A_NewFuture
I was always over weight, but never like this, now my days are lonely and full of pain. I dont like to go anywhere bc its hard to get in the car, bc of the arthritis I have in my legs, being as heavy as I am now, makes it that much more hard. I am going in and out of the hospital all the time, bc I cant breath, or my feet swell so bad I cant walk. I have had stroke, congestive heart failure, my diabetes numbers were always in control, but some meds made it go out and I have yet to get them back. All this summer, I was sick. So sick death looked good to me, and a welcoming call of my name. This is not living, its existing, and a very bad existing at that. I dont like to see anyone. I am in so much pain I spend most of my time sleeping. I have a hrad time breathing going from my room to the bathroom. I have had a lot of fight in me, for many years, now all my fight is gone, bc its one thing after another, that I dont get a chance to heal, and something else is here. I had given up but bc the love of some close family members they found this program, as my Doctor did some years ago but I flatly refused. Now I see it as my only chance to live, and look to a new future. So with God by my side and 2 family members, and a great surgeon, I may have a chance to see what life is about again. To have a new future.
