NavyWife-Mom-of-5
I am a Navy Wife & Mother of 5 beautiful children. My youngest three are from my husbands first marriage, who unfortunately lost their biological mother. She was only 27. My oldest two are mine from previous relationships. We do not have any children together, as I lost twins in 2007, and having PCOS have not been able to get pregnant since.
Most of my family has serious medical problems, or they have already passed. Grandmother died at 56, Grandfather 67, and worst of all my mother at the age 45. (This all on my mothers side of the family)
I want to be around to watch all my kids get married, and create families of their own. I want to grow old and grey with my husband. I often have nightmares/thoughts that I am going to die. I don't want to live my life this way. I don't want my husband or children to come home one day to find me dead. I know that one day we all will be gone, but I shouldn't be fearing this at 29 years old.
As I put on more weight, I have noticed that I have troubles walking, climbing stairs, I have been getting more headaches/migraines, and sometimes vision changes. I am always tired, and don't do nearly all that I want to do with my children. I often think of things that I would love to do with them, but never end up doing them, as I am to tired from doing just the normal everyday chores. To be honest, I don't always have the energy to do those either.
I know some of my sleeping issues have to do with me being a hopeless Insomniac, (Specialist is still trying to help me with that) but I also have a small form of Sleep Apnea, and don't sleep well most nights. I have to nap with my 3 year old during the day, cause I am not able to make it if I don't. I am only 29 years old, that should NOT be a problem for me.
I can remember how active I once was. Camping, hiking, raising horses, pigs, playing volleyball in school, and running all day and still having energy. Now I can't keep up, and it is frustrating. I was always a chunky girl. I am only 5'1" and supposed to weigh around 105-125.. Hahahha Okay, but most of my weight gain started happening after having children. I went from 145-155 before having kids, to what you see now. My highest weight being 299..
My feet swell at the drop of the hat, I always have back pain, shopping even is an issue at times. I have medical issues I have never had before, purely weight related. I will also tell you something I normally don't share, but I have put all my other cards on the table, so to really put myself out there, my sex life has suffered as well. I am not interested the way I once was, and even when I try, there is nothing there. (Of course I am still a woman and have my "Good nights")
The heavier I get, the more the problems I am having. (Duhh) I have tried all the "fad" diets, and have lost 60 pounds before, but the minute I stop, you guessed it, I put the weight back on and then some. My own mother would break the "diet capsules" up and put them in my yogurt when I was 5 cause I was getting picked on for being a chunky kinder gardener. (I know!)
Like I said in my first Blog: I am looking for a MIRACLE, and am hoping that Dr. Vierra is that miracle I have been looking for.
I have thought about weight loss surgery before, and have even attended a seminar years ago, but not having insurance that would pay for this life saving surgery, I wasn't able to do it on my own. (I had been a single mother for years with NO help from the "Dad's") My PCM is the one that told me that I needed to go and talk with Dr. Vierra, who of course does WLS. He said a lot of my health issues should disappear after the weight comes off, so here I am.
I want to be healthy, I want to be more active. I WANT MY LIFE BACK! I would be a liar if I said that I don't care about looks, but I can tell you that I am not motivated by what I may look like, (I know this surgery is going to leave me with saggy skin, YUMMY, but saggy skin I know is healthier for me than all this fat is) I am looking forward to doing all the things with my family that we have not been able to do because of my size.
So if you have taken the time to read all this, you are far to kind.
I hope that my story in some way has helped..
