I posted this on January 10th- funny thing is that it got 1355 views- not bad for a rant cracks me up today let me tell you


This thread is seriously going to piss a few people off and I will say right from the start it is not my intention to hurt anyone but maybe a dose of reality will help. But what I have to say is something that is seriously been bothering me since Thanksgiving and as much as I have tried to just let it go, I cant. This also made me think about not coming back to OH for good.

I have been reading the treads since November and there is a HUGE amount of people who are posting stating that they are eating all of these desserts, soda's, candy, cakes, pies, fudge, fast food etc. Over and over again I am seeing my friends post that they ate these things and needed to bring thm to work or throw them finally out of the house after 2 weeks so they would stop eating them so much. They grab those soda's and ice cream and go to Whataburger again.

Then come and bitch how they cant lose weight and have gained weight and blah blah whine bitch moan poor me feel sorry for me and why is this happening to me. OH MY SWEET JESUS- I want to scream. Seriously I want to reach through this computer and shake them, slap the shyt out of them and look them in the face and say WTF. You can not be that stupid to not  understand can you?

THEN I am also reading/watching as same trend was to say- ok, in January I will start again, I will get on track or do the 5DPT or back to basics etc but not this week, NOT TODAY but lets start on January 5th when we get back to normal. OMFG- this is not a DIET, this is a lifestyle. NON Negioable, cant stop one day cause you dont feel like following the rules. After a LIFETIME of obesity, not being merely fat but so severe that they CUT our stomachs and instintines- freaking SURGERY. But the mentality is hey lets eat candy and we can do weight watchers/atkins/allie and it will fix it attitude.

I can see if you are newly out and this is your first holiday and how difficult that first one is for all of us. But if you are further out then 6 months can you please for the love of God tell me why you think that eating all of that crap day after day, do you think that you will fix it in 5 days doing a pouch test??????????????Give me a freaking break cause this is not my first rodeo.

But what kind of message are we sending to the newbies and pre-ops and even the honeymooners. Guys they are watching, reading, and learning from us. So are we really telling them that to go ahead and eat this crap day after day and then do "diet" mentality to fix it is the right answer? I love to teach and this is one lesson, I refuse to be a part of. That is not my idea of a mentor- far from perfect and make mistakes but dont do it for weeks at a time.

I can already hear the words being said on the other side of the screen now: oh she thinks she is so perfect and never eats anything wrong. Nope, that job is for Jesus and I am far from him. But I will sit here and tell you that not ONCE did I buy that junk, I made SF desserts, I got sf candy in my stocking (still have tons left cause the ETOH sugars get to me) and I smiled at my co-workers and said thank you but no, I am good. I brought my own meal to the parties cause I love me more than anything. And I have days where I eat just one bite too much and throw up and learn the lesson not to eat 5 shrimps and go back to 4. I have no will power as why I couldnt lose this before surgery. But that fear of being that sick, in pain, depressed and OBESE reminds me to do what is right. My family has those foods and less since my surgerey but it is in my house- not my food and God why would I want to hurt myself but eating those things again???

Now I hear you saying oh well that bitch says that and she is at goal and in a size 0-2 what does she know? That bitch wore a size 24 and was 261 lbs, that bitch also had the surgery, that bitch got to goal at a year,but that was a YEAR AND A HALF AGO!!!!!! That bitch gets up every freaking day at 4:30AM to post and help herself and all of you because she loves you and wants to make a difference to others. That gives this bitch the right.

I get weekly emails from so many pre-ops that want this surgery guys. They are 300, 400 even 573 pounds. They are dying!!!  They are denied, rejected, scared and alone. They would do anything to have this surgery and have been turned down, insurence company excludes it or dont have enough money to have this. Can you sit there and look them in the eye while you are eating that candy bar, drinking that coke, having that cake, filling your bowl with ice cream and say- oh I had the surgery and I this is how I repay???????/

Ok, done beating a dead dog and honestly I feel better. Not that going off is a better feeling but it has been like watching my favorite friends take a gun and pulling the trigger and I cant watch anymore and not say STOP!!! Go ahead and flame me, I can take it. It hurts more to stand by and not say it. I always say my house is made out of glass as I am pretty transparent. So throw stones at my house. But I made my bed and I sleep very well and I love you just the same.

Tanya

I thought it was inportant or at least it is important to me that i explain why I have left OH. I posted a blog on Jan 10th that changed my world. Even now May 2nd I stand by what I felt and wanted to share to HELP. It was taken completely wrong and became evil and hatefully towards to me. I got called a bitch and everything- that i needed therapy and that I was holier than thou- so be it but screw you then- I was on TV, helped with a book, presented in 3 events, was nominated as one of the most influencal members on OH, wrote a daily post for 16 months and this is how I am treated- nope I now finally love myself way too much to go back to the very people that turned on me. It is funny how when someone on TMB said they had cancer they did not tear that person up near as much as they did me.  There were several things that I have "learned" since that post- you may "think" you have lots of friends- when the crap hits the fan, they will all walk away from you faster than flies sworm on poop. I now have a hand full of people that stuck by me not that agreed with me but loved me for me. I am grateful for that lesson. I have also learned that by putting the truth out there is NOT what everyone on OH wants- dont offer to help cause it will bite you in the butt bad- good thing my butt can take it lol.  I am mostly sad about how this will affect the newbies and my ability to help and support. TMB will suffer for this in the long run but not my issue anymore.  Lastly I went on TMB after a friend said that a person had posted about where was everyone and how she even missed my daily posting- then it came back as "drama" being the reason from the very people who did what I was talking about- all I can say now is take a look in the mirror- I see my flaws and inperfections as a challenge to do and be better.  No I am not holier than thou, I am honest and care so much that it actually hurts more than it helps- so with that I wish everyone my very best and all of my love and support was geniune and from my heart. Time to heal my heart somewhere else.  I am on myspace and facebook now where people appreciate me for being a f"$#up and love me for being so.

love,
Tanya aka Princess of Perkiness for the last time.
261/252/116

I am giddy to announce that my surgeon is now a distiguished author as well as the best doctor and TV star ever!!!  I know you all will think I am biased- yeppers!!!  Here is the link:

http://search.barnesandnoble.com/The-Experts-Guide-to-Weight-Loss-Surgery/Garth-Davis/e/9781594630521/?itm=1


Here is a synopis:

The book features a user-friendly breakdown of the various types of weight loss surgeries available today (gastric bypass vs. adjustable gastric banding vs. sleeve gastrectomy); a no-nonsense guide to finding the right doctor; and words of wisdom from dozens of patients who have undergone WLS. Most important, because weight loss surgery alters the digestive tract's size and structure, Dr. Davis lays out a complete diet and exercise plan to help ensure that readers' success is long term. This book should be required reading for anyone seeking a permanent obesity cure.

Big Medicine TV Show on Discovery Health, Medical Director and amazing surgeon and my friend!!! Got my copy today!!!!

Today is Christmas and I thought this would be a great day to look back and reflect of mine  since I lost all of my weight. In 2006, I was 4 months out and was in a size 14. I remember this very vividly as I got a pair of jeans and I even took a picture to prove to myself and my blog that I really hit this milestone.  When I started this journey I was wearing a tight size 22- sweats without a zipper. So to wear jeans and be that small made my Christmas the best.

Last year, it was 5-6 weeks post op my plastic surgery. That Christmas was tough as I was trying to heal, in alot of pain, malnourished and struggling with weight loss and lack of intake. We had also finished wrapping up the taping of Big Medicine and I was so scared of what everyone would think. I know that we measured me and it was so freaking amazing to wear a size 2/4 depending on the jean. After Dr. L took all 5.7lbs off, I went from a size 6 to a 2 with 3 pairs of 0!!!!!!!!!!!

This year, nothing big happened except I am healthy, surgery free and blessed with my family and friends.  I have done 3 public presentations on WLS and honeymoon phase. I hit my 1 year mark of doing the daily "Honeymoon Phase Over- Now What" tread. My episode of Big Medicine played in February and is repeated every few months (including last week and a couple co-workers came up and said OMG you were on TV lol).  I have switched jobs to become a Transplant Program Director- designing a whole new entity for transplants and lots for me to learn and accomplish. Working on my Bariatric Life Coach and got approved to become an OH support group leader. Plus, I got some stuff coming soon but cant give that yet.

Weight and size wise for this Christmas- I am thrilled to say I am still exactly the same as last year. I wear 2/4's and have my favorite 0's. I am a little underweight but I am fine with that. This is a big thing for me as I feel strongly that PS doesn't do everything or keep you that way- I have maintained on my own and I am DAMN PROUD!!!! Got 6 Victoria Secret XS sweaters  we ordered straight on-line and everyone of them fit me. To be in the same size and able to buy anything you want so rocks. I love getting clothes now- so different than when I was obese.

Taking a break from my tread and recharging during the holiday's and that is healthy for me. OK, got to snuggle with the family and watch a movie TOGETHER. Life is good.

Tanya

I am not sure why but I am seriously struggling with the blues. It might be the lack of sunshine and constant cold. Cant do cold now that I have lost all of this weight. Used to laugh and roll my eyes when the skinny girls would complain of being cold and I was sweating all of the time. Now I am one of the skinny girls complaining lol. Back to the mood- I was like this last year but was dealing with healing from my PS. Not sure if this is related to the weight loss or seasonal depression. Hate feeling like this, just want to stay home and in pj's and do nothing. But atlast I need to work today and tomorrow and then off til next week and do it all over again. Well it is freezing outside and I need to get my butt in gear. Have a safe one and God bless to all.  

~T

Here is my question for today and it shocked me that I have changed what I see now in myself and thought this has to go on my profile.

Post Date: 12/15/08 3:08 am

Was getting ready for Jim’s Christmas party on Friday and started staring at the woman in the mirror. We talked about this a while ago but it is funny how over time, YOUR answers and attitudes can change. Mine has big time. So...

What do YOU see in the mirror now staring back at YOU (not physical)?

You know for me when I asked this question before 6 months ago I had a totally different answer. Not sure when it changed as I used to say that I don’t recognize the woman in the mirror.  Didn’t know who she was and defiantly did not see the body as others had. This time I did see "Tanya".  I see the body that others see for the most part lol. I do not see the fat me but I feel her sometimes. My eyes are brighter and I know I smile more.

The one thing that I am seeing more and more is my mother. We have some sort of gene that we pass on that has the first born daughter looks like her mother (just look at me and Manda- hello duh) I see her more and I don’t like it cause of my personal feelings towards her but also that it means I am getting older. I see some wisdom now and the body looks damn good for a 40 year old. Plus I see the work that I have done to maintain and keep it strong and healthy.  Now I more look at the clothes how the look and colors then the fat, rolls and insecurity I had. 

Funny how the same mirror can see so much and change according to the person in front of it.

 

 

 

 

Tanya DeLaet, Breakout Speaker & WLS Post-op

When the WOWs wind down: Reigniting your Motivation after WLS!

What happens a few years after weight loss surgery, and how you choose to deal with it, is imperative to your long term success. Once weight loss has been achieved, how do you deal with life after the honeymoon? You may still struggle with the same emotional issues you grappled with before weight loss surgery. We'll discuss this and more candidly and learn how to handle the issues without losing sight of your long-term goals. Come and be prepared to be honest, laugh and learn something new.

After a lifetime of obesity and depression, longtime ICU Registered Nurse Tanya DeLaet said "enough!"and underwent RNY in August 2006. Since then, she has lost 157 pounds and started the journey of a lifetime – some of it filmed and premiered on The Learning Channel's Big Medicine: Season 2- Children and Obesity. Tanya has been successful at reaching and striving to maintain her weight and personal goals, and has found sharing her experience with others a great motivator to both herself and her community.


This was my bio on the Houston 2008 National Event where my first step to my dream of presenting and living this life helping others finally happend to me this weekend.  It was one of the greatest experiences of my life so far and worth all of the pain and trouble it took to get there. Nothing like doing this in front of all of your friends but actually it was the best cause they give the best advice and love me no matter what.  The way I ended it was a huge hit and I cant wait to do this over and over again.  There is a huge need for support for those post op further out.  They talk about what to do to lose the weight and the first year but nothing after that and I want to do it.

I told you that I have been getting so many books lately for my own recovery and journey process. Lately I have been reading this great book on Emotional Eatting. The part that is blowing me away is on the actual emotions and your reactions to them is a huge signal and warning sign. So this should be interesting....

1. How do YOU handle CONFRONTATION?
2. How do YOU handle ANGER?
3. How do YOU handle STRESS?
4. How do YOU handle FEELING BLUE/DEPRESSION?
5. How do YOU handle HAPPINESS/JOY?

1. I hate confrontation so badly- I hate how it makes me feel and how to fix it, I tend to snack trying to fill up the energy to do it maybe

2. Anger sucks for me as if it is bad enough I cry and I hate that, with eating I dont eat but I know I smoke more.

3. Stress can be a huge issues for any of us right now with so much going on and the financial crisis. I will either snack on crunchy but mainly I totally skip eating, I forget totally- for days in fact. I also drink more wine with my dinner, small glass at that but I still do it.

4. I know for this one I crave carbs before my surgery and after. I read that you get a high from it like crack- but you crash harder then if you eat protein. But I want bread, sweets and pasta's and lots of them. I used to drink mountain dew alot here before my surgery.

5. When I am happy, I am on track, lots of great choices as I want to stay in that frame of mind so badly. I do little snacking and eat 3 meals with 2 snacks and protein shakes-

After yesterday, I am going to work on vitamin and information on them.  I am NOT an expect by any means and alot of my information comes straight from my nutritionist. I need to get some info and meet with her tomorrow so I will start posting them on monday. See you all tomorrow....

Tanya
NO PAIN=REGAIN

On September 12th Hurricane IKE came through Houston and changed my world.  Everyone kept saying that I am too far north and nothing would happen.  Wrong- without power for 16 days in a row, lack of food, ice and water- roof damage, fence damage to our house and BF house has major roof damage, fence down, ruined carpets, drywall damage- In order to handle the stress I went to DFW and the best people in the world put together last minute a truck and uhaul FULL of food, water, supplies and clothes for so many people.  TMB is the best ever and I can never thank enought people.  Then the following week, went back and they did it again. Amazing blessing to us and to so many. I am always blown away and humbled by OH and TMB- Texas you rock taking care of our own.  Lost 8lbs so I need to get back on track as I am losing too much and that freaks everyone out.  Going to FL on Monday for work for a week and then on Monday Oct 13th Methodist Weight Loss Management is doing my 2 year check up- get to see RN, NUT and shrink again just like when I was trying to get approved.  Maybe they wont approve me now ROFL.  Take care of you and all those you matter to.

love always,
Tanya aka Princess of Perkiness

 Thank you for those who post and answer as I could not do this alone and I am grateful for your help and honesty- good to know I am not alone :)

I have been reading a book called the body betrayed on eating disorders and I found an interesting thought that hit me hard. It spoke about the relation of past abuse and continuing the abuse to ourselves.  You see if abuse and negativity is all you have learned and heard- it percepticates into adult hood and it comes straight from the victim herself more than her abusers. That coorlates with comfort of knowing that even negative comments is better than being ignored. So here is my question today...

What NEGATIVE comments do YOU say to YOURSELF? Do YOU find that these are harder than what others do or would say to YOU?

OMG I so do this to myself every single day. I am my own worst enemy. I see myself in the mirror and think and say horrible things such as look how old I look, my butt is flat, my thighs have filled out since I started working out so much- I still see and tell myself that I am fat. With work, I joke that maybe today they will discover that I dont know what I am doing. Tell my head that I can never get insurance stuff. With my family I say Jim can find better than me and my kids suffer cause I so dont know how to be the best Mom. I would never let another speak to me the way that I do to myself.  Had no idea that I was punishing myself cause that is what i grew to know is normal.  Normal is so over rated. I suck in this guys and I am not sure if I can make the "voice" go away but going to try to catch it and make it back to a positive.


Today I am asking for a solution to changing those negative thoughts- place a rubber band on your wrist today and pop it when you say something mean or harsh to YOURSELF then turn it around and say something POSITIVE- this reminds you that this is NO LONGER ALLOWED!!!