13 hour countdown

Jan 31, 2017

 Tomorrow morning is it.  I'll be waking up 12 hrs from now to hop in the shower and head to the hospital, where I'm expected at 6:20am for an 8:30am surgery.  Band-to-Bypass, B2B.

My anxiety is HIGH right now -- a big piece of it is worry that when he gets in there and looks at my band he'll decide to not do the bypass.  The first thing he'll do is an endoscopy to determine the state of my stomach.  I might only come out tomorrow with no band and no bypass.

If it succeeds, then honestly my biggest fear is success, not failure.  That I'll lose all the weight and be able to buy cute clothes but still feel ugly.  Or that I'll lose the weight and get to do the things I am looking forward to and then gain all the weight back when the brain weasels wake up and start demanding ice cream and other slider foods.  I kind of hope I dump with sugar, so I stay away from it.  Or that my tastes permanently change.  (yeah, I'm dreaming here)

My first 5k after surgery is April 9th.  I will likely walk it, like I have been.
I'll be in Hawaii near the end of April for our 15th anniversary.  I plan to snorkel and walk on the beach at minimum, but if my energy allows it I want to go ziplining and kayaking

My 2nd 5k after surgery is May 14th.  I plan to do a combination walk/jog for that one -- a Color Run with a group.
In June I'll be group hiking.
In Sept I've registerd for a half marathon.  I'd like to be able to walk/jog it, no real intention of running the whole thing.  But that's my big physical challenge I have set for myself.  

Today I set up 2 weekend camping trips for August for my family.  One is tent camping, another in a rustic cabin (no electricity).  Both should be fun and I sure hope I have energy to fully enjoy them!

I'm setting all these things up in advance so I always have something I'm working toward this year.  Diet is the most important when losing weight, but I feel best when I'm exercising too, and I know it will help with the weight loss and keeping me away from junk food.  

So here's to tomorrow -- the first day of my life as a bypasser.

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