July 19!!.... tommorro is my big day!! I have had tons of second thoughts!! I have been looking to friends and people from this site for support, and it has been helpful.. I am all ready, a few weeks ago I had all my "affairs in order" which made me feel better, I am sure I will be OK... but felt it would be irresponsible of me not to have everything all set (should have had it done before now anyway!) . I have spent this week focusing on what I need for me and the procedure... shopping, packing and preparing. I have to say the time has FLOWN by!! Which is good, hopefully the next couple of weeks will fly by as well and all the immediate post-op stuff will be a distant memory! I am nervous about the surgery itself, but also about the after part... I wonder how I will feel, will I still want to eat, will I feel trapped, can't eat but still want to ect.. I have had many people explain the feelings to me, but I can not fathom it... All I need to remember is why I am doing this, for my health and for my family... I want to feel better and be around for a long time! Looking at all of the before/after pics has really helped to remind me, and when I see all of the smiling faces, I think each of these people has been through this and made it.. successfully, I can too! Thanks so much to all of you, and am thinking and praying for all of "us" as a collective group as I embark on this journey.... Jen