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Today is my one year anniversary since my surgery. I cannot believe it has been a year already. So much has happened in the past year, both good and not so good. As I read back through all my blogs and take a walk down memory lane, I am so happy I made the decision I did. I have never been so happy with myself.

In January my husband and I went on an incredible vacation to Hawaii. It was the first time in my life that I liked every picture I was in. Most of the time I just stare at the picture in disbelief that the person in the picture is me. I wore dresses every night and even wore a pair of shorts. I have not worn shorts since I was in middle school!

All the changes have been super exciting. I love shopping for clothes and now love shopping for dresses.

I am so thankful for my journey so far. I am 25 pounds away from my goal weight.

I can't wait to see what the next year has to bring!

Holy Moly! I finally broke an over a month plateau! I was getting worried that my weight loss was done!

It's amazing how finally breaking a very LONG plateau and help motivate you and get you excited again! 

When I got on that scale yesterday I was so happy and surprised! I felt so good about myself. I have NEVER felt this good about myself EVER! 

I have recently started a new hobby, Acrylic Pouring. I LOVE it! In fact, I might be obsessed with it. It is so much fun. I have never been the crafty type what so ever, but look at me now. I love it so much I want to start selling my pieces and maybe try and make a business out of it. I would NEVER have thought I would be into this. 

It has been a little over 8 months since my surgery and I feel like I have been transforming into the person I have always wanted to be. I have confidence. I want to go out and do more things. I am trying things that I would never would have when I was heavier. I have motivation in other things than just eating. I feel like my family is super proud of me. I am proud of myself! I feel happier. I feel like my opportunites are endless and that there is nothing holding me back, specifically my weight. 

I really appreciate being able to blog about my journey because when I started this whole journey, I never thought I would be successful like everyone else. I like being reminded how far I have come. It has not always been easy but boy has it been worth it. 

For the first time, I saw a picture of myself and thought, dang... I look thin!!!

I am so happy for all my achievements so far! I am down 90 pounds. Went from a size 24 to now wearing a 14! I never thought I would be this successful. I finally have the confidence and self-esteem that I have lacked for a very long time.

Finally... after weeks of no movement on the scale, I am under 200 pounds!!!

This past weekend I bought new jeans and a couple pair of shoes. I found boots that actually fit and the other style is one I have liked for a long time, but my foot has always been too wide to fit in them. Hooray for my feet losing weight too! :) 

Softball has been going well... I have hit the ball everytime since my first game, so I am improving there! 

Overall, things are going well and I hope my weight loss continues. I am going to step up my exercise.

I don't know about you... but sometimes I need to check myself.

I was feeling down about myself and how I look. 

All it takes is a reminder of what I used to look like and for me to recognize how far I have come.

Last night I had my first softball game. I am playing on a co-ed team every Monday and Wednesday night. 

I seriously cannot believe I am playing softball. This is so out of my comfort zone and I would never been able to physically keep up 6 months ago.

I ran out to my position, I ran in after the inning. Even though I struck out every time at bat... I was feeling good about being able to do something new and not being afraid or embarrased.

My hubby took pictures and I still find that I criticize how I look. I still feel like I don't look that good. It is such a mind game. I know I have made great improvements but I got down on myself after looking at the pictures.

I still have more weight to lose and I hope my mind will get better. 

I like having the new exercise to include in my life.

I am very happy today. I weighed in at 204 this morning and for the first time in a long time I am wearing size 16 jeans! Not bad, 5 1/2 months I have gone from a 3X almost 4X to wearing XL and a size 24 pant to 16! 

I just cannot wait until I am under 200 pounds!!! 

I am so gratefull for this journey and even though it has not been easy, it is totally worth it and I would not change a thing. I am excited for my continued progress and I continue to get more motivated as I have successes such as this one.

So, I went to the baseball game and had plenty of room in the seat! It was so great!!!!

Also, tonight I am getting a new puppy. 

Well, here I am... it has been 5 months since my surgery and I feel so good about my progress. 5 months ago, I was 15 pounds away from weighing 300 pounds! Today, I am 9 pounds from being under 200. Today I weigh 208 pounds and I cannot even tell you the last time I weighed this much. Probably high school. This is the part I was most looking forward to for this process. To finally be at a weight that I don't ever remember being at, to feel like I am on a roll and kicking butt! It makes me so motivated to exercise more. I want to have a party when I am under 200. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry... happy tears. I bought some new tops this weekend and it felt so good buying smaller sizes. I love to clothes shop now. I am finally gaining the self esteem and confidence that I have wanted. I am not afraid to do things anymore. I am not afraid to wear yoga pants to the store. I am not afraid to have my picture taken anymore. I am not afraid to wear dresses. 

I used to shy away from going to baseball games a lot because the seats can be tight. Well, tomorrow we are going to see my Giants and I am a little anxious to see how I fit now. I went to a game in early April and there was improvement, but nothing that I was stoked about. Hopefully tomorrow I will have something else to celebrate. Fitting in a seat and not feeling squished or the arm rest pinching the crap out of me.

The other thing I wanted out of this was for my family to be proud of me. They tell me all the time how proud they are. I want them to introduce me to co-workers or friends and not be embarrassed by their ginormous daughter or sister. I want to run a maraton with my brother. I told him that I would. I promised that by 2 years post surgery I would do one with him. I think perhaps I can cash in on the promise a little earlier. I want my husband to have a sexy, confident wife. He is so good to me and constantly tells me how much he loves me no matter what I look like. He liked me heavy and he likes me now. He just wants me to be happy.

I am so lucky to have the support system that I do and I would not be as sucessful as I have without their continued love and support. 

Today I am happy and wanting to work harder; I want to get under 200 and I will.

Well, I had my 3 month follow up appointment last week. I am on track and doing pretty good. My energy has been really low. The Dr. said I need to eat more calories. Wait. What? That's a first; I have never been told that before. HAHA.

I have recently started water aerobics, which I really enjoy. It is a great hour long work out that is fun and isn't so boring like walking on a treadmill. When I am not attending a water aerobics class, I am out walking my dog. I am trying to be active and get some sort of physical activity in everyday.

I have lost 65 pounds as of today. I am really enjoying wearing clothes I have not worn in YEARS and shopping in the normal size clothing section. Getting to enjoy clothes shopping and compliments about how good you look are super motivating. I've also become a huge fan of "My 600 Pound Life" on TLC. That show really motivates me. I see them suffer and how hard it is for them to walk and it makes me thankful that I can.

I'm only 3 months into my RNY journey, but my feelings of wanting to help others going through this or thinking about it has never been so strong. 

I still have bad days and throw up more often than I would prefer and I don't like food really anymore. BUT... I would do it all over again. Being healthy and happier with myself is better than food. The happiness of eating a big juicy burger or Taco Bell only last so long... happy and confident lasts longer. :)