back to reality!

Jan 05, 2009

Soooooo... i went to Disney World for new years... we spent a week there and i only lost 2 pounds... it was terrible... I finally understand why people who NEED the surgery DONT do it! temptation is killer!!! Its so hard to be in a 16 people group and not be tempted to eat... people eat all the time... and you dont really take notice of how much life revolves around food until you can't eat any at all.... so i ate food i wasnt suppose to sometimes... and sometimes i threw up and sometimes i didnt.... I tried to get protein in by eating soft foods and some small and very well chewed pieces of meat... sure, i took food but it was hard to not crave all the delicious things around me.... so I am being super good starting today... because i love that my pants are all falling down... and that I look way cuter in pictures.... just glad im back to reality!
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Wheeeee!

Nov 19, 2008

Surgery in 3 weeks!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ... im already on a liquid diet for fun... lol... it makes it more real... im trying to drink protein shakes and soups and stuff... it hasnt really been that bad because i have been studying non stop... im really excited!

Venting..

Oct 08, 2008

Ok so I had a long talk with my mom last night... I was telling her I had talked to my brother and that he didnt really approve of the VSG... however, my brother basically thought i was getting gastric bypass and didnt really understand the difference.... i guess that makes sense he would be worried at my age and at this weight (im a "lightweight" my BMI is like barely 36 and i dont "look" my weight - anyone who knows my weight would guess i was at least 50 pounds less)... point being... i talked to my mom about it and she kind of agreed with him... she is the one paying for the surgery so i kind of freaked but then she told me that no matter what, i was getting my sleeve... she just didnt think this time would be any different... and that this was the last thing "diet" wise that she was going to pay for me.... i guess it makes sense... i just spent 13 weeks on Jenny Craig... and lost 15 pounds and gained 9 back.... yes, i have hypothiroidism and it sucks... my dosage isnt even regulated yet.... anyways... shes a psychologist so she was trying to psychoanalyze me...  she thinks i dont have the willpower to loose weight... that even with the surgery... i wont do it... and i disagree... i think it will be different this time... but im also really scared it wont... im the type of person that will do a diet and then when i stall i give up... if i dont see the scale go down i just give up... she doesnt think i have it in me to loose the weight.. she told me if she was me she would walk around with a pack of carrots and not put anything else in my mouth till i was a stick... thanks mom... if it was that easy... we wouldnt be having this conversation.... on the other hand though... maybe shes right... if i was so willing to loose weight then why havent i done so.. do i really preffer ice cream to being thin? and how do i really know that this time, it will happen for real?

OMG its for REAL!

Sep 22, 2008

Its actually and truly going to happen! My surgery has officially been scheduled for Dec 10, 2008 and im only paying $14,500... yeah yeah yeahhhhhh!!! I am jumping out of my chair right nowwwww ! wooo hooooooooooooo! The people at Dr. Whittwells office are completely and totally amazing!!!

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Sep 20, 2008

So yeah! I got things squared out with my doctor and I have finally decided to do it with Dr. Whitwell... I changed hospitals and was able to bring down the price to $15,000 which is pretty amazing... Monday they will call me from his office and i will get my surgery date confirmed.. I am trying for an earlier day then the 15 because I want to have as much recovery time as possible from when the surgery is done to when I start school... It will def be around that date though... I am really happy and really excited... I cant wait...

yay!

Sep 15, 2008

Ok so apparently I might be changing doctors. I spoke to Dr. Gagners office today and it costs $3,500 less to do it with him. Thats pretty funny considering he is the best. I called my doctor to complain about the price and they told me they are going to see what they can do about it and see if they can give me a discount. I am def getting my surgery but we are not sure which doctor is going to do it yet... another thing is my loan is not accepted at Dr. Gagner's office... only at Dr. Whittwell's so i would have to cancel that loan and apply for a different one... ugggg this is getting so complicated... good thing is that the surgery is like 3 months away...  well I will keep everyone updated in case there are changes... right now I basically have 2 Dr's , 2 surgery dates, and 1 loan not applicable for both... lets hope i figure this out soon!

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