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I haven't posted in a while. I was waiting for me 2 year anniversary but I decided to share something! After seperating from my partner and moving back to SC, I gained a little weight, got depressed, starting becoming extremely obsessed with weighing myself, food and clothes sizes. I was having dreams that I was waking up 450 again.
At a routine dr. visit to my pcp, I mentioned it to my dr. and she recommened that I see a therapist that specializes in eating disorders. I started going about 3 weeks ago and it has helped me a lot. I'm back to my lowest weight of 182 and she's helping me through my obsessive food thinking. I never knew how much of a obsession I had with food til after surgery.  Other than that, I'm doing good.  I promise to have pictures and and update next month for my 2 year anniversary!

Thank the Lord, I made it to ONDERLAND!!! I cant believe my weight starts with a 1. Monday morning I got on the scale and it said, 199 lbs. I actually stepped on the scale about 4 times to make sure it was correct. It was!! When I was 450 lbs, I always said, "It would be nice if I can just make it under 200 lbs." Sometimes I felt like it was a unrealistic goal but I made it real! I  worked my butt off for this. I have lost 189 lbs. in a year! My WLS goal is to loose 213 lbs. so I only have 24 lbs. to go to get to 175 lbs.  It's a great feeling to be here in onderland!! I never wanna leave!

A few ladies on the January board did the plateau buster diet and did really good on it! Since I going back and forth between 209 and 212, I decided to give it a try. Last Monday I started the diet at 212 lbs. and this morning I'm 201 lbs. At first I thought there is no way I can eat just protein for 10 days but it really wasn't that bad. All that protein kept me full!  Protein first is the important thing with wls but I started to slack on that rule after I indulged in a lot of carbs during Christmas.  This diet help me get back on track! I'm happy I took on the challenge.  My fingers and toes are crossed that I get to "onderland" really soon.

So the past few months I've been having a weird feeling in my upper right stomach. Not really a pain but more like some pressure. I tried to ignore it but it wasn't going away so I had a CT scan done. It took forever for me to get my results back but I got them back the other day. My doc said there are 2 small hernia's ( 2.5 centi. each) AND a cyst on my right overy. This scared me so bad. All I could do was cry as I listened to my doc be so calm about it. She said it's nothing to stress about but I'm a big DRAMA QUEEN so I had to play my part. I'm better now. I'm gonna talk to my gyn. about the cyst and my 1 year appointment with my surgeon is coming up so I'll talk to him about the hernias. I know hernias are common after wls so I was so suprised at that. I think the cyst freaked me out more.  All I can do is hope and pray that the best comes from this. I've come so far in this journey. I'm not gonna let this get me down.

Have you ever danced in the mirror? For the first time today, I danced in the mirror. I had a good reason to! You wanna know why don't you?? Ok, I'll tell you.... Last month I bought a pair of size 18 jeans from the regular department. They were on the clearance rack at Target for $5.00 so I couldn't resist that sale. I've been wearing size 18 W from the plus size but the regular 18's were really tight. So today I decided to try them on and they fit. I could even sit down and breath! LOL 
When I tried them on, I felt good! I couldn't believe I was wearing size 18 jeans. I couldn't do anything but dance. I usually cry but today I danced!  I got my groove on in my new $5.00 jeans and it was one incredible feeling! As I danced, my bat wings jiggled, my saggy boobies were all over the place and my flabby belly was bouncing but I didn't even care! What really mattered the most was that I was looking HOT in them jeans! 

November 13th was my 10 month surgiversary and my birthday. I'm down 156 lbs. since surgery and have lost 218 lbs. total. That is the best birthday present that I have given myself. I cant believe how fast time has flown by. I remember marking the calender with big black X's to count down my days til surgery. I was a little nervous but more excited about my new life. I have zero regrets and I'm totally proud of myself for making such a smart decision to have this surgery. I'm sitting here typing with tears in my eyes because I just looked over at my BMI. It starts with a 3!  When I was pre op, I had several surgeons turn me  down because my BMI was over 70. I seriously never paid attention to how low it was til JUST now and I'm in total shock. Anyway, Life is great and I feel great. My biggest accomplishment has been walking. I can walk miles and not feel like I'm going to need to call 911 because I cant breath.
Happy Birthday and Happy Surgiversary to me!!!!