Anne C.
I'm NOT heavy enough for bariatric surgery (anymore)
Oct 09, 2009
You have a BMI of 29.1.
This shows that you are moderately overweight.
Your BMI is not high enough to qualify you for bariatric surgery
For the first time in 17 years, I am only considered....MODERATELY OVERWEIGHT! Only those of us who have been classified "morbidly obese" can truly appreciate the magnitude of this achievement! It has been 7 months, and I can hardly believe that this is my new life! I care about what I eat, when I eat, how much I eat. I LOVE going to the gym! I am finding muscles in places I forgot there SHOULD be muscles!
Mental health...sigh. I know that I was an emotional eater and learning to NOT eat when I'm upset is easy. It's dealing with the emotions that's killing me! Some days, I'm great! Other days, I'm a wreck! I haven't learned how to deal with all of the emotions that I DIDN'T deal with before! Sometimes they're very eratic...one minute I'm great, next, I'm ready to cry! Anxiety is starting in on me, too! Sigh.....
Anyone have any tips?
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This shows that you are moderately overweight.
Your BMI is not high enough to qualify you for bariatric surgery
For the first time in 17 years, I am only considered....MODERATELY OVERWEIGHT! Only those of us who have been classified "morbidly obese" can truly appreciate the magnitude of this achievement! It has been 7 months, and I can hardly believe that this is my new life! I care about what I eat, when I eat, how much I eat. I LOVE going to the gym! I am finding muscles in places I forgot there SHOULD be muscles!
Mental health...sigh. I know that I was an emotional eater and learning to NOT eat when I'm upset is easy. It's dealing with the emotions that's killing me! Some days, I'm great! Other days, I'm a wreck! I haven't learned how to deal with all of the emotions that I DIDN'T deal with before! Sometimes they're very eratic...one minute I'm great, next, I'm ready to cry! Anxiety is starting in on me, too! Sigh.....
Anyone have any tips?
Don't know how to feel inside anymore :(
Sep 28, 2009
Well, here I am....all mixed up...jumbled up....with emotion. I thought that after the initial "purging" of the hormones my body would somewhat level out. It hasn't! I'm going thru more changes! I recently broke up with my fiance. Had been a toxic relationship...one in which he wasn't happy, tho he couldn't admit it....only could say that I was the only way for him to have happiness! That's too much of a burden to put on someone!!!
So, I got involved with an old high school friend. Has been wonderful so far...but now he's backing up just a bit...after pursuing me hot and heavy....and me falling easily for this man I've known for 33 of my 42 years of life.....and I don't know how to handle this! Now, I just find that I am not an attractive person....that I'm not sexy, ... desireable.....I know I don't need a man to validate me...but, damn, I'd fallen for him! He's been telling me he loves me...then backs up just a little bit, and I don't know how to back up....I'm trying hard....I had no phone, so he added me to his cell plan.....and JUST added my son...so I don't think this is fly-by-night....When we're together (which is only weekends as he works 2 hours away from me, and lives an hour away) he reaches to touch me every chance he gets...whether it's just to have his arm touch mine...his hand on my knee, holding my hand...touching my hair....wrapping himself around me when we sleep................NOW...he's not not completely divorced yet. I know this weighs on him as he just wants it done! And, I know he's afraid I'll start putting restrictions on him...which I wouldn't do.....but I guess he needs to learn this. HELP ME FIGURE MYSELF OUT! I want to love myself....I've already lost 86.5 pounds with only 32.5 pounds to my original goal weight. But I still see myself as fat. I see ugly. I don't see anything worth anyone's attention! AAARRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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So, I got involved with an old high school friend. Has been wonderful so far...but now he's backing up just a bit...after pursuing me hot and heavy....and me falling easily for this man I've known for 33 of my 42 years of life.....and I don't know how to handle this! Now, I just find that I am not an attractive person....that I'm not sexy, ... desireable.....I know I don't need a man to validate me...but, damn, I'd fallen for him! He's been telling me he loves me...then backs up just a little bit, and I don't know how to back up....I'm trying hard....I had no phone, so he added me to his cell plan.....and JUST added my son...so I don't think this is fly-by-night....When we're together (which is only weekends as he works 2 hours away from me, and lives an hour away) he reaches to touch me every chance he gets...whether it's just to have his arm touch mine...his hand on my knee, holding my hand...touching my hair....wrapping himself around me when we sleep................NOW...he's not not completely divorced yet. I know this weighs on him as he just wants it done! And, I know he's afraid I'll start putting restrictions on him...which I wouldn't do.....but I guess he needs to learn this. HELP ME FIGURE MYSELF OUT! I want to love myself....I've already lost 86.5 pounds with only 32.5 pounds to my original goal weight. But I still see myself as fat. I see ugly. I don't see anything worth anyone's attention! AAARRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Would I do this again?
Sep 21, 2009
You betcha! Wow...Today, after a weekend of wining and dining (I know...not supposed to have alcohol yet...lol) I managed to lose a pound! I am 180lbs (from a start of 264!!!) I'm aslo in a size 14W has to be the W!!! But, I haven't seen that in 17 years!!!!! I'm happy happy happy!!!!
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6 MONTH SURGIVERSARY!
Sep 15, 2009
Well, I made it this far in 6 months...80lbs are gone from my body! I have NEVER felt so healthy in my entire life! I can hardly believe the changes in me! I ended my 4 1/2 year relationship with my fiance....a wise decision. He's a nice guy...but he's a true Eeyore! Everything was negative with him! When we went to our last "class" and were told all the changes to start making, he says to me: "You'll never be able to do this." How's that for support! Or, when I had to go back to the hospital 4 days after surgery due to a fever.....3 days later he didn't come pick me up. His cat was sick and he had to take it to the vet. My kids had to come get me! And....2 weeks after my surgery, my son was diagnosed with testicular cancer and was on the operating table.....Fiance couldn't come to the hospital with me. Wasn't there to support me on the worst day of MY life...never mind my son's life! When I was in the hospital the second time, he took it upon himself to finish off my Roxicet solution! Stole pain meds from my son's, too, after different procedures.
Anyway...long story short....the toxic relationship is over! I have begun to learn how to deal with emotions without the use of food! I like where this is all leading me. I feel healthier mentally as well as physically! I'm learning that I pretty much love ME now!
So...I've gone from a solid size 22 (sometimes a 24) to wearing some 14's and 16's. I just can't get over it! I love going to the gym! I have never, even at my lightest weight, enjoyed going there....If I don't do it every other day, I feel guilty! Hehehe...what a change in me! My head is always held high...
Now, it's football season for my kids...I'm running into people I haven't seen since before surgery. I have stunned them! They can't believe the changes in me!!!! I guess the only one who isn't pleased is my former fiance! All my friends from high school, I've just started contacting a lot of people on Facebook....are amazed at my progress, and offer all the support in the world! I am lucky!!!!!!
I'll post pics soon!
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Anyway...long story short....the toxic relationship is over! I have begun to learn how to deal with emotions without the use of food! I like where this is all leading me. I feel healthier mentally as well as physically! I'm learning that I pretty much love ME now!
So...I've gone from a solid size 22 (sometimes a 24) to wearing some 14's and 16's. I just can't get over it! I love going to the gym! I have never, even at my lightest weight, enjoyed going there....If I don't do it every other day, I feel guilty! Hehehe...what a change in me! My head is always held high...
Now, it's football season for my kids...I'm running into people I haven't seen since before surgery. I have stunned them! They can't believe the changes in me!!!! I guess the only one who isn't pleased is my former fiance! All my friends from high school, I've just started contacting a lot of people on Facebook....are amazed at my progress, and offer all the support in the world! I am lucky!!!!!!
I'll post pics soon!
ONE-DERLAND!!!!!!
Jul 11, 2009
If anyone had told me a year ago that I would be sitting at my computer July 12, 2009, (A year and 10 days after I first went to a seminar on WLS) I would never ever have believed it.....and today............
199.5!!!!!!!
I'm so blessed with a family so supportive, friends so supportive, and co-workers...always supportive!
I haven't been in the 100's since 1994! WOW!
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199.5!!!!!!!
I'm so blessed with a family so supportive, friends so supportive, and co-workers...always supportive!
I haven't been in the 100's since 1994! WOW!
3 month check-up...a month late...oops
Jul 10, 2009
Well, I went in yesterday for my 3 month check-up...but I was a month behind schedule....AND....I hadn't gotten my blood work done before the appointment, but it all went well....until the pregnant chick at the lab stabbed me with that freakin' needle! Sheesh! Before surgery, the lab gal used that little butterfly needle....never felt it! Now, I have this....raised up bump and a bruise. :( I figured...pregnant gal...she'll be nice to me...but, NOPE.
Anyway...I digress! They were very impressed with how I'm doing. I hate their scale, though...made me 6 pounds heavier than my scale does....I hate my scale cuz it's not moving...imagine how I feel about theirs now???? The Dr. said I'm right on schedule...but, here's the great part......The compliments the gals in the office were doling out :D They kept saying...you're not the same girl that had surgery! No way! You know that saying...Attitude is everything? Well...that's me! I have such a good attitude about this. I told Dr. Kruger that he and his office are my heroes. They've saved my life! (Actually, they've given me the tool to save my life...I'm working with the tool!)
When I was 2 1/2 months post op...I went to the gal that cuts my hair. See, I was determined that after surgery, I wanted long blonde hair (I have the blonde part already...LOL) But, when I saw Erin (hairdresser) We decided that I needed something....fun, perky, something........ME! So, we cut it. Talk about an attitude adjustment! The right haircut helps so much! I feel so incredibly positive in my life!
I feel like I'm about 10 years younger! My oldest son sees such a difference in me, and tells me! What a good kid! He had surgery 2 weeks after I did as he was diagnosed with testicular cancer. Talk about scary! I feel like I was delayed in recovery those few weeks, while anxious about his lab results and everything. So, maybe I'm on target for 3 months, rather than 4? I don't know....All I know is that...I'm happy now. And if I'm this happy now....I can only imagine life in a year!
When I left the MD office yesterday, I ran into Wal-Mart...it was there..it was on the way! (I'm justifying...LOL) and....I bought a few skorts....which I really like cuz I don't have to worry about anyone seeing up a skirt... but...the best part was...I took 2 sizes into the dressing room....an 18 and a 16. I tried the 16 on first....and bust out in a HUGE grin as it fit! I didn't have to try the 18! I knew it would be too big! WOW! So, I bought 3 of them...hot pink, denim, and dark khaki. I figure...I'll get thru the summer in these (cuz my pants are all so big! Gawd, I love saying that!!)
Tonight, our town is having a fireworks display, but I'm going to the gym instead...it should be pretty empty :D I'd rather work out in peace and quiet and not be embarrassed trying to manuver the machines....After my 2 1/2 hour workout Wednesday night, I was a little achy yesterday...but all in all...really not too bad....I mean, I'm actually looking forward to working out tonight!
Of course, into everyone's life, a little rain must fall....My fiance is having a hard time with my new "old" self. He never knew me thinner than this....has never known me as thin as I am now.......and he's feeling so insecure with me staying with him. He said....well, you don't need me anymore. I said...why???? He said, well, now that you're skinny and all.........I said, What's that got to do with the price of tea in China? I reassured him how much I love him, and that above all else, he's my best friend. I told him that I noticed a lot of couples working out together at the gym. I'm hoping he'll join it, too...so we can get healthy together!
So, I guess that's it for now. I'm a happy lady these days.........and it's only getting better!
A journey of a million miles starts with one step!
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Anyway...I digress! They were very impressed with how I'm doing. I hate their scale, though...made me 6 pounds heavier than my scale does....I hate my scale cuz it's not moving...imagine how I feel about theirs now???? The Dr. said I'm right on schedule...but, here's the great part......The compliments the gals in the office were doling out :D They kept saying...you're not the same girl that had surgery! No way! You know that saying...Attitude is everything? Well...that's me! I have such a good attitude about this. I told Dr. Kruger that he and his office are my heroes. They've saved my life! (Actually, they've given me the tool to save my life...I'm working with the tool!)
When I was 2 1/2 months post op...I went to the gal that cuts my hair. See, I was determined that after surgery, I wanted long blonde hair (I have the blonde part already...LOL) But, when I saw Erin (hairdresser) We decided that I needed something....fun, perky, something........ME! So, we cut it. Talk about an attitude adjustment! The right haircut helps so much! I feel so incredibly positive in my life!
I feel like I'm about 10 years younger! My oldest son sees such a difference in me, and tells me! What a good kid! He had surgery 2 weeks after I did as he was diagnosed with testicular cancer. Talk about scary! I feel like I was delayed in recovery those few weeks, while anxious about his lab results and everything. So, maybe I'm on target for 3 months, rather than 4? I don't know....All I know is that...I'm happy now. And if I'm this happy now....I can only imagine life in a year!
When I left the MD office yesterday, I ran into Wal-Mart...it was there..it was on the way! (I'm justifying...LOL) and....I bought a few skorts....which I really like cuz I don't have to worry about anyone seeing up a skirt... but...the best part was...I took 2 sizes into the dressing room....an 18 and a 16. I tried the 16 on first....and bust out in a HUGE grin as it fit! I didn't have to try the 18! I knew it would be too big! WOW! So, I bought 3 of them...hot pink, denim, and dark khaki. I figure...I'll get thru the summer in these (cuz my pants are all so big! Gawd, I love saying that!!)
Tonight, our town is having a fireworks display, but I'm going to the gym instead...it should be pretty empty :D I'd rather work out in peace and quiet and not be embarrassed trying to manuver the machines....After my 2 1/2 hour workout Wednesday night, I was a little achy yesterday...but all in all...really not too bad....I mean, I'm actually looking forward to working out tonight!
Of course, into everyone's life, a little rain must fall....My fiance is having a hard time with my new "old" self. He never knew me thinner than this....has never known me as thin as I am now.......and he's feeling so insecure with me staying with him. He said....well, you don't need me anymore. I said...why???? He said, well, now that you're skinny and all.........I said, What's that got to do with the price of tea in China? I reassured him how much I love him, and that above all else, he's my best friend. I told him that I noticed a lot of couples working out together at the gym. I'm hoping he'll join it, too...so we can get healthy together!
So, I guess that's it for now. I'm a happy lady these days.........and it's only getting better!
A journey of a million miles starts with one step!
Snap Fitness
Jul 07, 2009
So, I became a member of the local Snap Fitness (www.snapfitness.com) It's local, convenient and affordable! I can go ANY time, day or night...whenever I want to work out. I like that! Not worrying about getting in a fast workout before they close...yadda yadda....
Anyway...while I was there last night (my first visit) I saw a girl I worked with up until January. SHE DIDN'T EVEN RECOGNIZE ME! She was like....Oh My God! You look so awesome! :) I couldn't stop smiling! This girl is beautiful...like Pocahontas or something...long, thick straight black hair, exotic face, AND of course, a killer body. I've known her for about 5 years now...if not a little longer :) I felt like I was on top of the world! I also updated my facebook page with my new pictures...and everyone I knew in high school has been making comments...and I wasn't chubby at all in high school :)
Can I just say, once again, how much I love my surgeon? I love his staff...they're all so helpful and caring....I love my insurance company!
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Anyway...while I was there last night (my first visit) I saw a girl I worked with up until January. SHE DIDN'T EVEN RECOGNIZE ME! She was like....Oh My God! You look so awesome! :) I couldn't stop smiling! This girl is beautiful...like Pocahontas or something...long, thick straight black hair, exotic face, AND of course, a killer body. I've known her for about 5 years now...if not a little longer :) I felt like I was on top of the world! I also updated my facebook page with my new pictures...and everyone I knew in high school has been making comments...and I wasn't chubby at all in high school :)
Can I just say, once again, how much I love my surgeon? I love his staff...they're all so helpful and caring....I love my insurance company!
Dreams
Jun 30, 2009
Today was just a great day all around. It started off cloudy...but then a glorious sun came out (which we've barely seen here on Cape Cod in the month of June) and the day just gets better and better. I'm sitting here, reflecting on how good I feel.
I know I'm pms'ing...cuz I'm getting all emotional as I'm thinking about what I'm writing...but it's hard not to feel so good I could cry! For too many years, I was in a marriage that was detrimental to me. I was married to a man that was controlling, an alcoholic, and both physically and mentally abusive. I remember the last days he spent under the same roof as me in '99. One night, after he had too many beers (again) he came home and started off with...Don't worry. I'm not going to hit you. Very comforting, right? As he walked around the house following me....his breath on the back of my neck saying...you're nothing but a fat, f*cking whore. No one is ever going to want you. I thought....which is it? Am I a whore and doing the whole town...or am I so repulsive that no one will ever want me? I had fallen into a pattern of...if I'm heavy, he won't feel like I'm out trying to find guys. I never was looking....except in his head.
Although I got off that roller coaster so many years ago...I was never able to get myself into decent shape. Then I met Jeff!
Jeff didn't care if I was 215lbs. He didn't care when I ballooned up to 264lbs. He loves me. I would dream I could get thinner. I would dream I was attractive. I would dream .... MY DREAMS ARE COMING TRUE! I feel truly blessed. This is the hardest endeavor I've ever taken on, and, next to having kids...it's the most rewarding. I'm learning more about me, about my body, about my mind and about my soul. I've found a beautiful woman on the inside. I knew she was always there....I've always been the type to befriend everyone. But now, I feel like I positively glow! I feel like I exude happiness!
My dreams are changing...but they're always achievable. I truly am: losing half the person I was, but becoming twice the woman!
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I know I'm pms'ing...cuz I'm getting all emotional as I'm thinking about what I'm writing...but it's hard not to feel so good I could cry! For too many years, I was in a marriage that was detrimental to me. I was married to a man that was controlling, an alcoholic, and both physically and mentally abusive. I remember the last days he spent under the same roof as me in '99. One night, after he had too many beers (again) he came home and started off with...Don't worry. I'm not going to hit you. Very comforting, right? As he walked around the house following me....his breath on the back of my neck saying...you're nothing but a fat, f*cking whore. No one is ever going to want you. I thought....which is it? Am I a whore and doing the whole town...or am I so repulsive that no one will ever want me? I had fallen into a pattern of...if I'm heavy, he won't feel like I'm out trying to find guys. I never was looking....except in his head.
Although I got off that roller coaster so many years ago...I was never able to get myself into decent shape. Then I met Jeff!
Jeff didn't care if I was 215lbs. He didn't care when I ballooned up to 264lbs. He loves me. I would dream I could get thinner. I would dream I was attractive. I would dream .... MY DREAMS ARE COMING TRUE! I feel truly blessed. This is the hardest endeavor I've ever taken on, and, next to having kids...it's the most rewarding. I'm learning more about me, about my body, about my mind and about my soul. I've found a beautiful woman on the inside. I knew she was always there....I've always been the type to befriend everyone. But now, I feel like I positively glow! I feel like I exude happiness!
My dreams are changing...but they're always achievable. I truly am: losing half the person I was, but becoming twice the woman!
Another pound closer...
Jun 25, 2009
Today, like many days, I got on the scale...first thing....and to my wonderful surprise, I find that I'm 201.5 pounds. That means...1.6 pounds and I'm officially UNDER 200lbs!!! May take a week to lose...I don't know...but I won't give up! I haven't been this low in weight in 17 years! For 17 years, I've been carrying around the 63.5 pounds that I've lost...I'm not even sure I can lift and carry 63.5 pounds for an hour, never mind 17 years!
I was telling my fiance last night...his love and support, and the support of our kids...I couldn't have done this. I remember back in February, when he came to the last of my "classes", when we were walking out the door, he said, "Are you really going to be able to do this? Can you make all these changes?" Last night, he told me how amazed by me, my strength, my determination, and my dedication to this life style change. Every day I am truly amazed by the stories I read here on this site. Everyone's successes carry over into mine...as I take from them life lessons, support, and friendship!
I find that I'm using my treadmill more and more! If I don't work up a back-drenching sweat, I don't feel I've worked hard enough! I find that when I am getting tired on the treadmill, and want to slow it down....there's a little voice in my head that says....C'mon, Anne...you CAN push yourself harder for another 10 minutes!!! And then, before I know it, a half hour is gone!
I don't see how folks could ever regret the choice for weight loss surgery! I was thinking the other day...I truly intend to lose almost 1/2 of my body....and as this happens, I'm becoming twice the woman! I'm proving to myself...after an abusive (mental and physical) marriage that's been over for 10 yeras....that I am worth this! I'm worth the time I spend for myself working out! I'm worth a membership to the gym! I'm worth healthier foods...even if they're more expensive. I AM WORTH IT! If anyone reads this blog....YOU'RE WORTH IT, TOO!!!
My goals I've set are getting easier to attain! Exercising is easier and more enjoyable...the clothing size...everything! Heck, I'm half way to..."lose 100 pounds after weight loss surgery." Half way!!!!!!
Each pound that ticks away, I see my knees feeling better...my heart isn't as taxed, my breathing isn't as heavy...Ya know...Last weekend I was at my brother's house, and I crossed my legs....I didn't even realize I was doing it, until I looked down....What a surprise for me!!!
So, now, I head to the shower...it's work time....and I'm sad to say it's not "work-out" time. Man, I can't remember ever feeling this way about exercise....LOL!
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I was telling my fiance last night...his love and support, and the support of our kids...I couldn't have done this. I remember back in February, when he came to the last of my "classes", when we were walking out the door, he said, "Are you really going to be able to do this? Can you make all these changes?" Last night, he told me how amazed by me, my strength, my determination, and my dedication to this life style change. Every day I am truly amazed by the stories I read here on this site. Everyone's successes carry over into mine...as I take from them life lessons, support, and friendship!
I find that I'm using my treadmill more and more! If I don't work up a back-drenching sweat, I don't feel I've worked hard enough! I find that when I am getting tired on the treadmill, and want to slow it down....there's a little voice in my head that says....C'mon, Anne...you CAN push yourself harder for another 10 minutes!!! And then, before I know it, a half hour is gone!
I don't see how folks could ever regret the choice for weight loss surgery! I was thinking the other day...I truly intend to lose almost 1/2 of my body....and as this happens, I'm becoming twice the woman! I'm proving to myself...after an abusive (mental and physical) marriage that's been over for 10 yeras....that I am worth this! I'm worth the time I spend for myself working out! I'm worth a membership to the gym! I'm worth healthier foods...even if they're more expensive. I AM WORTH IT! If anyone reads this blog....YOU'RE WORTH IT, TOO!!!
My goals I've set are getting easier to attain! Exercising is easier and more enjoyable...the clothing size...everything! Heck, I'm half way to..."lose 100 pounds after weight loss surgery." Half way!!!!!!
Each pound that ticks away, I see my knees feeling better...my heart isn't as taxed, my breathing isn't as heavy...Ya know...Last weekend I was at my brother's house, and I crossed my legs....I didn't even realize I was doing it, until I looked down....What a surprise for me!!!
So, now, I head to the shower...it's work time....and I'm sad to say it's not "work-out" time. Man, I can't remember ever feeling this way about exercise....LOL!
Renewed Energy for Weight Loss!!!
Jun 05, 2009
So, Today I got on the scale....210lbs. That made me realize that I only have to lose 10.1 pounds to be in One-derland! Boy does that get the blood flowing! That will be such an exciting moment! When I got pregnant with my middle son (now 16 1/2) I weighed in at 201. So that will mean, when One-derland happens...I will weigh less than I have in 17 years!!!!!!!!!! Now I'm thinking of all the ways to fuel my weight loss! Exercise exercise! I have an old Jane Fonda aerobics tape from the 80's...it's an audio tape...and I know the routine so well (even though I haven't done it in about 15 years...or more...) so I want to figure out how I can record an audio tape to turn it into a CD. I really love this workout...and I had previously lost about 40lbs doing it back in the 80's.
Wednesday was a cool day! I walked into CVS pharmacy...where I used to work. I haven't seen the folks in there since right after my surgery....and the gal I worked with for 3 years did a double take! She said...OHMYGOD!!!!!!!!!! LOOK AT YOU!!!!! I coyly said, "You can see a difference?" She was like...Ya! that moment felt so damn good!
So, here I am....very excited for the next 10 pounds to be shed from my body!
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Wednesday was a cool day! I walked into CVS pharmacy...where I used to work. I haven't seen the folks in there since right after my surgery....and the gal I worked with for 3 years did a double take! She said...OHMYGOD!!!!!!!!!! LOOK AT YOU!!!!! I coyly said, "You can see a difference?" She was like...Ya! that moment felt so damn good!
So, here I am....very excited for the next 10 pounds to be shed from my body!
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EAST SANDWICH, MA
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Feb 02, 2009
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