Phenomenal Woman
Livin' my destiny!!!!!!!!
Jul 08, 2007
Hello everyone ~ thanks for stopping by to check on me!!! I am doing well today ~ a little nervous
cause I start my new job tomorrow. Well actually tomorrow is just orientation but it still means I have a job 
!!!!!!!! I am so excited. Halalooya
!!!!!!! Since my last post I have taken steps to improve my eating habits. I am drinking more fluids (at least 100oz), I am committing myself to more consistant exercise at least 3 days a week. I am trying to work in more veggies and less foods w/ empty calories. My cousin and I are going to join Weight Watchers ~ for the support and guidance (accountability too). I need to be among people who know the real struggle of losing weight and keeping it off. I need to be consistant in my food choices. Going to work will help out a lot too. Me not sitting around the house w/ nothing to do will help out DRASTICALLY. So I feel more progress in my immediate future
. My immediate goal will be to lose another 30 pounds (so I can get my gold card), but I want to ultimately lose at least (total)another 70 pounds. It may take some time but that is where I want to end my WL journey ~ abt 140lbs lighter. So we will see. Again I say WLS does not fix er'thing and er'body that is fix is not fixed the same. My plan is not like your plan - now that I have a plan, I just need to follow it!!!!!! Help me Jesus
Take care ya'll and thanks for stopping by. Until the next time
I'm Outta Here!!!
cause I start my new job tomorrow. Well actually tomorrow is just orientation but it still means I have a job !!!!!!!! I am so excited. Halalooya!!!!!!! Since my last post I have taken steps to improve my eating habits. I am drinking more fluids (at least 100oz), I am committing myself to more consistant exercise at least 3 days a week. I am trying to work in more veggies and less foods w/ empty calories. My cousin and I are going to join Weight Watchers ~ for the support and guidance (accountability too). I need to be among people who know the real struggle of losing weight and keeping it off. I need to be consistant in my food choices. Going to work will help out a lot too. Me not sitting around the house w/ nothing to do will help out DRASTICALLY. So I feel more progress in my immediate future. My immediate goal will be to lose another 30 pounds (so I can get my gold card), but I want to ultimately lose at least (total)another 70 pounds. It may take some time but that is where I want to end my WL journey ~ abt 140lbs lighter. So we will see. Again I say WLS does not fix er'thing and er'body that is fix is not fixed the same. My plan is not like your plan - now that I have a plan, I just need to follow it!!!!!! Help me JesusTake care ya'll and thanks for stopping by. Until the next time
I'm Outta Here!!!
WLS and Life Update . . . What I've learned
Jun 22, 2007
Ok, 1st things 1st. I have missed this site. I realized that I haven't used it as the resource that it could have been to me. I have had a lot of emotional ups and downs - and just didn't know how to deal with them. So I just relied on God to see me through and today I was reminded that I was never really alone - I just didn't use what I had. For that I am sorry. But I have gotten through some things and I wanted to share what I have learned on my journey.
But 1st a life update. I AM GOING BACK TO WORK!!!!!!!!!!! I have been unemployed since May of 2005 (went to school), completed school December of 2006 ( 1 semester early I might add) and I passed my medical coding certification test (CCS-P) this past May - woohoo. Well things have been real shacky financially for about 18 months and even worse these last 6 months but God has gotten me and my family through it. So the me going back to work has been a real desire for me - but God showed me that he would provide all of my needs - he would bring me through the darkness (and boy did it get dark some days) and through the morning light and guess what ya'll - IT'S MORNING TIME!!!!!!.
Well anyway, I will be going back to work on July 9, 2007 and I will be a Medical Coding Specialist. My struggle has been that people felt that I should take any job until something else comes through - well I believed God saw me through school and certification in order for me to get the job I went to school for . . . . I did not want an Ishmael - I wanted the real PROMISE of God. Well I held out even when people said I was lazy and probably did not want to work anyway and now I can say that I am going to work for what God promised me!!!!!!
Ok, now . . . weight loss . . . . I have lost about 75lbs not where I want to be but where I am. But I have learned, where I am to be ok. I have learned that it is ok that I can be ok without food. Food is not my friend or companion - food is a necessary means of nutrition and that is it. I have learned that it is okay that I can go all day and only eat 1 "good "filling (combined) meal. My WLS struggle has been that I have been trying to still eat and be friends w/ my food. There have also been some issues about the skinny or smaller person that I am becoming. I still see "Big Mama" in the mirror. I only have 1 very small chin but in the mirror it still (in my mind) blocks my neck). My belly is getting smaller but it is all I see in the mirror when I am naked (UGH!!)
The last 6 mos of this journey - I have been getting to know the new me - who seems to change with every pound I lose. WLS does not change everything - it doesn't solve every problem but it sure does change a lot.. WLS has taught me to embrace change and not to hold on to the past so hard - let old habits die and learn to live!!!!!! I've come a lllllooooonnnngggg way BABE!!!!
See You Again soon
Paige
But 1st a life update. I AM GOING BACK TO WORK!!!!!!!!!!! I have been unemployed since May of 2005 (went to school), completed school December of 2006 ( 1 semester early I might add) and I passed my medical coding certification test (CCS-P) this past May - woohoo. Well things have been real shacky financially for about 18 months and even worse these last 6 months but God has gotten me and my family through it. So the me going back to work has been a real desire for me - but God showed me that he would provide all of my needs - he would bring me through the darkness (and boy did it get dark some days) and through the morning light and guess what ya'll - IT'S MORNING TIME!!!!!!
. Well anyway, I will be going back to work on July 9, 2007 and I will be a Medical Coding Specialist. My struggle has been that people felt that I should take any job until something else comes through - well I believed God saw me through school and certification in order for me to get the job I went to school for . . . . I did not want an Ishmael - I wanted the real PROMISE of God. Well I held out even when people said I was lazy and probably did not want to work anyway and now I can say that I am going to work for what God promised me!!!!!!
Ok, now . . . weight loss . . . . I have lost about 75lbs not where I want to be but where I am. But I have learned, where I am to be ok. I have learned that it is ok that I can be ok without food. Food is not my friend or companion - food is a necessary means of nutrition and that is it. I have learned that it is okay that I can go all day and only eat 1 "good "filling (combined) meal. My WLS struggle has been that I have been trying to still eat and be friends w/ my food. There have also been some issues about the skinny or smaller person that I am becoming. I still see "Big Mama" in the mirror. I only have 1 very small chin but in the mirror it still (in my mind) blocks my neck). My belly is getting smaller but it is all I see in the mirror when I am naked (UGH!!)
The last 6 mos of this journey - I have been getting to know the new me - who seems to change with every pound I lose. WLS does not change everything - it doesn't solve every problem but it sure does change a lot.. WLS has taught me to embrace change and not to hold on to the past so hard - let old habits die and learn to live!!!!!! I've come a lllllooooonnnngggg way BABE!!!!
See You Again soon
Paige
Just Checking In
Jun 09, 2007
Hello everyone - I hope you are doing well. Did you know that I never brought a scale? Well excuse me I brought one (real cheap) pre-op and dawg if I didn't break the darn thing. LOL Anyway it has been a year and some days and I am still losing - just slow . . . I have lost almost 100lbs and I am proud of that . . . (about 78lbs) doesn't sound like much to some - I know but it is better than gaining 78lbs . . . . so if you are losing slow just be greatful for losing - regardless of the rate.
I passed my Certified Coding Specialist test WOOHOO (5/17/07) - now I just have to get a job.
My annual post op visit is next week oh I almost forgot - my A1C was 6.1 last time 4.0 to 5.9 you are no longer considered diabetic so that is good.
Take care for now!!
Renewed Mind
Feb 02, 2007
I have been having this battle about what God said to me a year and a half ago. He told me that all that I wanted according to His will was going to manifest in 2007 - 2006 was my prep year and I would be ready for His blessings. Well how many of you all know that as 2007 got closer and closer things got rougher? Well they did . . I was in school for 3 semesters (3.7 GPA) and I finished in December. I hoped and prayed that I would be able to go right back into the workforce . . . but it hasn't happened 7 wks out and no job . . . but with the help from family, and friends on and off of the board (thanks BAF). My faith and mind has been renewed . . . I have decided to register w/ a couple of temp agencies (see who works the best) and take something temporarily until the JOB that God has for me manifests!!!!!!!!! I am walking in victory - Now don't get me wrong I have been applying but I now know that the job is not yet ready for me or I for it and until everything is in place I will wait and stand on God's word. . . . AMEN!
Quick Update
Jan 10, 2007
Happy New Year!!!!!!
Well I weighed today . . . . ya'll know that I hate the scale. . . . anyway . . . . I weighed and I have lost another 5lbs. I now weigh 255 since last month. Woohoo!!!! To some that may sound small but for me that is good because I have not been working out. I haven't worked out since November but I have gone back to the basics (eating wise). I drink 2 protein shakes (62 oz of protein and 16 oz of fluid), 32 oz of green tea, 24 oz of some type of sugar free fluid and a solid protein filled meal. I snack on nuts, rasins and occasionally I slip up a bit but I am redeemed. I also snack on a yogurt smoothie too (when I buy them - the are a little costly).
Anyway, I did the bmi thing and I found out that I am 16 lbs away from being obese. When I started on this journey I was super obese (322lbs) and now I am extremely obese. . . 16lbs and I will be obese. If I start working out again, I could be there in 2 months or less. So I guess that is my next goal . . . . to be obese (however long it takes - new mind set).
Well take care everyone and thanks for stopping by to check on me.
Give God Glory Always!!!!!!
Small Baby Steps
Dec 27, 2006
December 27, 2006
I hope everyone had a great holiday. . . I sure did! God is awesome and I was honored to celebrate the birth of his son.
Well today I weighed (ya'll know I hate the scale) and I weighed . . . . 258 lbs. So I guess that is good. 2lbs lost since the 14th . . . I am getting in all of my fluids (<64oz) and protein (<61gm). My surgeon still only recommends 50 - 60 grams of protein (but I get more than that b/c my bloodwoork showed a protein deficiency). I am also drinking at least 32oz of green tea to boost my metabolism some. I did find out today that my potassium was low - I will have to look up what that could be indicating and how to correct it.
Well that is all for now . . . 57 lbs to lose to reach my 1st (major) weight loss goal.
Take care everyone and have a safe and Happy New Year!
I hope everyone had a great holiday. . . I sure did! God is awesome and I was honored to celebrate the birth of his son.
Well today I weighed (ya'll know I hate the scale) and I weighed . . . . 258 lbs. So I guess that is good. 2lbs lost since the 14th . . . I am getting in all of my fluids (<64oz) and protein (<61gm). My surgeon still only recommends 50 - 60 grams of protein (but I get more than that b/c my bloodwoork showed a protein deficiency). I am also drinking at least 32oz of green tea to boost my metabolism some. I did find out today that my potassium was low - I will have to look up what that could be indicating and how to correct it.
Well that is all for now . . . 57 lbs to lose to reach my 1st (major) weight loss goal.
Take care everyone and have a safe and Happy New Year!
Ok here is the deal . . . . Update
Dec 20, 2006
December 21,2006
Well, I have been on a discouraging, and emotional ride these last few months. I have not been losing like "I" expected. I am losing but a a very slow rate . . . no matter what I have been doing. Ok . . . let me explain . . did I expect the weight to fall off . . . . yes but I did my work. I was working out and I was eating well but the weight was not coming off like I expected. I expected the weight to fall come off but not without work . . . I was willing to work and I expected more results . . if that makes sense.
Ok, let's recap my last few weigh ins.
8/14/06 278
9/18/06 257 - this is where everything went wrong. It is now suspected that I was not weighed correctly on this day and my expectations from there soared and my discouragement has been based on this weigh in. Anyway this error was not caught until November . . .
10/16/06 265 I thought I was gaining . . told by others as well as my dr that there is really no way I could gain this early in my post op period - of course I did not believe them. . .
11/29/06 263
12/13/06 260
Well after my October weigh in I bumped up my walking and ate better so on and so forth w/ no results . . . So I gave up in November. My Surgeon informed me that although I was losing slowly it was ok cause I was losing . . . . just slow . . . he was unable to pinpoint why but I am losing slow . . he also stated that our body is on a 2 month lag . . . so what I did 2 months ago is now affecting my body . . . SO I HAVE TO BE CONSISTANT with whatever I am doing. My biggest concern is that I am showing all of the classic signs of rapid weight loss w/out the RAPID WEIGHT LOSS !!!! So I just have to be patient . . . and let it happen.
I have an overall goal now - from my surgeon. . . . .to lose 70% of my excess weight- now according to my calculations my excess weight is 172.5 lbs (based on a healthy bmi weight of 149.5 lbs) and 70% of that is 120.75 lbs so my surgeon would be happy if I lost down to 201.25 lbs. So 1st and foremost weight goal will be 201.25 lbs. Of course I would like to weigh less than that but I will be ok with weighing 201 lbs. My surgeon reassured by saying many WLS patients continue to lose after the 1st year. So I can still meet my goal of weighing 160lbs. So I feel better now because I only have 62 lbs to reach my surgeons goal!!!!! I am half way there.
So I have a renewed mind and spirit . . . . It took a while to get there (my dr visit was 12/13/06) but my faith has been restored.
Have a merry Christmas everyone and and Happy New Year. . . Blessings are on the way . . . look for opportunities to bless others and to be blessed by others too. All seeds sown in "good ground" will bring about a harvest.
Well, I have been on a discouraging, and emotional ride these last few months. I have not been losing like "I" expected. I am losing but a a very slow rate . . . no matter what I have been doing. Ok . . . let me explain . . did I expect the weight to fall off . . . . yes but I did my work. I was working out and I was eating well but the weight was not coming off like I expected. I expected the weight to fall come off but not without work . . . I was willing to work and I expected more results . . if that makes sense.
Ok, let's recap my last few weigh ins.
8/14/06 278
9/18/06 257 - this is where everything went wrong. It is now suspected that I was not weighed correctly on this day and my expectations from there soared and my discouragement has been based on this weigh in. Anyway this error was not caught until November . . .
10/16/06 265 I thought I was gaining . . told by others as well as my dr that there is really no way I could gain this early in my post op period - of course I did not believe them. . .
11/29/06 263
12/13/06 260
Well after my October weigh in I bumped up my walking and ate better so on and so forth w/ no results . . . So I gave up in November. My Surgeon informed me that although I was losing slowly it was ok cause I was losing . . . . just slow . . . he was unable to pinpoint why but I am losing slow . . he also stated that our body is on a 2 month lag . . . so what I did 2 months ago is now affecting my body . . . SO I HAVE TO BE CONSISTANT with whatever I am doing. My biggest concern is that I am showing all of the classic signs of rapid weight loss w/out the RAPID WEIGHT LOSS !!!! So I just have to be patient . . . and let it happen.
I have an overall goal now - from my surgeon. . . . .to lose 70% of my excess weight- now according to my calculations my excess weight is 172.5 lbs (based on a healthy bmi weight of 149.5 lbs) and 70% of that is 120.75 lbs so my surgeon would be happy if I lost down to 201.25 lbs. So 1st and foremost weight goal will be 201.25 lbs. Of course I would like to weigh less than that but I will be ok with weighing 201 lbs. My surgeon reassured by saying many WLS patients continue to lose after the 1st year. So I can still meet my goal of weighing 160lbs. So I feel better now because I only have 62 lbs to reach my surgeons goal!!!!! I am half way there.
So I have a renewed mind and spirit . . . . It took a while to get there (my dr visit was 12/13/06) but my faith has been restored.
Have a merry Christmas everyone and and Happy New Year. . . Blessings are on the way . . . look for opportunities to bless others and to be blessed by others too. All seeds sown in "good ground" will bring about a harvest.
Confirmation
Dec 08, 2006
For the remaining weeks of this year (2006), all your agonies will be diverted and victory and prosperity will be incoming in abundance. Today God has confirmed the end of your sufferings sorrows and pains because HE that sits on the throne has remembered you. He has taken away the hardships and given you JOY. He will never let you down.
Appointment with my PCP
Nov 15, 2006
Well, as I dreaded . . . I weigh 264lbs. I talked to my PCP about this little to know weight loss and we discussed some things. My labs are ok, there are some flags that we are checking into like . . my bad cholesterol level is higher now than it was prior to surgery (HUH?) That is not good, and there are some other issues that we discussed like my not having any support . . not from family but from my doctor. Oh my A1C was 6.4 and to be no longer considered a diabetic it needs to be below 5.8 . . . So that was good . . . When I was first diagnosed My A1C was a 10 or 11 so I am doing well in that area. Thank You Jesus.
I need a network . . . a larger program . . there are not very many resources in my area so we are going to work on that. . . I took some additional blood tests today . . so we will see the results of those in a couple of days . . . .But I know I am doing what I am supposed to do . . but the weight is not coming off. So we have to find out why. I told her that I canceled my appointment with my surgeon because I wasn't pleased with my progress . . . . so maybe she can help me . .
I am praying that with God, she and I can do something so I can be rid of this WEIGHT. I told her about my weigh in in September and she said that it had to have been wrong (257) because there is no way I could have gained that much weight back with the amount of food that I am able to eat and absorb.
Overall my lab work was ok. . . I brought up my cholestorol levels - she didn't compare them to the previous tests. . . According to her . . . cholesterol elevations comes from: eating red meats, fried foods, egg yolks and drinking a lot of milk (or diary) I can't do any of that. Beef is too tough . . . I would love to eat a steak!! I don't eat a lot of fried foods (my opinion - but I will make a note of it) I CAN'T EAT EGGS (since surgery). Now I am consuming more diary (post - op) but I doubt it is enough to elevate my cholesterol !!!! But like I said I had some more blood test done today and I will call for the results next week. I actually hope it shows something so I can go on with my journey.
Well I am going to go now . . . take care and remember God loves you (even when it seems like He is not near) and so do I!! I will have a better report when I post next time!!!! I will reach my goal by December 18, 2006!!!
I need a network . . . a larger program . . there are not very many resources in my area so we are going to work on that. . . I took some additional blood tests today . . so we will see the results of those in a couple of days . . . .But I know I am doing what I am supposed to do . . but the weight is not coming off. So we have to find out why. I told her that I canceled my appointment with my surgeon because I wasn't pleased with my progress . . . . so maybe she can help me . .
I am praying that with God, she and I can do something so I can be rid of this WEIGHT. I told her about my weigh in in September and she said that it had to have been wrong (257) because there is no way I could have gained that much weight back with the amount of food that I am able to eat and absorb.
Overall my lab work was ok. . . I brought up my cholestorol levels - she didn't compare them to the previous tests. . . According to her . . . cholesterol elevations comes from: eating red meats, fried foods, egg yolks and drinking a lot of milk (or diary) I can't do any of that. Beef is too tough . . . I would love to eat a steak!! I don't eat a lot of fried foods (my opinion - but I will make a note of it) I CAN'T EAT EGGS (since surgery). Now I am consuming more diary (post - op) but I doubt it is enough to elevate my cholesterol !!!! But like I said I had some more blood test done today and I will call for the results next week. I actually hope it shows something so I can go on with my journey.
Well I am going to go now . . . take care and remember God loves you (even when it seems like He is not near) and so do I!! I will have a better report when I post next time!!!! I will reach my goal by December 18, 2006!!!
DREADING tomorrow
Nov 14, 2006
Well let's see . . I just posted a long long post (did not save)about the last 16 days since I last weighed . . . I was 10 lbs heavier . . . anyway since then I have been working out - like I should and I have been eating better. I have been eating better protein . . . less carbs . . . well except on bad days like today . . . but there have been very few bad days.
My support system has failed but I will continue push myself because this is my WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY so I have to do it alone.
I walk 3 miles - outside in about 1 hour (2 days a week)! I do strength training 2 other days. I even have a if I don't plan - where in if I don't do my shceduled workout - I at least work on my abs. So I get something done at least for that day. I think I am going to add that plan for bad eating days as well (Like today).
I weigh tomorrow and I am dreading it. . . I know I have lost but it is just the principle of the whole weighing thing. I have never enjoyed getting weighed and that has not changed. So tomorrow I will find out how much more I have to lose in order to reach my goal by 12/18/2006. My goal is to weigh 222lbs by then. That is also my last day of classes, at least until I start my next degree.
Well I have a lot to look forward to next month, finishing school, reaching my weight loss goal, and returning to work (hopefully).
I WILL REACH MY WEIGHT LOSS GOAL - LOSING 100LBS BY 12/18/2006!! I WILL, I WILL, I WILL, I WILL!!!
My support system has failed but I will continue push myself because this is my WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY so I have to do it alone.
I walk 3 miles - outside in about 1 hour (2 days a week)! I do strength training 2 other days. I even have a if I don't plan - where in if I don't do my shceduled workout - I at least work on my abs. So I get something done at least for that day. I think I am going to add that plan for bad eating days as well (Like today).
I weigh tomorrow and I am dreading it. . . I know I have lost but it is just the principle of the whole weighing thing. I have never enjoyed getting weighed and that has not changed. So tomorrow I will find out how much more I have to lose in order to reach my goal by 12/18/2006. My goal is to weigh 222lbs by then. That is also my last day of classes, at least until I start my next degree.
Well I have a lot to look forward to next month, finishing school, reaching my weight loss goal, and returning to work (hopefully).
I WILL REACH MY WEIGHT LOSS GOAL - LOSING 100LBS BY 12/18/2006!! I WILL, I WILL, I WILL, I WILL!!!
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Eastern, NC
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Surgery
05/15/2006
Surgery Date
Oct 13, 2005
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