Angela M.
Thanks!
Sep 19, 2006
Almighty God, who has given me a wonderful body to hold my immortal soul, teach me how to live that I may keep it in health.
Let me learn the laws that govern my body, that I may not break them. Help me to regulate my appetite and passions, that they may serve you and me, in the building of my body, and not weaken it.
Give me health of mind, that my thoughts may be clean and pure. Make me love your good gifts of fresh air and cool water, and use them for your good, and the good of my body.
Help me to always keep my body fit for your service.
For Jesus' sake.
Amen.
All I wanna do!
Sep 17, 2006
1. Have a healthy pregnancy
2. Have a healthy child.
3. Get married.
4. Reach ONEDERLAND.
5. Own a home.
6. Button/Zip my pants without sucking in.
7. Walk up stairs without losing my breath.
8. Smile more, everyday.
9. Be pain free.
10. Cross my legs.
11. Not pull and tug at my clothes.
12. Fit comfortably in a bubble bath.
13. Enjoy riding a bike.
14. Shop in a regular store.
15. Be a good mom.
16. Scuba dive.
17. Wear stiletto heels.
18. Fit into any shower or bathroom stall.
19. Fit into any restaurant table or booth.
20. Sit in a butterfly chair without fear.
21. Swing on a hammock.
22. Go skinny dipping.
23. Swim in a bathing suit- no shirt/shorts.
24. Weigh myself on a standard bathroom scale.
25. Sit on my boyfriend/fiance/husbands lap.
26. Wear a tank top.
27. Have someone hug me and not struggle to reach around me.
28. Feel sexy.
29. Wear cute underwear, all the time.
30. Be comfortable in a bra, or at least have one that fits.
31. No more blood pressure pills.
32. Go to the doctors ONCE a year.
33. Have someone not recognize me.
34. Shower easily.
35. Not be exhausted after a shower.
36. I want to be IN pictures.
37. I want to wear a button up tweed jacket.
38. Wear a pearl necklace.
39. I want to dance in front of people.
40. I want to run and dance and make out in the rain.
41. I want to be taken on a fully planned out romantic date.
42. I dont want to be hot and sweat ALL the time.
43. Lingerie.
44. I want to sit on a couch, facing forward- hugging my knees to my chest.
45. Have thighs that dont touch!
46. I want to know what it is like to see and feel my hip bones, ribs, collar bones, etc...
47. Buy and WEAR belts!
48. Share clothes with a female friend.
49. Paint my toenails.
50. Not have to pull my shirt down over my ass everytime I get up.
51. Wear knee high boots.
52. Get in and out of a two door car.
53. Have a job.
54. NO MORE ELEVATORS!
55. Have a bath towel fit around me.
56. Fit in concert seats.
57. GO HORSEBACK RIDING!!!!
58. Wear designer suits.
59. Make chokers look good.
60. Go roller skating, a lot.
61. Have someone pick me up- without breaking their back.
62. Piggy back rides!
63. BE CALLED SKINNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
67. Keep a vegetable garden.
68. Go to a million concerts.
Wow. Im dumb. lol. But cute so I can deal. Sorry for being a total drag, Ill try and cheer up before I post again. Love you all. xoxo
LATER- Im sorry about being a dork earlier. I was just feeling sorry for myself. My grams is over and she is very encouraging. She is the one paying for me to do JC and she really cant afford it but she wants the best for me. She keeps telling me that when we both get skinny she wants us to go get our belly buttons peirced together! My grams is the best, I love her. So I feel a bit better. Im still not convinved that Im gonna lose weight this week but Im pumping myself with water and not snacking, just eating my JC food. At least I know Im trying. I next really need to figure this whole relationship thing out because its bothering me so much. I dont want to believe that we could be bad for each other. I love him, and I love us. Ill figure it all out though. XOXO
Blah
Sep 16, 2006
Well I just got home from spending the night with my boyfriend Rick. He lives up in Maine so he came down for the night and we hung out. We didnt really do much- we were supposed to go apple picking today but we decieded against it- we are both boring. jk It was just probably PACKED there- its so hot out, like a beach day or something. Anyways so Im down 9.4lbs last week and this week started out great except last night and today I ate some things I shouldnt. They weren't super bad things but they werent JC. Im getting back on track starting NOW- not "monday" like most dieters say lol. I need to have 15lbs off in the next four weeks. My biggest thing about being fat is that I dont feel girly. Im sick of looking in the mirror and feeling manly. Its so gross. I LOVE FASHION. I want to wear pearls and suits and designer clothes. Im big on makeup and hair- but Im just so damn lazy. I go to school looking like a bum. I know after surgery when the weight starts really coming off Ill put in more effort because Ill feel better about myself but until then Im at a standstill. Tomorrow starts another week at school. I really have to be good. I have to drink lots and lots of water and find something to keep me busy in the evenings. I will be so disapointed with myself if I dont lose this week. Anything over ONE pound and Ill be sooooo happy. Ive never lost more then 7lbs. I go down 7 and then start eating like crazy again. I decieded that I have no will power outside the house so I cant go out with Rick for the next couple of weeks. It sucks but he needs to save up some money anyways. About 3-4 more weeks until our anniversary so maybe we wont see each other until that weekend. Then Ill have lost much more then I ever have and he'll be really supportive so we will be really good. I DESERVE IT! I have to keep telling myself that. Yep yep...until later.... XOXOXO
A bit more about my story...
Sep 15, 2006
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Now let me tell you- I have a VERY VERY supporting and understanding boyfriend. He is a jock- he coaches for a living- plays EVERY sport and can run miles and miles. RIDICULOUS!! But he also has food issues and although he is in shape he struggles every day to keep it that way. We share a lot with eating habbits, recipes, and general support. He knows everything and has been here every step of the way. I love him to death. Rick is my best friend, always will be. I just joined Jenny Craig because its the one weight loss plan that I have never tried and honestly- I love it. Just by chance my consultant at JC had WLS 3 years ago and she is amazing. I love her to death. She is so inspiring and just...amazing. Im feel so blessed to have met her at this point in my life. I think the JC food is awesome and it fits right into my schedule for school, and plus- I feel like Im ALWAYS eating. But I lost 9.4lbs in my first week- and I never stopped eating and blah...never worked out. So thats 15 more to go before I can get approved for surgery! Almost there kiddies! Im getting an official weigh in with my nutritionist on the 20th of Sept and then I dont meet with them again until the 19th of Oct but Im hoping to schedule an official weigh in probably the 11th because the team only meets once a month and if I can lose 15lbs between now and then Ill be all set. So that gives me about 4 weeks. About 3.5lbs a week. DOABLE. (at my weight) So I get back together with my behavioral group on the 25th and I just cant wait to tell them how great Ive been doing, its been a long hard summer. I feel like Ive finally got things together and I really need to keep it up. Ive been so proud of myself!! Next- I just like to make some friends out here!!!!