The Beginning

Jan 24, 2011

I am on my way to having the gastric sleeve. I am presently 120 pounds overweight and have a BMI of about 40. I have a bad back (degenerative disk disease), a bad knee (caused by a knee surgery gone seriously bad), and a cardiac condition. With all three conditions I have been told to lose weight and get in shape. For over 13 years I have struggled with my weight. I only have 2 more months of the 6 month waiting period required by insurance for me to be able to have the surgery. I continue to struggle with my diet. I desire to follow the diet set before me but I continue to sabotage myself. I am addicted to bread and sweets. I have not lost any weight but I have not been required to at this time. I am tired. I am ready to feel better but I am nervous about the road ahead. I want to have the surgery and never go back to being fat again. I want to be able to overcome my addiction and my emotional eating. After surgery, I don't want to eat cookies or cake. I don't want to every put the weight back on. I don't want to sabotage myself after surgery as I am right now. How do I overcome this? How do I stop eating on impulse? How do I deal with the strong mental desire? It worries me. I go back to see Dr. Walton on Thursday morning. I am ready! but I am scared. The emotional turmoil continues.... I will pray about it. I know God has directed my steps to Dr. Walton and to this surgical intervention. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength!

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