Katrina F.

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Just a little over a year ago. I was told I weighed 313 pounds. If you follow the BMI points that's a 50.5 some docs call that Super Obese, some Morbidly Obese and well I plan ass call that HIGH!!!! If you have read my blog you know I recently had the Vertical Sleeve done. I love it, I have never felt more amazingly wonderful or beautiful (other then my wedding day) then I do now.

I wont say this has been easy honestly I am happy to say this has not be easy. I feel I did this cause I had no other choice, diet and exercise were not cutting it for me. I want to work for my health, I just needed a partner. I don't plan to be a goal in the next 7 months, Hell I don't plan to be a goal ever. If I make it I make it. If I don't well I bet you I lived longer then with out the surgery.

As of May 29th 2010 my BMI is 38.8 That's the Obese category, nothing before it... just obese.

I have lost 18 pounds since my surgery and I was rather mad about that. Until speaking with Kathie, I adore Kathie very much she is a specially trained Bariactric Dietitian. so we thought about this, that's 18 pounds in 7 weeks... That is 2.5 pounds a week....10 pounds a month....

When did I drop 10 a month and still feel good? ummm never or I would not need this surgery. So I am very happy with my 18 pounds in 7 week loss. Very damn happy.

Do I follow my Dr rules Damn straight I do. But the rules are easy to follow. My dr does not cut everything damn little thing out. This all about moderation and happy living. I can and do do that. It may take me longer to lose, but I get to enjoy all my small victories a little longer the most.

I have a 7 year old little boy whom I went on a field trip with June 1. We walked a very nice museum and the surrounding dig sites, ( the La Brea Tar Pits in Los Angeles Ca.). I didnt get tired, I didnt get winded, I didnt sweat.... at all... Ok wow.

I cut my Hair last night 2 inches off... Right at the jaw line, its cute. I rather like it but then again I have always liked short hair.

I personally don't know yet. But I do know its my surgical date for my VSG surgery. I am looking forward to it as much as one can. I am not fearful, I have had three other surgeries before so an old pro I hope not.

I had my birthday this week, very nice 31 here's to the hope its better then 30. I wont need much hope, I am having my WLS this year and its got to be better then being fat still right?RIGHT!

What does one expect from this kind of surgery?
Well let me share what I expect.

A lot of hard work,
A lot of ups and downs
A lot of issues to come up from what I know I have been hiding behind food or what i didn't know I was hiding
A better relationship with my hubby. (Not that there is anything wrong but one cant let another love them the right way until they love themselves.) And hes the best!!!!!!!
A lot more play time with my son
A lot of un-need of clothes

A lot of wish-a-be ness, like wishing I could eat that again until the mind understand this is not a diet but a life. And if I want to live my life this is how its got to be.

And above all a lot of looking forward to the next year to do something wonderful.

So who is ready to count down with me? I know I will I have my calender and Sharpie in hand, marking the days until its time for me to sleep like a little girl on the night before Christmas hoping for that perfect gift.. ( who knew you had to buy it yourself??)

So as all good things slowly come to an end, so does my story. Well lets make that my pre-op story. I finished my classes missing my personal goal of weight loss by 4oz. I made my 10% loss as hoped by the teachers but I was really trying for a 45 pounds lost while in classes I managed to drop 44.6 pounds. Am I upset, no not really.

As of Dec 21 4 days after my last class I currently have lost 48.2 my current goal is to be no more then 245 for my surgical consultation on January 7 2010. I am having my surgery done at Kaiser West Los Angeles hospital.

Am I fearful of surgery- maybe just a tiny bit only cause hello this is surgery. But I have had other surgeries before.

So one more step in my Pre-Op phase then its on to One Step closer to forever.

I promise to keep you all up to date as I can...

So I start my classes for WLS on the 20th of August. I am really looking forward to it!

My husband is very supportive and I am looking forward to each class I can take, my insurance (Kaiser) is helping me so much. My PCP asked me if I was interested and as I am sure many other people did, I said "NO" right away. I thought at my age I could loss the weight on my own, but when I thought about it a bit longer I realized I could not or he would not be offering this chance to me.

He told me if I wanted to see my 6 year old son turn 8 I needed to do something now or learn to say good bye to him now. I sat down with my husband and we talked about it for a while. He is so for it, what really helped was that his mother and his step mother each have had some form of WLS done each did very well with the surgery's and their losses. One lost to much ( if there is such a thing) and the other slipped and started to regain but I know she can get back on track.

The ironic part is I don't have any other issues with my health. I walk well enough for someone who is 300 plus pounds, I don't have high blood pressure, no diabetes not even boarder line, I don't have sleep apnea, we ran all the blood work to make sure in-case something was hiding.

Cause of this, my PCP says I will benefit from the surgery, seeing how this could be my third surgery in less then the same amount of years I was reluctant. I do have a friend here at my work that is doing the same thing as I am so we talk often and offer our support for the other.

Right after I informed my Dr. that was indeed interested in the surgery he got the ball rolling and with in 4 days I got a packet from the insurance company (Kaiser and its options classes) this was late May. Now as I sit here July 28th, with the understandings my classes will start August 20th I am looking forward to reading and learning about the person trapped within me.

I am looking forwards to playing with my son without the mean glares, I am looking forwards to learning how to eat and be kind to myself, and I am pleased to be placing to rest my fight with food.