Hi K,
I heard and read about what is going on with you. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, but you have to try and keep ya head up. I will keep you in my prayers, but I want you to talk to your Dr and maybe also a therapist. Your doing great in your weight loss, but you have to get more protein and calories in. I wish the best for you, and I feel the same way about gaining the weight back, but we have to work hard at that and by not eating your only messing your health up, please seek help and try and take better care of yourself, it will be fine you will see, just have faith and think positive about this. All of us on OH are here for you and my family here in NY are here as well for you.