Ann Shaffer

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Hi,    It has really been a long, log time since I was here.  If anyone reads this I am very sorry.  A lot has happened in the last few months.  I didn't make it back to my MD my MS got out of control and I ws on IV steroids (twice in 2 weeks) and the month follow up.  After the first round of antibiotics I gave up and decided that this was going to be a fact of my life and it was time to call and make an appoitnment anyway.  I then got notice that he was leaving the area and that the hospital was interviewing but didn't have any replacement.  If that doesn't suck.  My MS is totqally out of control and now I don't have a bypass surgeon either.  The area surgeons would take us on, but that isn't t he same.  I am 18 months out and I am going to wait 6 months to see a surgeon who doesn't know me or anything about me.  I think not.  I can't really imagine that they wuld take us on unless we have a problem.  I may be selling them short, but it isn't like they aren't busy enough as it is.  I don't really know what to do.  Oh well if you have any thoughts or ideas's I'd welcome them.                                  Ann

hi  -  I cancelled my last post-op appt (for Tuesday) because I am not at the weight he wants me to be.  He wants me at 180 and I am at arounf 190 give or take.  I can't seem to muster up the dscipline to get the last of the weight off nor can I gather up the power to care about it.  I have hung out at between 193 - 202 for 3 months.  Just when I get to the point of deciding to do it my damn health kicks me again and I figure that I am close enough.  I am in remission and that is truely a gret thing but I saw the doc today and he told me that my optic nerves were definetely damaged worse than he thought (I think).  Not a good thing.  ok enough whining and not enough ghiraldi chocolate chips yet, (close but maybe not quite enough).  
     I weighed in today at 189.5#'s on my scales - I am not sure how acurate they are compared to his but any way.       later

I did well for a few days after my re-diet kick-off but then fell into a depression when my favorite Aunt died.  She was the the one person on this earth that loved me unconditionally.  She passed away before I had time to get up to her.  She was sent home and given less than 3 months and made it 2 1/2 weeks.  She passed 2 days before we got up there.  I have begun to come to terms with it better and as such I am begining to eat better.  Why when I am upset do I take it out on myself - I wasn't suffering enough!  I need to get msy sh-- back together.  I should be better now.  It is hard right now because we have junk in the house because we have house guests.  Oh well time and he scales will tell. 
The other interesting thing is that supposedly my sirgeon is leaving and the Baritric Department that I had my surgery in is closing at the end of this month.  I called to make an appointment for follow up and they were not making any.  I later heard that it wasnot being closed, but I haven't called to check it out yet.    well ttfn Ann

I read an idea on the graduate board - 3-4 proetien drinks a day, water - crystal light, jello basically a clear liquid diet.  I am trying it. I also have a nasty cold so just drinking is not really hard, but I still want foos a lot!!  But if it gets me loosing then I (hopefully) can resume my weight loss trail.  I am not sure how long to remain on it though.  While I m meeting my protein needs my calories have gone from over 1500 calories a day to 300 - 350 and I don't want to throw my body into starvation mode.  I am not sure if 2 or 3 days is better.  I'll have to try it and see.  Ann

I have gained all the weight and decided that today was THE day. I was going back to basics clearly no crap. Well I lasted until I got the news that my favorite aunt is dying more rapidly than they thought she would and we may need to get up there (700 miles) before we planned which was next weekend. So I am eating 4 diet oreos. Not basic at all in fact old bad behavior. Oh well I'll mstart again fresh tommorrow. I have to get this steroid weight off. oh well later.... Ann

10/26/06  today is my 1st blog entry.  I beleive that my old profile has the old details.  I haven't entered in a very long time.  My multiple sclerosis (MS) has been bad, my vision in my right eye almost gone but from my weight perspective I am on steroids which means MAJOR munchies.  I can't even remember the last time I didin't have cookies or ice cream for my (any) meal.  I have a couple of days of steroids left and then I need to ge the iron will back and get rid of the crap.  "get back on the horse".  I saw the surgeon I was 6 pounds from goal and I am now 17#'s away.  I will need to get it together, I really hate these extra pounds.  It is ironic coming from a woman who a year ago was 200#'s over.  Oh well enough whining. I need to cook some real super and eat it and not munch.  I'll talk to you all soon