Up's and down's
Jan 18, 2009
What gets me is that I go through periods where I am so happy at the weight I have lost and then I hit a wall where I am crying over why I haven't lost more. Maybe Dr. Schram didn't cause enough malabsorption when he did the surgery??? Maybe he should have used up more of my small intestines as a conduit and took it out of the absorptive process. Then again maybe I should be happy that the weight is coming off slowly because be all reports that is the kind of weight that stays off. BUT what if I stop losing before I get to goal? What if I stay fat forever because as the doc says I have NO metabolism naturally. I would be the person that survived a famine! Like who wants to survive a famine??? I am impatient I know. I am so happy to have finally topped 60 pounds as that was always kind of a goal for real weight loss to me. If you can lose 60 pounds that is REAL weight loss. I have hit many other little goals too. I am no longer the heaviest person in the family, I'm not even 2nd. I can hardly wait to be 4th heaviest because that will mean that all the men in the family are heavier than me. I can sit with my legs crossed which still thrills me. That's because my gut is not as big an obstacle as it used to be. I can do things with my hubby that didn't used to be possible and I'll let your imaginations run with that. I'm not providing details. I have finally bought myself a size 18 pair of jeans. That is the first normal size I have bought in years. (Normal is a size you can buy in any store. Not a size people normally wear. ) I want to get down a little more to really claim the normal store shopping prize though because I am just at the beginning of size 18. However my mom picked me up some undies and things in Florida and the size 18/20 are bordering on too big. I am being told by coworkers that my uniforms look like sacks and as I have been promoted to Head Nurse on my floor they think I should look more professional. They are not being mean about it, I think they are excited for me and enjoying my success. Everyday someone says they think I am smaller than the last time they worked with me. I get a lot of positive feedback.
I wish mt shape would change though. I know it's smaller but it's still the same shape. I definitely have a bit of dysmorphia. I want to feel little. And I would like to start being a little more active with exercising but all this darned SNOW is holding me back. I'm thinking an exercise video may be in order. Maybe that will kick up the weight loss too. Wish me luck!!!
Every day is a WOW!
Jan 05, 2009
Still it's wonderful to walk by a skinny store and know that within a few months I will be shopping in there. I love that my weight loss is attracting people to me and that I can tell them about why I am looking so much healthier. I am like a religious zealot who is trying to convert everyone.
I wish that I had known about this earlier. I wish that it was more readily available in Canada and I wish that every obese person could have this surgery.
On a different note I hardly ever vomit now. The only food that doesn't sit well is a soft slice of bread or dry meat. I am not taking in any sugar and I am no longer taking any insulin at all. No BP meds and no Cholesterol meds. All my labs came out well and me and my doc are both happy with my progress. 58 pounds today.
Life is better than good.
2 months out
Nov 28, 2008
1 Week post-op
Oct 01, 2008
I feel sooooo good. I am excited but I have not had a really easy time of it. Nothing too significant really just a lot of little things. First I had a bleed during surgery because old scars caused problems with the scopes and the Doc had to do a lot of heavy manipulation around my liver and other parts. Second I was taking Vicodan and didn't realize it's actually Oxycontin and so I am sensitive to oxy and when I finally figured that out I really started to feel better. Third I allowed my idiot self to get dehydrated and nearly pooched over on the stairs in a faint trying to get to my bed. My hubby knew there was a problem and was purposely following me up the stairs so he helped me to bed and got me some water. One 500ml bottle of H2O was all it took to start me back on the road to normalcy. However, I do have a phlebitis in my IV site so today I start on antibiotics. Like I said nothing major just a bunch of little stuff that is kind of getting in the way of my being 100% joyous.
Needless to say sometimes it's a bit frustrating but man oh man is that scale ever movin'!!! In one week 11.2 pounds for a total of 18.2 pounds lost. Today I wore jeans that I haven't put on in a year. To me this whole process is already worth it.
2 weeks from today!!
Sep 08, 2008
Aug 23, 2008
I can hardly wait for ONE MONTH FROM TODAY!!!
35 days to go
Aug 18, 2008
57 days of torture
Jul 28, 2008
60 days to go.
Jul 25, 2008
I did get some disappointing news from a friend. She wants this surgery so bad and really has health issues you would think make her a priority surgical candidate and her doctor refused to sign the forms. Said she was just depressed and this was a knee-jerk reaction and she would have to think about it for a few months and then come back to see him. He said they could talk about it then after he had a chance to do some research. Man is crazy and doesn't really care about his patient.
My family doctor is young and enthusiastic and I just love her and am so happy to have a doc that I can get along with so well. Also, I am and RN and she gives me credit for having half a brain. She actually listens to me. Gotta appreciate that.
Word is out to the rest of my family now too and I have huge support from everyone. My cousin has just finshed getting a few tests done and it looks like she has satisfied OHIP so they are approving her too and Barix has said they will try to schedule us at the same time. Too convenient when we are travelling from 6 hours away. I hope it all works out well for Deb too.
67 Days to go
Jul 18, 2008