661jennifer
"Big Jen"
Jan 18, 2010
Currently I am visiting family in Oregon. Since the age of "14" I have been referred to as "Big Jen". The name was given to me by my uncle. It wasn't that big of a deal when I was younger. I would simply brush it off, remembering that it was just a name,a way of showing endearment.Fast foreword to five years later, I'm post vsg, healthy, happy, and way lighter. So my Aunt asks my cousin over the phone, which is her daughter. She says where is "Big Jen"? OK I have not heard that name for years. It all came back to me painfully, like a knife in the gut. My cuz replied, with this " Mama Jen ain't Big Jen no more". My Aunt says" "What do you mean"? My cousin explains that I lost over 100 lbs. Later on that night we pack up to make the two and a half hour drive to see my Aunt and Uncle. When I stepped out of the truck I knew that at that moment I was Laying " Big Jen" to rest. The moment was priceless, I thought my Uncle was going to hit the floor. The feeling I felt at that moment was as rewarding as hitting Onederland.
The whole night all they could say was " How have you Been"? Or they would ask me to pose in pictures. I was in heaven. It amazes me still to this day, to see how much emphasis is put on looks in the United States and other countries. If your not thin and gorgeous your not whole, a complete person, Or as good as those who are thin! I never liked the fact that I was always told " You have such a pretty face" OK so I have a pretty face, and that's it????? WTF is that all about. I will end with saying that the numbers on the scale should not dictate who we are as individuals. Furthermore, It is unfortunate that I have had to live my whole life, worrying that that someone might ask to see my numbers on the scale. I am living proof that in most peoples eyes "When Your Thin That Means Your In".
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About Me
bakersfield, CA
Location
24.0
BMI
Surgery
02/12/2009
Surgery Date
Jan 16, 2008
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