Nellelc310
It's hard to write about myself, especially when it's suppose to help others understand. I guess in some ways I have more in common with others then I think.
I was always skinny growing up as a child to teen years. At 19-20, I lost my gallbladder. It was full and they had to remove it. Because of this, I went from a size 4 to 22 in four months. The doctor kept telling me nothing was wrong. They tested my thyroid, ekg, cancer. I was going to see her so much because of the pain my stomach was in, and the rapid gain of weight. I was passing out at home because the pain was so bad. Couldn't keep a job because I was constantly sick. She even put in my file that I was a hypochondriac and liked to make up medical issues for attention. I had to go into the ER, because I passed out from the pain at home and hit my head on the nightstand. So my husband (now exhusband) had to call paramedics and they took me to Emergency. That is when I finally got someone to listen to me and he told them to do an ultra sound on my stomach. Check everything. Next day I was in for emergency surgery.
I got back down to a size 12, got pregnant with my daughter went up to a 16. Got pregnant with my son went up to a 20. I have slowly gained weight as to loosing weight.
my exhusband had an affair, which really lowered my self esteem and confidence more. I was an at home mom, still am. Struggling trying to find work. I think it's because everyone wants what Society or social media considers proper versus my actual skill and intellengence. I get told on paper I look great, come to interview and then the excuse of I think your over qualified or not what we are looking for.
So this is where I am now. Did all of the classes, never completed the physc evaluation because the first person I went to was trying to force me to take medication. She kept trying to get me to say I had anxiety about the surgery but honestly I didn't. I have undergone two c-sections, gallbladder and breast reduction. She wanted to see me two more times before she would approve, I went and she still didn't approve. Just kept trying to assign me more and more medication.
the doctor told me to see a different therapist, one off their list. It was going to cost me out of pocket 300-480$. Something I didn't have, being a single mom, no job other then trying to make soaps or crafts to sell, just to help support my kids. So I stopped.
so close yet so far. Now trying to just stick to the diet without the surgery.
i am not sure if this is what I should have put here. I can change it if I need to.