Adrianne_Dawn
Dating, Self Esteem and Weightloss OH MY!
Dec 26, 2012
Well first off I'm currently down to 218 (ok I lied...218.7 - but do I have to count that .7?) Hahaha
So from my highest weight of 320, my pre-surgery weight of 288 (May 21st), to my now post surgery 218.7 (annoying .7) I've lost about 102 lbs!
Ummmm 102 lbs since FEB 2012. Is that not freaking AMAZING?! I sometimes forget how AMAZING that is.
For any Newbie that reads this - it's a scary process but the rewards are so much greater! If I were to stop and freeze at this current weight (gasp I hope not) I'd be a success. 102 whooping lbs! That's a total of 357,000 calories either burned or not eaten in the past 11 months. (3500 cal needed to burn 1 lb of fat) Which btw had I not had this surgery would never have happened. lol I may not have ate all those calories but I wouldn't have lost it either.
So, let's move on to dating - I'm not gonna lie - Dating SUCKS! It certainly isn't easier then when I was bigger. The only difference is that the guy's might be a little better looking. I had one guy that i had been talking to for 2 weeks while he worked out of state, come home last Friday, We went on a FANTASTIC date, and then come Sunday he deleted and blocked me (Without a word to me) from FB and the dating site we met on. Wow - can we say ouch to my ego. :/ At the same time what a freaking TOOL/DOUCHE!
I've just signed up for Match.com - as opposed to the free site i was on previously. I'll keep you posted on how that goes. hahaha
As for my self esteem - ehhh it waivers. Some day's I feel fantastic, other day's I feel fat, but thank goodness most days I feel amazing! Example : My parents bought me size XL Victoria Secret Pj's - My mom goes - well if they don't fit right now they will. I put them on - they fit perfectly if not a little big. Buttoned up and everything. It's one amazing feeling to try something on and not have to worry if it fits you. The dress pics i just posted - that dress is a size XL and the little jacket is a size L. Ummm in Feb I was in 3x and even those sometimes didn't fit. I tried on a size 16 jeans in the Misses dept and was able to actually button them. They were skinny jeans which I'm not convinced I like so I didn't get them - but either way what an accomplishment!
ok - back to work!
