Margo J
3 Years WoW!
Jan 22, 2008
Well it has been an amazing three years since my surgery. I am down about 140 lbs since my highest weight. I have never got even close to my goal weight of 155 lbs. I hover around 195 give or take a few lbs. I have finally realized that I will be on a diet for the rest of my life. I have yet to learn that it is really just a lifestyle change. I still have food issues, and 3 years later I certainly can eat more. People always ask me how people can gain their weight back, and I say it is easy...you just eat. I have to contiunually make good food choices, and eat when hungry. Your head still takes over in the food department. That being said, I am very pleased with where I am at. I am healthy, and in the best shape of my life (except for some saggy skin).
I have beat myself to death trying to lose more weight, and finally came to the realization that this is where my body wants to be, and I work to keep it here. There are so many others who have regained, and I work not to do that. I would like to have plastic surgery sometime in the near future. It all depends on my budget, and my nerve. Honestly I am scared to death of the recovery. I am such a baby. It would sure be nice to get rid of some of this excess skin, and to have my boobies back where they belong.
It has been a longggg time since I last posted. Time flies. I was reading my last post, and talked about pain, well, I ended up having my gall bladder removed over Thanksgiving 06. All has been good since. My daughter Tina had gbp surgery in July, and so far has lost over 70 lbs, and is looking amazing. She was always beautiful, now only better, and healthier.
The only problem I have been having recently is low iron and platelets. I underwent iron infustion treatments during December so hopefully that will take care of things for the next year. I want to stress how important it is to maintain your blood work. We don't absorb like we used to and strange things happen when you are vitamin deficient.
Life is good, and I hope to not wait so long to update my profile. Until next time...
I have beat myself to death trying to lose more weight, and finally came to the realization that this is where my body wants to be, and I work to keep it here. There are so many others who have regained, and I work not to do that. I would like to have plastic surgery sometime in the near future. It all depends on my budget, and my nerve. Honestly I am scared to death of the recovery. I am such a baby. It would sure be nice to get rid of some of this excess skin, and to have my boobies back where they belong.
It has been a longggg time since I last posted. Time flies. I was reading my last post, and talked about pain, well, I ended up having my gall bladder removed over Thanksgiving 06. All has been good since. My daughter Tina had gbp surgery in July, and so far has lost over 70 lbs, and is looking amazing. She was always beautiful, now only better, and healthier.
The only problem I have been having recently is low iron and platelets. I underwent iron infustion treatments during December so hopefully that will take care of things for the next year. I want to stress how important it is to maintain your blood work. We don't absorb like we used to and strange things happen when you are vitamin deficient.
Life is good, and I hope to not wait so long to update my profile. Until next time...
November 21, 2006
Nov 21, 2006
Wow I can not believe it is already November! It is almost Thanksgiving and Christmas is just around the corner. Once again it has been months since I have posted. I did try and update my profile with the new look. Isn't it cute? I still haven't figured out how to add back my photos in my blog section, but I'll get there. I did add a before picture of me and Tommy from cruise we went on where he proposed to me. My after picture is from the cruise we went on in March. What a difference huh! I have only lost about 8 lbs. since March, but it is still a loss. I am holding steady between 192 and 195 lbs. If only I could see the 180s. I have been having major tummy problems the last 2 weeks, and have been experiencing excruciating pain after I eat. I have been to see Dr. K, and he thinks it is gallbladder. I have an ultrasound scheduled for 11/28, but when I called Dr. K today for pain meds Helen told me that they might want to do the surgery today. Yikes! Oh well. Anything to get rid of this pain. It starts within 5 to 15 minutes of eating and then can last up to 2 hours, and it is worse than labor. It is not the best time to deal with this, but then when is a good time. I like to post this stuff to help keep track of my journey, and don't want to scare anyone. Statistically speaking more than 1/2 of gbp patients end up having their gallbladder removed. Perhaps I should have taken my actigall.
I am still wearing a misses size 16 pants and a size XL top. I am not giving up on losing more weight, but it seems as if this is it for me. I would like to start looking into plastics after the first of the year. I would like to be in a couple sizes smaller. It is not nearly as fun shopping for clothes as I thought it would be. I have to try everything on, and alot of times clothes just don't fit right. Before wls I was just happy to find something cute in a size 30/32. Now I am so picky.
It also seems that weight shifts around too. I am pretty small on the top half of my body. It is those darn hips and thighs that refuse to budge. I have been looking for tall boots, but still have fluffy calves so I need to special order. I read somewhere that "pear" shapes have a hrder time losing. Just my luck ;-) But at least I have an excuse hee hee. Other than the recent tummy problems I have been very problem free, and feel great. I kind of fell off the exercise wagon with all of my business travel in August thru October. I started back regularly at the Y, and You know I really did miss it. I forgot how good it feels to workout. Hey who said that? Now I am dealing with the gallbladder, and haven't exercised in a week and a half. Yuck. Tommy and I bought a weight set, and some other exercise stuff, and plan to set up the garage so we can start doing more at home on the days we don't want to drive into town. Now if I can only get him to help get the garage organized...sigh... Well I am going to sign off now, but will update after I figure out what is up with my gallbladder.
August 2006
Aug 01, 2006
August 31, 2006
My time flies when you are living life. Things are going well, and I have been really busy...I guess too busy to update here. Healthwise I am healthy. I had a phycial with my PCP, and she was very pleased with my weight loss. All of my labs were good, and my BP & cholesterol were prefect. Also no blood sugar issues. I am very pleased in that area. I currently wear a size large top and a size 16 misses pants! Woo Hoo no more plus sizes. Oh I still miss Lanes though, but sure do love Macy's! My weight did drop to 189 lbs. Then my scale broke, and I bought a new scale, and it weighs me more than the old one. It weighed me at 198 lbs. I hate that number! It is my 4 month plateau number. I know I am doing well, but the scale does mess with your head, and I am still so obsessed. Things are moving really slow now, and I have to work hard to lose weight. I eat between 1200 and 1400 calories a day. My surgeon says I should only eat 1000 if I still want to lose. So I still struggle with my last 30 or so lbs. I am determined though. And I will get there.
I have met so many great people from this board. There is a big group of us going on the Baja cruz in March. I am so excited, and hope to be at goal by then! Here is a cute pic of me and my WLS buds, Faith, Suzanne and Desi.
I went camping with the family this summer, and it sure is nice to camp at 190 lbs. what a difference. I have so much more energy now, and my extra large sleeping bag that I used to barely zip has room for me and then some now! Life, in many ways, is easier at 190 lbs. It is amazing. The charts still say I am obese, but I am lots better off than where I was. I am swamped at work right now, and have been doing tons of travel and late nights, and I am not nearly as exuasted as I would have been pre-weightloss.
I still want plastics, especially now after summer, and wanting to wear summer clothes. I have skin issues. I was able to admire plastic surgery results of some of my wls buddies, and I was very impressed...especially the tummy tucks. I definately want a TT, but am rethinking arms. The scars are just too ugly. And I definately want perky boobs. Those are my top two on the list. I need to save my $$$
Life is soo good, and I am very happy with my progress so far. I will try and keep this journal up, it so helps me to keep focused.
I recently complted a picture CD for Tommy for our 5 year anniversary and this picture was take of me on our honeymoon. I though I looked pretty good. Yikes!!
My time flies when you are living life. Things are going well, and I have been really busy...I guess too busy to update here. Healthwise I am healthy. I had a phycial with my PCP, and she was very pleased with my weight loss. All of my labs were good, and my BP & cholesterol were prefect. Also no blood sugar issues. I am very pleased in that area. I currently wear a size large top and a size 16 misses pants! Woo Hoo no more plus sizes. Oh I still miss Lanes though, but sure do love Macy's! My weight did drop to 189 lbs. Then my scale broke, and I bought a new scale, and it weighs me more than the old one. It weighed me at 198 lbs. I hate that number! It is my 4 month plateau number. I know I am doing well, but the scale does mess with your head, and I am still so obsessed. Things are moving really slow now, and I have to work hard to lose weight. I eat between 1200 and 1400 calories a day. My surgeon says I should only eat 1000 if I still want to lose. So I still struggle with my last 30 or so lbs. I am determined though. And I will get there.
I have met so many great people from this board. There is a big group of us going on the Baja cruz in March. I am so excited, and hope to be at goal by then! Here is a cute pic of me and my WLS buds, Faith, Suzanne and Desi.
I went camping with the family this summer, and it sure is nice to camp at 190 lbs. what a difference. I have so much more energy now, and my extra large sleeping bag that I used to barely zip has room for me and then some now! Life, in many ways, is easier at 190 lbs. It is amazing. The charts still say I am obese, but I am lots better off than where I was. I am swamped at work right now, and have been doing tons of travel and late nights, and I am not nearly as exuasted as I would have been pre-weightloss.
I still want plastics, especially now after summer, and wanting to wear summer clothes. I have skin issues. I was able to admire plastic surgery results of some of my wls buddies, and I was very impressed...especially the tummy tucks. I definately want a TT, but am rethinking arms. The scars are just too ugly. And I definately want perky boobs. Those are my top two on the list. I need to save my $$$
Life is soo good, and I am very happy with my progress so far. I will try and keep this journal up, it so helps me to keep focused.
I recently complted a picture CD for Tommy for our 5 year anniversary and this picture was take of me on our honeymoon. I though I looked pretty good. Yikes!!
May 2006
May 01, 2006
May 12, 2006
I was looking at my profile and I have not updated in forever, I know it is because I have been stuck on this lousy plateau for almost 4 months now. I am so incredibly frustrated. If I am done I am done, and it is sure better that where I was, but I would like to think I could get this last 35 lbs off somehow someway. I have tried everything, and the scale keeps moving back to 197-198. It is driving me NUTS!!!!! Other than weight loss being stuck life is pretty darn good, and I really shouldn’t complain. We went on an 8 day cruise in march (photos in my strip below), and then a short Pacific Coastal cruise a couple of weeks ago. We had fun on both trips. I will say this though, the food thing on the ship was sooo overwhelming at first. There was food everywhere, and mass quantities of it. I wasn’t sure how I would be able to exist for 8 days on that floating buffet! It is so strange to see people pile and pile food on their plates like they are never going to get another meal. It was almost like being in a bad dream. Was I like that? I am sure I was, I always thought I didn’t eat that much and I was fat because of genetics, I was fat because I ate too much! Most overweight people eat too much! That took me my whole life to learn. I also know that I can never eat like that again or I will gain my weight back. By no means am I perfect because I am far from it. I enjoyed every meal and then some on my vacation. The only difference is that I can’t eat as much as before. I enjoyed tastes of things. Sometimes when something was really good, but I could not get one more bite in I would get mad. I still have a “fat” brain. Sighhhh. My weight stayed the same during vacation so that was good.
I am going to try to see my nutritionist to see if she can help get my weight moving again. I need to get into regular sized pants. I am in a size large and xL top, and a size 14W pant or regular misses size 18. Some 16s work. As my husband says, I still have “junk in the trunk.” My hips and thighs are the hardest part to make smaller. I so can’t wait for plastics, but I am sure I will need to lose a few more lbs. Before it can be considered. On another note, my brother has been doing WW, and is doing great! I am so proud of him, he has lost over 35 lbs. This is so good for his health. My sister and brother-in-law have also jumped on the healthy eating bandwagon, and are losing weight. Since we all hang out together it is better for us to all eat better healthy food. At Easter I saw a lot of family who hasn’t seen me for a while, and they were so surprised to see how much weight I have lost. That sure felt good, but it is still hard to accept compliments…I get so embarrassed. I still don’t see me as others do. In my mind I still feel like I am 300 lbs. I will fold my laundry and look at it and say that doesn’t fit. And, I still gravitate to plus size stores and departments trying on clothes, and everything is too big. It takes a while for the head to catch up….
I was looking at my profile and I have not updated in forever, I know it is because I have been stuck on this lousy plateau for almost 4 months now. I am so incredibly frustrated. If I am done I am done, and it is sure better that where I was, but I would like to think I could get this last 35 lbs off somehow someway. I have tried everything, and the scale keeps moving back to 197-198. It is driving me NUTS!!!!! Other than weight loss being stuck life is pretty darn good, and I really shouldn’t complain. We went on an 8 day cruise in march (photos in my strip below), and then a short Pacific Coastal cruise a couple of weeks ago. We had fun on both trips. I will say this though, the food thing on the ship was sooo overwhelming at first. There was food everywhere, and mass quantities of it. I wasn’t sure how I would be able to exist for 8 days on that floating buffet! It is so strange to see people pile and pile food on their plates like they are never going to get another meal. It was almost like being in a bad dream. Was I like that? I am sure I was, I always thought I didn’t eat that much and I was fat because of genetics, I was fat because I ate too much! Most overweight people eat too much! That took me my whole life to learn. I also know that I can never eat like that again or I will gain my weight back. By no means am I perfect because I am far from it. I enjoyed every meal and then some on my vacation. The only difference is that I can’t eat as much as before. I enjoyed tastes of things. Sometimes when something was really good, but I could not get one more bite in I would get mad. I still have a “fat” brain. Sighhhh. My weight stayed the same during vacation so that was good.
I am going to try to see my nutritionist to see if she can help get my weight moving again. I need to get into regular sized pants. I am in a size large and xL top, and a size 14W pant or regular misses size 18. Some 16s work. As my husband says, I still have “junk in the trunk.” My hips and thighs are the hardest part to make smaller. I so can’t wait for plastics, but I am sure I will need to lose a few more lbs. Before it can be considered. On another note, my brother has been doing WW, and is doing great! I am so proud of him, he has lost over 35 lbs. This is so good for his health. My sister and brother-in-law have also jumped on the healthy eating bandwagon, and are losing weight. Since we all hang out together it is better for us to all eat better healthy food. At Easter I saw a lot of family who hasn’t seen me for a while, and they were so surprised to see how much weight I have lost. That sure felt good, but it is still hard to accept compliments…I get so embarrassed. I still don’t see me as others do. In my mind I still feel like I am 300 lbs. I will fold my laundry and look at it and say that doesn’t fit. And, I still gravitate to plus size stores and departments trying on clothes, and everything is too big. It takes a while for the head to catch up….
February 2006
Feb 01, 2006
2/23/06
Well it seems my entries get further and further apart. I am doing well, but seem to be struggling with weight loss. My weight loss has kind of been stuck at 198 lbs. Did you read that??? Under 200 lbs. I don't think I have been under 200 since grade school, except maybe once for a brief moment when I was 20 and on some crazy vitamin b fad diet. I was so happy to make it to the "onederlands." I only lost 4 lbs. since last month, and I really wanted to be 185 by my March 16th cruise. Now I hope to be 190. That would be okay too…I have tried many different things to get things moving, and nothing seems to be working. I mainly focus on higher protein and lower carbs. I can eat between 1200 and 1400 calories a day now, and that is a little scary for me that I can eat so much more now. Last year at this time I was fighting to get in 600 calories. I don’t think that what I am eating is too much. But I am not really sure. And some days I start to panic because I am worried that I am not going to get to my goal. I have been struggling lately with appetite…. It sure has increased lately. They say it comes back after a year or so, and lately it feels much stronger than in the past. I know this surgery is only a tool, and you have to follow the rules. I have to remind myself that every day if I want to make it to 160 lbs. I am so friggin close. Only 38 more lbs! I am thinking about going to see my nutritionist to figure out what I should be eating in terms of protein and calories. I am exercising 3 to 4 times a week, and perhaps I need to increase it to 5 to 6 times per week. Another issue that still makes me crazy is my need for sweets! I think I write this in every post! It just makes me crazy that I have no self-control over it. I am a control freak, and it bugs the hell out of me that I cannot control my sweet cravings.
Boy, perhaps I could use some cheese with my whine! Life is good otherwise. I am 3 weeks away from our vacation. We are going on a cruise, and I can’t wait! I have bought some new clothes I can’t wait to wear. We have two formal nights. I bought a strapless pink full-length dress on e-bay for a whopping $10.49. It is so cute. And I bought a very sexy black cocktail dress from
I have been researching plastic surgery, so when I hit goal I can actually go for a consult. I am hoping to make it by the end of the year. I would like to have lower body lift, a medial thigh lift, a booby lift and arms. Wow this seems like a lot when I write it down. If I prioritize I would do my thighs last just cuz I don’t show them often. But, they really do look like elephant skin, and my skin hangs above my knees. I will sport a bathing suit on my cruise, but must wear a sarong. It is funny cuz at 334 lbs I walked proudly in my swimsuit, and now I am so self-conscious. My stomach is not as bad as I thought it would be, but it still hangs. My worst part is the arms and boobs. No matter how much exercise I do my skin on my arms has not moved. And the girls have definitely gone south…almost to the equator.
Goals for next month are to be 190 lbs., and to exercise more (even if it means exercising at home). Also, not to gain any weight on my cruise. I am allowing myself to eat which means I will have to exercise while on board….yea okay. I hope to post new pictures soon. Until next time…
Well it seems my entries get further and further apart. I am doing well, but seem to be struggling with weight loss. My weight loss has kind of been stuck at 198 lbs. Did you read that??? Under 200 lbs. I don't think I have been under 200 since grade school, except maybe once for a brief moment when I was 20 and on some crazy vitamin b fad diet. I was so happy to make it to the "onederlands." I only lost 4 lbs. since last month, and I really wanted to be 185 by my March 16th cruise. Now I hope to be 190. That would be okay too…I have tried many different things to get things moving, and nothing seems to be working. I mainly focus on higher protein and lower carbs. I can eat between 1200 and 1400 calories a day now, and that is a little scary for me that I can eat so much more now. Last year at this time I was fighting to get in 600 calories. I don’t think that what I am eating is too much. But I am not really sure. And some days I start to panic because I am worried that I am not going to get to my goal. I have been struggling lately with appetite…. It sure has increased lately. They say it comes back after a year or so, and lately it feels much stronger than in the past. I know this surgery is only a tool, and you have to follow the rules. I have to remind myself that every day if I want to make it to 160 lbs. I am so friggin close. Only 38 more lbs! I am thinking about going to see my nutritionist to figure out what I should be eating in terms of protein and calories. I am exercising 3 to 4 times a week, and perhaps I need to increase it to 5 to 6 times per week. Another issue that still makes me crazy is my need for sweets! I think I write this in every post! It just makes me crazy that I have no self-control over it. I am a control freak, and it bugs the hell out of me that I cannot control my sweet cravings.
Boy, perhaps I could use some cheese with my whine! Life is good otherwise. I am 3 weeks away from our vacation. We are going on a cruise, and I can’t wait! I have bought some new clothes I can’t wait to wear. We have two formal nights. I bought a strapless pink full-length dress on e-bay for a whopping $10.49. It is so cute. And I bought a very sexy black cocktail dress from
I have been researching plastic surgery, so when I hit goal I can actually go for a consult. I am hoping to make it by the end of the year. I would like to have lower body lift, a medial thigh lift, a booby lift and arms. Wow this seems like a lot when I write it down. If I prioritize I would do my thighs last just cuz I don’t show them often. But, they really do look like elephant skin, and my skin hangs above my knees. I will sport a bathing suit on my cruise, but must wear a sarong. It is funny cuz at 334 lbs I walked proudly in my swimsuit, and now I am so self-conscious. My stomach is not as bad as I thought it would be, but it still hangs. My worst part is the arms and boobs. No matter how much exercise I do my skin on my arms has not moved. And the girls have definitely gone south…almost to the equator.
Goals for next month are to be 190 lbs., and to exercise more (even if it means exercising at home). Also, not to gain any weight on my cruise. I am allowing myself to eat which means I will have to exercise while on board….yea okay. I hope to post new pictures soon. Until next time…
January 2006
Jan 01, 2006
1/18/06
One year ago today I underwent the surgery that changed my life. Wow can you believe it a year has passed??? I remember last year at this time wondering if I would live through the surgery, and if it would work for me, and what would I be like, and how would I change. So many questions…and one year later, I am 132 lbs lighter, completely healthy and happy. I did survive the surgery, and fortunately for me had a fairly easy time of it. I feel so blessed to have made it this far without any complications. I don’t think I have changed too much…certainly, physically I am smaller, but emotionally, I am still the same person I always was…perhaps a little more confident. Unlike so many others who undergo this surgery my relationships have remained the same, and I love my husband even more now than ever. He has been so supportive of my journey and me. And my family and friends have been equally supportive. I am so grateful for all of the new friends I have made through my support group at
The holidays were wonderful, and I had my whole family with me. Christmas morning was so fun with all of my kids home and grandsons too. It was so fun to watch the kids open their presents. Christmas is for kids, and it is always nice to have little ones around. I cooked dinner for my family and brother and sister as well. We are so big on tradition, and I try to do the same Christmas that my mom did when we were kids. I, of course, cooked way too much food, but it always gets eaten. Since I can’t eat too much I still feel the need to make everyone else eat. I did over indulge on sweets…still my biggest issue. I wish sweets would make me sick. I did allow myself to eat during the holidays, and I think that was okay. I only lost 5 lbs from last month, but a loss is still a loss in my book. And I have gotten back on track.
We are going on a cruise in March, and I would like to lose 15 lbs. by then. I want to fit into a regular misses size 16. The weight loss is slowing down now, and it takes real work to keep losing. I still have another 42 lbs. to go to get to my goal of 160 lbs. I did not make it to under 200 by my surgery anniversary date. Darn, I tried, and I am so close…the scale weighed me in this morning at 201.5 lbs. Yikes! I am almost there. It is much harder now because I can eat so much more food, and my appetite has definitely returned. This surgery is just a tool to help, but I still must make healthy choices, and not graze. Some days I feel like I can eat a horse, and others I can barely take a few bites. I would prefer to have the latter. I went to my one year check up with Dr. K, and all of my labs came back fine, but my iron levels are on the low side of normal so I will need to increase my iron. (That explains the dark circle under my eyes). Dr. K said my weight loss is within the acceptable range. I told him that I had hoped to lose more weight than I had. But he assured me that everyone is different, and to keep doing what I am doing, and the weight will come off. It sometimes gets discouraging when I see others who had surgery close to mine, who are at goal. I am sometimes hard on myself that way, but I am not giving up. I am so happy with where I am today, and look forward to what the new year holds…until next time.
One year ago today I underwent the surgery that changed my life. Wow can you believe it a year has passed??? I remember last year at this time wondering if I would live through the surgery, and if it would work for me, and what would I be like, and how would I change. So many questions…and one year later, I am 132 lbs lighter, completely healthy and happy. I did survive the surgery, and fortunately for me had a fairly easy time of it. I feel so blessed to have made it this far without any complications. I don’t think I have changed too much…certainly, physically I am smaller, but emotionally, I am still the same person I always was…perhaps a little more confident. Unlike so many others who undergo this surgery my relationships have remained the same, and I love my husband even more now than ever. He has been so supportive of my journey and me. And my family and friends have been equally supportive. I am so grateful for all of the new friends I have made through my support group at
The holidays were wonderful, and I had my whole family with me. Christmas morning was so fun with all of my kids home and grandsons too. It was so fun to watch the kids open their presents. Christmas is for kids, and it is always nice to have little ones around. I cooked dinner for my family and brother and sister as well. We are so big on tradition, and I try to do the same Christmas that my mom did when we were kids. I, of course, cooked way too much food, but it always gets eaten. Since I can’t eat too much I still feel the need to make everyone else eat. I did over indulge on sweets…still my biggest issue. I wish sweets would make me sick. I did allow myself to eat during the holidays, and I think that was okay. I only lost 5 lbs from last month, but a loss is still a loss in my book. And I have gotten back on track.
We are going on a cruise in March, and I would like to lose 15 lbs. by then. I want to fit into a regular misses size 16. The weight loss is slowing down now, and it takes real work to keep losing. I still have another 42 lbs. to go to get to my goal of 160 lbs. I did not make it to under 200 by my surgery anniversary date. Darn, I tried, and I am so close…the scale weighed me in this morning at 201.5 lbs. Yikes! I am almost there. It is much harder now because I can eat so much more food, and my appetite has definitely returned. This surgery is just a tool to help, but I still must make healthy choices, and not graze. Some days I feel like I can eat a horse, and others I can barely take a few bites. I would prefer to have the latter. I went to my one year check up with Dr. K, and all of my labs came back fine, but my iron levels are on the low side of normal so I will need to increase my iron. (That explains the dark circle under my eyes). Dr. K said my weight loss is within the acceptable range. I told him that I had hoped to lose more weight than I had. But he assured me that everyone is different, and to keep doing what I am doing, and the weight will come off. It sometimes gets discouraging when I see others who had surgery close to mine, who are at goal. I am sometimes hard on myself that way, but I am not giving up. I am so happy with where I am today, and look forward to what the new year holds…until next time.
December 2005
Dec 01, 2005
12/19/05
Geez how time flies. I have been busy getting ready for the holidays. I love this time of year, but it sure has been tough as far as eating goes. We went to 3 different parties this weekend. It's not like I can eat or drink much, but I still have a hard time with choices. And the last 2 weeks have been busy, and I haven't really been eating enough. I get busy and forget to eat...did I just say forget to eat???That's a change. Last year at this time I was awaiting my surgery, I can't believe what a difference 11 months make. I am officially 127 lbs lighter than my heaviest weight, I am wearing 8 sizes smaller than I did a year ago and I have more energy than ever. I am so grateful to have had this surgery and all that has come with it. I feel better both physically and emotionally than I have in a long time. I still don't always recognize my smaller self. I still see the old me some times, and then I will look at pictures and wonder who it is I am looking at...oh it's me! Weird...the mind takes longer to catch up with the body. I also feel like people treat me different than before. Not so much with friends and family, but with strangers or people I enounter in day to day life. It seems when I was bigger people weren't as nice or personable as they are now. It's almost as if people are afraid of fat people. It's not like obesity is catchy or anything. I know I am rambling cuz it is hard to explain. It could be that people are more friendly because I am more confident...who knows...I just know that people treat me different as a 200 lb. person than when I was a 300 lb. person. I hope to never be like that. In fact, every time I see an obese person I want to tell them about the surgery and how it has changed my life (I don't do it, but I really want too).
My best friends father passed away last week and at his service I saw people I hadn't seen in years and I received so many compliments. It felt really good, but I always feel weird about it. It's funny, people will say you look great now, and then they back track and say "not that you didn't look great before." It cracks me up it's like the whole"pretty face" thing that always annoyed me. Now I just think it's funny. Not to be so philisophical, but I hate that we attach beauty with physical size. With my luck, by the time I hit goal, fat will be stylish....haha.
I didn't have great weightloss this past month, only 4 lbs. I am kind of bummed I so want to get under 200 by 1/1. I am so close. I have been going between 205 and 207. I haven't been exercising much because I had a cold for 3 weeks during Thanksgiving, and now busy getting ready for Christmas. I will get back on track here soon. I am wearing a size xl top, and a size 16W pants or an 18 misses. It is weird to shop now because my size is on the verge of wearing regular clothes. I can no longer wear any plus size tops. I still have hips and butt though, or as Tommy says "Junk In the Trunk." So I can still wear plus bottoms. I like to shop at Lanes...it has been my friend since I wore chubby sizes as a kid. I still gravitate to the store, but not much fits any more. I guess I will have to let go. I also can wear regular width shoes now. It sure does make shoe shopping more fun. I only need to lose 47 lbs. to get to my goal (27lbs for surgeons goal). I hope to get there by June 06. I will definately be ready for plastics by then. Even though I have exercised regularly the skin just doesn't bounce back like it used to. I would like to have my arms, thighs, tummy and boobs done. We'll see. I watch lots of tv shows about PS, and would love Dr. Lee from Dr. 90210 to do my surgery. I am not sure if anything will be covered by my insurance so I'll have to save my pennies. I knew there would be skin issues...some parts are worse than others.
6 more days until Christmas, and one more month to my one year anniversary, and so much to be thankful for. Until next time...
Geez how time flies. I have been busy getting ready for the holidays. I love this time of year, but it sure has been tough as far as eating goes. We went to 3 different parties this weekend. It's not like I can eat or drink much, but I still have a hard time with choices. And the last 2 weeks have been busy, and I haven't really been eating enough. I get busy and forget to eat...did I just say forget to eat???That's a change. Last year at this time I was awaiting my surgery, I can't believe what a difference 11 months make. I am officially 127 lbs lighter than my heaviest weight, I am wearing 8 sizes smaller than I did a year ago and I have more energy than ever. I am so grateful to have had this surgery and all that has come with it. I feel better both physically and emotionally than I have in a long time. I still don't always recognize my smaller self. I still see the old me some times, and then I will look at pictures and wonder who it is I am looking at...oh it's me! Weird...the mind takes longer to catch up with the body. I also feel like people treat me different than before. Not so much with friends and family, but with strangers or people I enounter in day to day life. It seems when I was bigger people weren't as nice or personable as they are now. It's almost as if people are afraid of fat people. It's not like obesity is catchy or anything. I know I am rambling cuz it is hard to explain. It could be that people are more friendly because I am more confident...who knows...I just know that people treat me different as a 200 lb. person than when I was a 300 lb. person. I hope to never be like that. In fact, every time I see an obese person I want to tell them about the surgery and how it has changed my life (I don't do it, but I really want too).
My best friends father passed away last week and at his service I saw people I hadn't seen in years and I received so many compliments. It felt really good, but I always feel weird about it. It's funny, people will say you look great now, and then they back track and say "not that you didn't look great before." It cracks me up it's like the whole"pretty face" thing that always annoyed me. Now I just think it's funny. Not to be so philisophical, but I hate that we attach beauty with physical size. With my luck, by the time I hit goal, fat will be stylish....haha.
I didn't have great weightloss this past month, only 4 lbs. I am kind of bummed I so want to get under 200 by 1/1. I am so close. I have been going between 205 and 207. I haven't been exercising much because I had a cold for 3 weeks during Thanksgiving, and now busy getting ready for Christmas. I will get back on track here soon. I am wearing a size xl top, and a size 16W pants or an 18 misses. It is weird to shop now because my size is on the verge of wearing regular clothes. I can no longer wear any plus size tops. I still have hips and butt though, or as Tommy says "Junk In the Trunk." So I can still wear plus bottoms. I like to shop at Lanes...it has been my friend since I wore chubby sizes as a kid. I still gravitate to the store, but not much fits any more. I guess I will have to let go. I also can wear regular width shoes now. It sure does make shoe shopping more fun. I only need to lose 47 lbs. to get to my goal (27lbs for surgeons goal). I hope to get there by June 06. I will definately be ready for plastics by then. Even though I have exercised regularly the skin just doesn't bounce back like it used to. I would like to have my arms, thighs, tummy and boobs done. We'll see. I watch lots of tv shows about PS, and would love Dr. Lee from Dr. 90210 to do my surgery. I am not sure if anything will be covered by my insurance so I'll have to save my pennies. I knew there would be skin issues...some parts are worse than others.
6 more days until Christmas, and one more month to my one year anniversary, and so much to be thankful for. Until next time...
November 2005
Nov 01, 2005
11/1/05
Geez I didn't even update in October. Not much going on other than life as usual. I have been doing well, but the weightloss has definately slowed down. I only lost 5.5 lbs last month, but a loss is a loss in my book. I still want to los 3.5 lbs to make it to 100 lbs lost since surgery. I weigh 216.5 lbs., and fluctuate up 1 or down 1 depending on the day. And yes I still weigh myself daily...I know. I exercise 3 to 4 times per week regularly. I would lose more weight if I can get one more day in, but life is hectic. I try. I can eat so much more than in the beginning which is some times scarey. Most of the time I make good choices, but I have my moments, and I still have the sweets demon hanging over me. Yesterday was Halloween, and I ate way too many candies. There were sweets everywhere I turned. I wish I got sick on sweets like most other gbp patients, but unfortunately I don't. So I am forced to make choices. I have food issues I never knew or thought I had. I hate to leave food on my plate, and when there is food around I must eat it whether or not I am hungry. I don't know where this behavior has come from. I guess it was my mother telling us about the starving children in
My new mini goal (after I lose 100 lbs) is to get under 200 lbs. I am so freakin' close. I want to get there before the year ends, and that is going to take some work on my part. The holidays are coming,and food will be everywhere. I know I can do it. Plus I want to wear something really hot to my hubby's Christmas party. Last year a this time I was preparing for surgery...I can't believe how fast time goes. I am attaching a picture I took of me and my 2 grandsons on Halloween yesterday. They are so cute! My husband gave me a nice compliment...he said I looked more like the baby sitter than the granny (or Nonni as the kids call me).
11/21/05
I wanted to post today because I have reached a milestone in my weightloss. I have beeen struggling with stalls in my weight loss for the past few weeks. One of the women from our January message board posted a "Kick Start" diet, and I did it for 5 days as directed, and not only did I lose 4.5 lbs, it also put me at over 100 lbs. lost since surgery. I am so happy...most of my January peers have surpassed the century mark, and I have been feeling left out and like a failure...Now I am in the club! I am also closer to my mini goal of being under 200 lbs by 1/1. It is going to be tough. I realized that I have been eating way too many carbs, and need to stick with the plan given by my nutritionist. it is funny, I had no carbs Monday thru Friday last week, and was down about 7 lbs Saturday AM. I added carbs back Saturday and Sunday, and by Sunday evening I was down 4.5 lbs. I know the scale fluctuates daily, but wow that was 2.5 lbs. Carbs are not my friend!
I went shopping this weekend to find something to wear to my hubbys Christmas party. His party is usually pretty casual, but I wanted to wear something hot since I haven't seen these people in over a year. I bought a teal wrinkled velvet like halter, and some jeans (size 16W). Now I am on a mission for some hoochie shoes to go with it. I can't believe I am in a 16 W jeans...That is 1/2 way from where I started in size 32 jeans (8 sizes). I'll post a picture after the party.
Geez I didn't even update in October. Not much going on other than life as usual. I have been doing well, but the weightloss has definately slowed down. I only lost 5.5 lbs last month, but a loss is a loss in my book. I still want to los 3.5 lbs to make it to 100 lbs lost since surgery. I weigh 216.5 lbs., and fluctuate up 1 or down 1 depending on the day. And yes I still weigh myself daily...I know. I exercise 3 to 4 times per week regularly. I would lose more weight if I can get one more day in, but life is hectic. I try. I can eat so much more than in the beginning which is some times scarey. Most of the time I make good choices, but I have my moments, and I still have the sweets demon hanging over me. Yesterday was Halloween, and I ate way too many candies. There were sweets everywhere I turned. I wish I got sick on sweets like most other gbp patients, but unfortunately I don't. So I am forced to make choices. I have food issues I never knew or thought I had. I hate to leave food on my plate, and when there is food around I must eat it whether or not I am hungry. I don't know where this behavior has come from. I guess it was my mother telling us about the starving children in
My new mini goal (after I lose 100 lbs) is to get under 200 lbs. I am so freakin' close. I want to get there before the year ends, and that is going to take some work on my part. The holidays are coming,and food will be everywhere. I know I can do it. Plus I want to wear something really hot to my hubby's Christmas party. Last year a this time I was preparing for surgery...I can't believe how fast time goes. I am attaching a picture I took of me and my 2 grandsons on Halloween yesterday. They are so cute! My husband gave me a nice compliment...he said I looked more like the baby sitter than the granny (or Nonni as the kids call me).
11/21/05
I wanted to post today because I have reached a milestone in my weightloss. I have beeen struggling with stalls in my weight loss for the past few weeks. One of the women from our January message board posted a "Kick Start" diet, and I did it for 5 days as directed, and not only did I lose 4.5 lbs, it also put me at over 100 lbs. lost since surgery. I am so happy...most of my January peers have surpassed the century mark, and I have been feeling left out and like a failure...Now I am in the club! I am also closer to my mini goal of being under 200 lbs by 1/1. It is going to be tough. I realized that I have been eating way too many carbs, and need to stick with the plan given by my nutritionist. it is funny, I had no carbs Monday thru Friday last week, and was down about 7 lbs Saturday AM. I added carbs back Saturday and Sunday, and by Sunday evening I was down 4.5 lbs. I know the scale fluctuates daily, but wow that was 2.5 lbs. Carbs are not my friend!
I went shopping this weekend to find something to wear to my hubbys Christmas party. His party is usually pretty casual, but I wanted to wear something hot since I haven't seen these people in over a year. I bought a teal wrinkled velvet like halter, and some jeans (size 16W). Now I am on a mission for some hoochie shoes to go with it. I can't believe I am in a 16 W jeans...That is 1/2 way from where I started in size 32 jeans (8 sizes). I'll post a picture after the party.
September 2005
Sep 01, 2005
September 12, 2005
My my my time flys when you are having fun. Well
I ate way too many tortilla products on vacation, but I never got sick or the "montezumas revenge" so that was a blessing. I managed to gain 3 lbs while I was gone. Yeesh, and I didn't feel like I ate that much. Lucky for me I lost the weight pretty quickly when I got home. I went right back into my routine as soon as I got home...journaling food and going to the Y. It was tough to get back into the goove, but I did it anyway. In the past (pre-surgery) I would have gone into F#*k-it mode, and gone back to my old ways. It is funny after this trip I acknowledged my weight gain, and got right back on track. Wow...another milestone. I have come just too far to quit at this point.
On another note, I got the promotion I was going for at work. I am so excited. I will be working closer to home 3 days a week. I love working in the city, but can't stand the 3 hours of commuting a day. And, I will actually be doing a job I think I will enjoy. Hopefully that will cure the boredom, and keep me from wanting to snack in the afternoons. I have gotten better with this problem, but far from perfect.
As of this evening 6:00 PM I weigh 225 lbs. That is a total of 88 lbs since surgery, and 109 lbs since I started this process. It is sometimes hard to fathom. The weightloss has definately slowed down, and I really have to monitor what I eat, but the good news is that I am still losing. Only 65 lbs to go to my goal. I can't wait. My mini goal is to get to 213 lbs. That will be 100 lbs lost since surgery. Hopefully I will make that in the next couple of weeks. I am currently wearing size 18 pants, and 14/16 tops. I finally broke down and bought new undies, cuz my giant granny panties were just too baggy, and no I did not buy butt floss! Until next time...
My my my time flys when you are having fun. Well
I ate way too many tortilla products on vacation, but I never got sick or the "montezumas revenge" so that was a blessing. I managed to gain 3 lbs while I was gone. Yeesh, and I didn't feel like I ate that much. Lucky for me I lost the weight pretty quickly when I got home. I went right back into my routine as soon as I got home...journaling food and going to the Y. It was tough to get back into the goove, but I did it anyway. In the past (pre-surgery) I would have gone into F#*k-it mode, and gone back to my old ways. It is funny after this trip I acknowledged my weight gain, and got right back on track. Wow...another milestone. I have come just too far to quit at this point.
On another note, I got the promotion I was going for at work. I am so excited. I will be working closer to home 3 days a week. I love working in the city, but can't stand the 3 hours of commuting a day. And, I will actually be doing a job I think I will enjoy. Hopefully that will cure the boredom, and keep me from wanting to snack in the afternoons. I have gotten better with this problem, but far from perfect.
As of this evening 6:00 PM I weigh 225 lbs. That is a total of 88 lbs since surgery, and 109 lbs since I started this process. It is sometimes hard to fathom. The weightloss has definately slowed down, and I really have to monitor what I eat, but the good news is that I am still losing. Only 65 lbs to go to my goal. I can't wait. My mini goal is to get to 213 lbs. That will be 100 lbs lost since surgery. Hopefully I will make that in the next couple of weeks. I am currently wearing size 18 pants, and 14/16 tops. I finally broke down and bought new undies, cuz my giant granny panties were just too baggy, and no I did not buy butt floss! Until next time...
August 2006
Aug 01, 2005
August 31, 2006
My time flies when you are living life. Things are going well, and I have been really busy...I guess too busy to update here. Healthwise I am healthy. I had a phycial with my PCP, and she was very pleased with my weight loss. All of my labs were good, and my BP & cholesterol were prefect. Also no blood sugar issues. I am very pleased in that area. I currently wear a size large top and a size 16 misses pants! Woo Hoo no more plus sizes. Oh I still miss Lanes though, but sure do love Macy's! My weight did drop to 189 lbs. Then my scale broke, and I bought a new scale, and it weighs me more than the old one. It weighed me at 198 lbs. I hate that number! It is my 4 month plateau number. I know I am doing well, but the scale does mess with your head, and I am still so obsessed. Things are moving really slow now, and I have to work hard to lose weight. I eat between 1200 and 1400 calories a day. My surgeon says I should only eat 1000 if I still want to lose. So I still struggle with my last 30 or so lbs. I am determined though. And I will get there.
I have met so many great people from this board. There is a big group of us going on the Baja cruz in March. I am so excited, and hope to be at goal by then! Here is a cute pic of me and my WLS buds, Faith, Suzanne and Desi.
My time flies when you are living life. Things are going well, and I have been really busy...I guess too busy to update here. Healthwise I am healthy. I had a phycial with my PCP, and she was very pleased with my weight loss. All of my labs were good, and my BP & cholesterol were prefect. Also no blood sugar issues. I am very pleased in that area. I currently wear a size large top and a size 16 misses pants! Woo Hoo no more plus sizes. Oh I still miss Lanes though, but sure do love Macy's! My weight did drop to 189 lbs. Then my scale broke, and I bought a new scale, and it weighs me more than the old one. It weighed me at 198 lbs. I hate that number! It is my 4 month plateau number. I know I am doing well, but the scale does mess with your head, and I am still so obsessed. Things are moving really slow now, and I have to work hard to lose weight. I eat between 1200 and 1400 calories a day. My surgeon says I should only eat 1000 if I still want to lose. So I still struggle with my last 30 or so lbs. I am determined though. And I will get there.
I have met so many great people from this board. There is a big group of us going on the Baja cruz in March. I am so excited, and hope to be at goal by then! Here is a cute pic of me and my WLS buds, Faith, Suzanne and Desi.
