Ms.Ronnie
The Power of Resurrection...after death
Sep 01, 2009
Wow. I almost can't believe it myself...it's been 3 weeks and a day since my VSG surgery. Whoever says that time isn't a healer doesn't quite understand the gift that time is to all of us. It doesn't necessarily take away an issue or a sad circumstance, but it does help move things along and make life bearable, if we want it to. That's where I am with my sleeve today...each and every day is a new beginning and another opportunity to move closer to the new Ms. Ronnie...the resurrected one.For those of you who may take offense to my using the term "resurrection" to adequately phrase this amazing tour de force, I apologize, but it is the only thing that comes close to leaving the old me and awakening the new me, post VSG. I have been resurrected because the old Ronnie had to die off in order that the new one might come forth. I have been recreated! New and improved and full of life, that's what resurrection I'm referring to. I was dead, but now I live...I was lost, but now I'm found. Where might I be without having done this VSG? I'm not even sure at this point, but I know it would not be a good place for me. I'm thinking along the lines of the Allegory of the Cave...me sitting there, watching life move above and about and around me...just sitting, trying to exist, when all I need to do was choose to do something and live.
I feel so sad when I read posts of people complaining about having to do this or that with regard to the guidelines of this surgery. I wonder if they realize that even with the work we must do with this tool where would any of us be without it??? Sure I miss that demon that comforted me while no one was looking...food. Not just food for thought, but food for any void that I could have ever experienced. Food that took the place of dealing with issues and me and things that hurt and things that made me uncomfortable...that's the food I'm talking about. My former secret friend. We miss what's familiar, but it sure doesn't mean that it was something good for us because that much food certainly wasn't good for me.
So yeah, I'll deal with this uncomfortable feeling of what I now know as being too full. I'll deal with having to sit and actually plan what I'm going to eat as opposed to devouring whatever I lay my hands on. I'll even deal with the fact that I must SLOW DOWN and savour what I eat and drink and not do it mindlessly to the point of being so engorged until I feel ill. Yeah, I've made a decision that I'll deal with all of that if it will continue to bring me this new life that I've gotten a glimpse of thus far.
We complain about so much, but what if??? What if we continued on that food path of destruction and our bodies continued to go down hill...really far down hill? How would we feel then if the medications many of us have been taking stopped working and our diagnoses started coming in more and more grim causing us to REALLY lose hope? Ever got a bad report from a doctor? These are the things I stop and think about now when I fret because I can't have that slice of pizza or a tall glass of Pepsi! I tell myself, 'Ronnie, get your friggin' priorities straight and live.' This is temporary, but the results can be ongoing, and get better with time...who the hell wouldn't want those odds?
So yeah, Ms. Ronnie is realizing the power of resurrection in her own life because of her decision to have the VSG. People are noticing and so am I...that this change is possible and these goals are attainable. For that I am ever grateful. So I thank God that he has given man the wisdom to attain the knowledge to implement medical changes for our behalf. See, that's one of the wonderful things about God...He allows us to get so consumed and move in a spirit of 'can't get enough' to the point where we go so overboard that we need intervention. God allows that intervention, but it is up to us to do the work, get the info and move ahead.
Ms. Ronnie has realized the power of resurrection in her life and it tastes way better than food and it has caused me to live. To my OH family...you guys are amazing and a sure life line to those of us who were slowly dying.
Now...are you willing to die in order that you might be resurrected?
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About Me
Brooklyn, NY
Location
49.6
BMI
Surgery
08/10/2009
Surgery Date
Sep 05, 2008
Member Since
Before & After
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Ms Ronnie at her HEAVIEST!!!
317lbs
209 lbs...25 to go!!!
209lbs
