One month and 3 days post-op
Jun 09, 2016
What you hear is so true when you read these blogs, vlogs and newsletter and yet it is such a personal journey.
I have had no complications. Food has gone down so well with no gas pains. Sugar doesn't bother me in the least...uggghhhh, was hoping it would. Exercising more than I have in two years which is great. Lost 16 pound in the first 3 weeks and then stalled the entire 4th week. Now in the fifth week have dropped 2 lbs in 2 days. I also had my first stomach ache yesterday. It scared me a little bit because I had no doctor to go to to see if there was a leak. Luckily I took one of the pain/nausea pills I got in Mexico and after a nap felt better. However will be on shakes and Vasso yogurt pops for the next few days to make sure all is well.
So really, I have adapted so well to the physical change. However I do get frustrated and resentful at times. I am mad sometimes that I can't eat in quantity and never really feel satisfied. The addiction I have to food is so real right now and the sleeve has made it that much more obvious. I have stuffed my feelings, boredom, and fear with food forever and nowit is impossible. I am substituting walking a lot which is great but still if I am perfectly honest, I wish I could have one day off a week...or even one meal off. Just not gonna happen and I have to keep reminding m yself that it is the addiction talking. I also know that I get to go to Overeaters Anonymous to handle these issues before I am too far out.
The saddest thing I can imagine is going through all this only to gain the weight back. I must find some resolve in letting go of food, my best friend and worst enemy. Food is solely fuel so I can live the life I always imagined.
Pre-op Liquid Diet
May 30, 2016
Wow...It is finally here. I actually had a lot of anxiety about doing this diet. I felt like I couldn't let go of food and painiked. However I ended up going to Overeaters Anonyomous(OA) two days ago so I could find some support for the emotional part of this journey. And it really worked. I was focused on what I was giving up not what I was getting. So the first day went smoothly and only two more before I board the plane to Mexico to A Lighter Me....crazy...
Two Days until Clear Liquids...5 days until Surgery
May 25, 2016
Man oh Man....these days are going so slowly. It is like my world has stopped I am self-employed so I stopped working because I kept forgetting client appointments. SO now my days are filled with You Tube and books about life after surgery.
I think I am going to spend this Memorial Day weekend forgetting that I am having surgery and just living life just as I am...or at least until I start clear liquids. My pre-op diet has been alright. I am experimenting with shakes and some are really good. I have learned that the longer you blend them the thicker they get...hmmmm, becoming a blending Queen. And boy do I love the salad at night...something to chew. (Might have eaten a bit too much salad tonight...Giving up that glutton feeling is hard. I know that sounds sad but something about stuffing is one of my mental issues...I guess unconsciously I have used food to stuff emotions. I cannot imagine what it is going to be like after surgery when there is no such thing as stuffing unless you want serious side effects.
Anyways, feel like I am living in a bubble just waiting to get on the plane to surgery in Mexico...If anyone used A Lighter Me would love to hear from you...Mexico or bust!