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well back again , what can i say to you all but that Iam not going to have the lap band done.
thats what i deciede a few mounths ago,weather it was the right choice or the wrong one.
I gess i will never know. at this time ive not done to well on my own trying to do it my self is
just not working.still the same weight , even though i go swimmimg 1hr a day 4 days a week.
 And iam dealing with my first daugther leaving for collage , its been so hard like i never though
i miss her so much.talk about crying rivers ive donr it.well anway i just wanted to say hi to all
of you . 

  
Hi Friends ; Iam back
Well what can I say but sorry that Ive been gone from this site sence last august 08, 
Ive been feeling very depressed,and dealing with my chronic pain  and not sleeping most nights, 
Ive had  no energy just enough to get by with everyday things that need done .Ive been having a real tough go of everything, all I want to do is sleep and stay home, I dont want to leave the house  if I dont have to.
You know am just so mad at my self for feeling like this ,Ive been having thouhts of suicide again, because the pain has been so unbareable to take . Ive been in chronic pain know for 8 yrs .my meds dont help ,and their is nothing more the doctors can do for me ,thats what they told me,the only thing that  might help me is getting this weight off, Ive known that its just that in my condition its tough because I cant be up on my legs for more than 5 mins ,without beening in screming pain.
The only way is to get in the pool, and I know that to , Ive been their done that befoe I just can never keep going long enough. I have'nt had the energy to do anything or even feel like it.  I really need to change ,
O.K. I got back in contack with OHSU ,because I have not hurd back from them sence last sept/. when i first called them they said they lost my paper work,and then they found it,they got me all signed up and ready to go have my first visit with the nurse.on FEB-25.
So know Iam like WOW ,its finally going to happen. Icant belive it , its been so long so much time has gone by,and Ive been feeling so bad, I hope that I get the strenth I need to do this,       ( PLEASE )
I ask for everyones help & information & surport  .
HUGS  T.K.

To  day  was  the  day,  I  decied  to  finilly  do it , I  mailed  off  the OHSU paper  work  to  have  the  lap  band  surgery .know  its  just  a  matter  of  time  of  getting  a  phone  call  back .from  them. I feel  like  there  has  been  a  weight  lifted  off  my  sholders.
HUGS  T.K.

wHAT TO DO  ?   I VE TAKEN TO LONG TO MAKE UP MY MIND ABOUT THE LAP BAND SURGERY,  I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO, i EVEN SPOKE WITH A NEIBIOR THREE HOUSES DOWN SHE JIONED UP WITH  L.A. WIEGHT LOSS IN NOV.& SHE HAS LOSSED 91LBS, I TRYED TALKING TO HER ABOUT WHAT SHE THINKS I SHOULD DO,SHE SAID I SHOULD HAVE THE SURGERY,
AS OF YESTERDAY I WAS ALL READY TO MAIL OFF ALL THE PAPER WORK FOR THE SURGERY,AND TODAY I BACKED OUT AGAIN, BECAUSE I CANT MAKE UP MY MIND . 
ITS EITHER I HAVE THE SURGERY OR I TRY TO LOSSIT BY MY SELF.?WELL THATS HOW I FEEL TODAY.     T.K.

I first went to a simanar in may of -08 ,  Iam still trying to make a decision on what to do about Bariatric Surgery ?, iam overweight any have chronic leg pain & Iam very concerend about the eatting part of it,wondering what kinds of things I will be able to eat, Iam looking for any one who knows any thing about after having the surgery done,and what it was like for them,iam not scared to have the surgery done just the not knowing about what it will be like after the surgery.and how I will be feeling. T.K.