2 times and not from sugar. The first time it scared me to death. I ate before I went to bed and woke up about 45 min with heart palpatations. I thought I was having a heart attack and then the stomach started. No big deal just another learning experience. Thanksgiving was so nice. Now both my sisters have had WLS. This Thanksgiving it wasn't about the food. Someone said I was wrong that the holidays do so revolve around foods, but for us we spent the day sharing and joking and looking at the adds. I did all the cooking and we cut way back on the amount of food we prepared. I think we can make the holidays more about the family time and not always around the food. I do miss the cooking of candies and cookies but this year we made one of those Gingerbread houses. Can't eat it but it was a lot of fun to do with the girls
Well I made it through the holidays. And I gained 7 pounds. I am doing ok. Just being out of my routine I find I was falling back to old habbits of grazing. It really is scarey but I am back on track and exercising as of this morning. I am still in size 8's. I now own 3 pair. Dealing with skin issues. I think I am going to see a plastic surgeon. My bellybutton keeps getting infected. The holiday was great. I am so proud of my sisters who are almost 3mths and almost 2mths out. They are both doing great. I will post again. Oh yea I have found something I can not do now that I am normal and that is bowl. Before I had a 160 average at 300lbs. Last week we went bowling as a family and for 2 games combined I only had a total of 26. I am throwing the ball still around my huge body that I think I still have. It was so weird but I know I will figure it out.
March 28, 2007
It's hard to believe I haven't had anything to say in such a long time. Does this mean I am finally comfortable in my new skin????NOT AT ALL. I still struggle with the demons of the old Jane. Weight jumps up and down 5, 7 even 10 lbs and then it just comes off. I find when I am stressed the old habbits creep back. Depression just makes you heavy. Your heart feels heavy, I feel I look heavy and its all just a mind game. I know I look damn good. My weight stays between 153 and 157 which is great. Plastics is no longer an option. When I contacted the plastic surgeon her office told me to call them when I was 18 mths out and now that I am 18mths out our insurance changed to a High Deductable Health Plan HDHA, which means we pay the first 4000.00 dollars out of pocket. So my skin will stay with me. I wear so much spandex and lycra under my clothes nobody knows but with summer you can't hide it. I just make sure I look good and accessorize well. Husband and girls doing great, they are still my biggest cheerleaders. We had a family get together and my cousin stated she didn't want to be in the room with all the anorixia's. It really ticked me off. First of all that is a dreaded disease and second I am finally healthy for the first time ever in my life but the fat girl came back and I laughed it off. I should have told her how that was not appropriate to say and it hurt my feelings. See we still have issues. Ok I am working on it.......
April 9, 2007
Yesterday was Easter and we had a wonderful day. Of course I ate too much. We went to my sisters house and It was great. It was colder than Christmas day. The kids were all bundled up and we played outside. It was a very hard emotional day. This was the first holiday I spent without being with one of my parents. I think that added to the stress of mindless eating. Tried to make it happy but in my heart it was broken. Oh well we survived and today is a new day. I will call and wake my dad up at 7:30 and just like when I was a little girl all these feeling will be pushed away and we will go on like nothing is wrong.
April 23, 2007
Well Dad spent all last week in the hospital. 3 days in ICU and the rest in TCU. He had a GI Bleed and his heart levels were high. They think he also had a mild heart attack. He came home Saturday. He was told not to drive. He agreed to have someone stay with him and his diet was special because of the bleeding ulcer. Well he is not doing anything. He just agreed to all this just to get home. We had a disagreement this morning and I am so worked up all I can do is cry. Its normal to want your parents to live forever and its hard when they are not doing the things that will keep them here. The doctors told him not to drive yet he is willing to risk killing a mother , father , child just so he can be selfish. I understand not wanting to give up you independence but there are ways around that. By not allowing anyone to stay with him it is only a matter of time before he falls and has a terrible injury. And at that point he will have to go to a nursing home. Through all of this I stay so up and take charge and now I have just fallen apart. I want to wash my hands totally. I want to give back POA and medical POA. I also don't want to be in charge anymore. I am so worried that all this stress will cause me to fall back into my old habits. I swear if I had a ciggarete I would have smoked today. Its been 9 years since I quit. Oh well just needed to vent. I think I will go take a walk. Believe it or not I walk the cemetary. It really is a beautiful place to walk
May 16, 2007
I am an offical before and after. My photo is on the main board for before and afters. I have come full circle. I now know I have finally done this. Over 2 years ago when I found this site I would sit and look at the before and after pictures for hours. Trying to find someone that weighed what I did so I could see for myself what I might look like and also to show my husband, because lets face it he had doubts. I now sit here and cry my eyes out. I have finally accomplished something in my life, finished it to the end, just for me. I always wanted to make everyone else better, to take away their pain to fix them and all the time I was a mess inside. It was so hard to get up everyday when you hated yourself so bad. Oh I know I was always the funny one. Everyone said I was so outgoing, nothing held me back not even my weight. But I held myself back all the time. Is my journey complete? Hell no, its just the start. Now I must maintane. But now I feel like my insides are finally feeling ok. I don't feel I have traded off one addiction for another. I just feel I never knew how to eat to live and not to eat to make me feel better. I Finally Feel Good. I GET IT!!! Now I want to go on a honeymoon for our TEN YEAR wedding anniversary but I don't have a good witch Glenda right now to give me some magic shoes. Who knows their is always Ellen. She can do everything. Maybe a cruise for all the sisters and Sarah that would be cool since we all have made this journey together. Its fun to dream......and not worry.
July 13, 2007
Well its now July. I am 21mths post op. Its amazing. My weight is staying the same. I stay around 153 to 156. Its weird to stay the same size for almost a year. I have never done that before. My brain has finally caught up. Now have a hard time thinking I was ever "THAT BIG". Old eating demons reappear in times of stress. Our dad has been really sick. Spent 2 weeks in the hospital and I ate out of a snack machine for days. Able to drink soft drinks with no problem. I really need to get back to the water. My really neat WOW moment occured while he was in the hospital. It was 7:30PM I decided to go home. Rick dropped me off. I went down stairs to call and decided I would start walking and see how far I got. I started walking, now mind you I am in flip flops, and an hour and 5min later I am home. I walked 3.4miles and it was 90 degrees. I felt great. I could never have done that in my entire life. It felt great. The entire time daddy was in the hospital I walked the stairs. Never would have done that before. I went camping last weekend and I canoed for the first time in my life. It was really neat. Also we played around on the paddle boats. Its funny I stepped right on. No panic feeling at all. We stayed out on the lake for and hour and a half. Never could I have done that before. I paddled the entire time. Everyone else pooped out on me. Still loving my tatoo. I know my journey is complete. The PS is no longer an option because our health insurance changed, but I dress well and can cover it up. I went to an information seminar that Dr. Sonnanstine puts on each month for people considering the surgery. I felt so comfortable standing in front of the room and answering questions. I would never have felt that way before. I honestly can say there is nothing I want to do that I couldn't do before surgery. I have done more than I ever dreamed I could do. I am truely HAPPY with myself for the first time in my life. And there is another family member having the surgery. She is going to a diffrent doctor, but I know she will have the same success that we all have shared. But the pressure is hard. I am always so afraid someone will have trouble. I know that I inspire people. But you hear the horror stories that is why I feel so good to tell such a happy story.
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