Jul 09, 2012

I know that I've posted about this before.  However, I am really ready for my "extreme loss"  Yes, I am 6weeks out but I've only lost 24lbs so far.  I guess I just expected more by now.  I keep comparing myself to others I've seen and just don't know where I'm going wrong. I just got back to work and REFUSE to fall into old habits by snacking but I am beginning to get depressed.  When I look in the mirror, I don't see much of a change.  I can still wear all my old clothes though they are now comfortable and no longer tight but I want more!

Next mood swing...5minutes

Jun 26, 2012

WOW!!! So I really don't know where to begin.  I've heard of people experiencing high's & low's after surgery but never really experienced it UNTIL today!  It just seems like its one thing after another.  Right now I just feel so misunderstood and unappreciated!  Its like no one understands what I'm going through.  Of course it seems like I'm blowing everything out of proportion but I don't feel like it.  WLS is by far the HARDEST thing that I've ever done in my life.  I just want to feel normal again...


May 31, 2012

I never thought that I would be able to say that I actually feel "normal" again.  Had a few complications (nothing related to the surgery) but I'm back.  I've lost 18lbs since my surgery date and life has really been good.  When you have this surgery, it its EXTREMELY important to have a good support system.  It really makes a difference.  My mom came in and was there to take care of my kids.  My fiance did a GREAT job taking care of me!  My kids have even been "supergentle" with me :-)

Eating-I guess you never really realize how much food comsumes you until AFTER you've had WLS.  Before I was planning meals according to what "tasted good" to me.  I never bothered to look at food labels.  Now, I plan meals according to what tastes good AND what's good for me/family.  I've always been a carb monster...now for some reason...I crave the veggies!!!!

Dinners- Were a little difficult this week.  Not because of the surgery but because when my folks come to town, they eat everything that they don't have in Indianapolis.  KOPPS-Are you kidding me!  I literally had to leave the room.  COUSINS SUBS-I had to leave the room.  the list goes on. 

WATER, WATER,  WATER-Am I drowning????? I feel like I'm gonna pop if I have one more sip of water.  Honestly, I know its not that much considering that I can ony have a sip every 2 minutes but GEESH!!!!!

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god...what i wouldnt do for a sip of sprite....

May 27, 2012

or coke, or dr. pepper...
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oooh...i am feeling a little under the weather

May 26, 2012

well...day 2 post-op. I haven't had to take any pain meds since I've been home.  My stomach is tender to the touch but I've been in more pain before.  I have literally had to force myself to eat.  They aren't lying when they say you're not going to want to eat.  its been hard meeting my water goals daily.  I can barely stay awake and its a little hard to breathe.  the vitamins taste nasty.  ttyl

Its so close....I can taste it!!!!

May 15, 2012

Well...5/24 is just around the corner!!! Seems like I began this journey ions ago.  I am so ready to begin my new life and start over fresh.  My weight has held me back for years and now this tremendous burden is being lifted.  I'm ready to bend over and tie my shoes instead of having to sit and cross my legs to complete the task.  I'm ready to like what I see in the mirror.  I am ready to shop in the "womens department vs. plus sized".  I ready to stop hearing the comment "you're such a pretty girl BUT....." comments.  Life is too short to live unhappy.  This is by far the most important life altering decision I've made...I think its a great one...

I'm in trouble....

Apr 25, 2012

Last week I got my surgery date of 5/24/12.  Here is my problem...I've gained back some of the weight that was required by my insurance for me to lose.  What's going to happen to me?  Can they deny me at this point?


Apr 18, 2012

I GOT A DATE!!!!! 5/24/2012 IS THE BIG DAY!!!

I'm sorry...what is patience???

Apr 12, 2012

Hey guys...Just needed to vent a little.  Right now, I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.  This procedure seems like it will NEVER end.  As if it isn't bad enough that my insurance company required me to complete 6 months weight loss supervision. DONE and now, they're dragging their feet with this.  I almost feel like I'm harrassing my nurse by calling her everyday!!! So I took it upon myself to call Humana and they told me that they still have NOT even looked at my file.  These are the same ppl that wont even let me make it out of the Dr's office before they send me a bill.  This waiting period is a killer.  This is the hardest part.  I guess I'm more anxious to find out if I'll be approved or not?  My parents would like to come in to town when/if I have the surgery but I can't even give them dates to take off of work because I don't even have a date yet.  Slowly, I am making sure that all my ducks are in a row just in case they call me and ask me to come in soon
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AND NOW................WE WAIT!

Apr 03, 2012

OK!  SO I CALLED THE NURSE AND FINALLY.............................................................................................................................................MY DOCUMENTS HAVE ALREADY BEEN SUBMITTED!!!I WAS TOLD THAT IF I DIDN'T RECEIVE A CALL FROM THEM BY 4/6/12, I SHOULD CALL BACK AND THEY SHOULD HAVE A SURGERY DATE FOR ME!!!! YIIPPEE!!!!