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 First 30 min consecutive walk yesterday. Drained and exhausted me for whole day. And only lost a pound. Would I have lost any if I didn't do that? Is it worth the walk for Only a pound a day? I was losing a pound a day and sometimes two with minimal exercise. I just wish it had been two to three pounds lost. The motivation I need to do it again today would've come so much easier.

I am so happy that we have the money to be able to afford all liquid vitamins. I have everything in great tasting liquid format I can mix in with my Vega Protein Shakes. No wonder I'm feeling so much better so quickly. Definitely attribute it to getting my vitamins and protein. And because the protein powder has 25g of protein per scoop, it's super easy to have 4 shakes a day. 

Add to that the Biotin (powder) and Silica (drops) and my hair is healthier than it's ever been. I've done a lot of research on what causes the hair loss and etc and it's from lack of protein and vitamins. So I'm willing to bet that mine will be minimal. Here's hoping!

On the emotional, mood swings, hormone fluctuation front . . . 

For our practice we have purchased a rTMS machine for severe treatment refractory depression. Normally it's a six week, daily treatment which comes out to costing Sixteen THOUSAND!!! by the time all is said and done. And, unfortunately, insurance doesn't cover this new FDA approved treatment for severe, tx refractory depression. 

How does this help me? Well since I am having mild depression, etc I do not need the whole 42 day course and after 1 treatment feel so amazing and so motivated. Did it a week before surgery and wow what a difference it made in my day. So I am doing another treatment today and one on Monday. Things are so much easier when you can utilize modern technology.

Oh and got this liquid water enhancer called Mio. ABSO-FRIGGIN-LUTELY Fantastic! So happy I live somewhere that has so much great new stuff to choose from.

I love my job for what it exposes me to. And within a year I will also be loving my new body (after plastics of course!)

EDIT: the TMS treatment went amazing. I have another one for Monday, but I doubt I'll need it.

Okay, so last night I stopped at Convenience store for a Muscle Milk. Just too tired to make my own. But it has 25g protein ande only 5g of carbs so it's all good. Was drinking normal because the restriction had stopped a few days ago. After 1 large gulp I definitely felt it. So, YES, I am now back to sipping. My doctor recommended pureed stage of food and then in a week after surgery I was supposed to see him. That would'e been Wednesday, but the Great Puppy Adventure stole the show that day. It's a bummer that I can only see him on Wednesdays. Wish he was available more often.

Going to ask him next Wednesday why he didn't tell me he had a website or offer me the post-op menu BEFORE I went into surgery, so I could've planned properly and grocery shopped. The only things I have to eat in my fridge are sugar free jello, sugar free pudding, eggs to scramble (what a lifesaver they have been), and sugar free popsicles. Tried to find yogurt I liked that didn't have sugar. IMPOSSIBLE!

Anyway, going to try going back to work today for a full day. I still think my hormones are out of whack as I don't feel my usual bouncy self. Once I get back to work and am in charge of stuff and making satisfactory progress I'm sure that will change. I'm just so very blessed to be doing what I love But enough time off. My patients are starting to miss appointments without me there and my staff's morale is slipping a bit.

Not sure why I lost all restriction for those 2-3 days. No one really has reported having the same thing happen. But, it's over now and things are back to 'abnormal' LOL

 Was really bummed out yesterday because I had accidentally had 2 cups of soup and crackers. 
Made the mistake of posting on the RNY board and got lynched and still have no real answers. 

Maybe I'm just an ultra fast healer and able to progress beyond soups now and that's why there is no liquid restriction anymore to what I am eating. I was under the impression that took six weeks to happen. But maybe I'm just blessed as being a fast healer.

Have really slacked off on exercise yesterday and today. Though today is barely just begun.

The most exercise I got this week was shopping for MAC cosmetics at mall. Spent 6 hours walking and about $600 dollars! LOL. 

And got a complete makeover. Eyebrows, lips, makeup!! Wonderful day. Probably had so much energy due to the first real meal in a week -- AKA 2 cups soup and crackers.

Just felt so bummed out yesterday. Seemed like it happened after my protein shake and vitamins. 

Still listless and lethargic today. Might be because I haven't drunk much water. Have been drinking lots of ice tea. It has water in it, so just as good, right?

 Walking 15 mins up to four times per day to flush me out.

Protein shakes, vitamins, TONS of water!!!

Had 1 scrambled egg with string mozzarella 

Will boil eggs today to eat. Jenny Craig soups, soupatizers, and chicken/tuna salad will work this week.

Down 8.8lbs since RNY on the 28th. That's 5 days!!

 Ok. So maybe sushi wasn't the smartest idea

Well! Surgery is over and new life has begun. I feel better after this surgery than any other. 

Still working on getting my protein, vitamins, and water but i think i'm doing great.

today will start to walk for exercise. moxie will like that.

it's absolutely a gorgeous day.

had 2 scrambled large eggs today. felt like it might've been a tad too much. drinking my oolong tea and my muscle milk.

trying hard not to smoke . . . but. Well, what's going to be is what's going to be. Maybe this is not the right time for that endeavor. Keeping track of breathing to make sure it's not getting more difficult. 

Ok, so a lot has happened since I last posted, but the important thing is I got the band removed because of horrible GERD! I also had my gallbladder removed at same time because I was having such bad pain when I ate.

I wasn't really following all the band rules and the band requires constant maintenance and 5 hrs trips to get it adjusted were just too much. If you can't commit to sometimes twice weekly trips to get it adjusted then it won't work. Also, they didn't tighten me enough, or would loosen me too much. The surgeons really hate the band at Cleveland clinic because of all the follow-up that's required. So they would do as little as possible to prevent follow-ups.

So, now I am scheduled for a revision, sort of. Since the band is gone now since Oct 2010, it's like having a new surgery. I gained 50+ lbs in the few months since the band was removed. I had wanted to get down to 125-130 with the band but could not get lower than 185. Still from 260-185 wasn't a complete failure.

Now I'm 218lbs and want to lose 100lbs. I'm 5'4" so that is what is considered normal for me.

I'm ready now to have the surgery I wasn't prepared for in 2006 when I went with the band instead. And I know that it won't be a permanent solution, just a boost - a challenging, pain-filled (emotionally/mentally) boost to lose the weight and create habits (exercise and diet) that are lifetime choices.

Hopefully I'll be updating with more satisfying progress a year from now. We shall see . . . .  

Now I have 8 cats but have stopped fostering as I can't keep anymore unwanted ones and there will always be unwanted ones. It's so sad.

On the weight front, I am down to 185lbs. Finally back in normal size clothes. I no longer am able to drink soda, but have started smoking again. I have 4 ccs in my band and am able to eat very very little. I have to make sure I take my vitamins and drink lots of gatorade or I get very weak and feel like I'm going to pass out. It doesn't matter what I eat, popcorn, risotto, etc. I'm only able to eat a few spoonfuls. A half bowl of soup, half a sandwich with the really thin bread, a few thin cut slices of proscuitto, etc. I feel like I'm a little tight, but everytime I go to Cleveland Clinic complaining of needing to be loosed A LITTLE, then take out like 2 ccs. They use the radiograph and if the fluid isn't flowing through rapidly they say it's too tight. When it's like that though I'm able to eat a cheeseburger without feeling restricted. So, I am just adjusting to the new rules I have to live with regarding food portion and choices.

Now, I'm researching plastic surgery options. My inner thighs are hideous, my stomach is hideous. I used to think I would definitely need a boob lift but as I lose weight the sagging goes away. If that keeps up plus adding exercise, I may not need to do that afterall. But no amount of exercise will solve the thigh, stomach problem. By the way, not exercising yet, been too weak, but in a few weeks after I get the hang of all these changes (lost 30lbs in a month, so it's been fast) then I will start the WiiFit. Yes almost a year later and still haven't done it.

The weight loss on a psychological front is changing all sorts of things. I don't have to take antidepressants or anti-anxiety drugs anymore. I do have to take Nexium daily or I get horrible chest pain and the burning gets out of control and when I sleep I sometimes aspirate acid. Meanwhile, me and my significant other (who have been friends for over 20 years) might be separating. He's never been intimate or affectionate with me since I gained the weight and now that I'm losing it, he's not showing any signs of becoming intimate again. He's 20 y/o than me, and says he's just not into it anymore, even though there are pills for that. We moved in together when I got sick and had separate bedrooms because I like to sleep with my cats and he's a clean freak that's afraid the cats will give him germs. He's the love of my life and I have accepted his strange requirements because I love him so much. But now, that I'm turning 38 I'm starting to re-evaluate what I want. He told me he's always lived alone and if I decide that I want my own place, that he'll pay for it and I'll keep the BMW and continue to work for him and drive him to work 3xs a week with dinner afterwards and he'll pay for everything. So, I have a big decision to make regarding where I want my life to go, but if I hadn't lost all this weight the choice would've been clear.

We'll see where I am a year from now. :) I think I'll wait until after my plastic surgery before making any life altering decisions.

Well it's almost the end of 2008 and quite a lot to update on. I now have SEVEN cats! That happened when I became a foster mom for animal care & control. No I didn't adopt the cutest ones out of the bunch, I made a promise not to do that as they would be adopted with no problems. But when they would call me and tell me it had been 3-4 months and no one wanted them, THEN I would go get them and bring them back home to stay forever. Feels really good, because as kittens their time with me was magical and happy for them. So after a few months of losing their litter mates and being in a cage, when they return back to me they feel like they have entered the pearly gates of heaven and are happier than any other cats I've ever seen.

Anyway on the weight loss front, it's over a year later and I'm down to 217.5 from approximately 260 pre-surgery. I know it's slower than a lot of people on here, but I'm thinking maybe it's more realistic. I don't want to be on a diet for life or even for a short time, cuz eventually the diet stops and all the weight comes back. I want to lose the weight eating realistically for who I am as a person. I'm learning what my band defeats are and are vowing to stay away from them on a regular basis: popcorn, nachos&cheese, risotto in a creamy sauce.

I'm drinking regular coke again but I gave up smoking, and drinking so I am allowing myself moderate use of soda. I have no problems at all now drinking it. I still can't guzzle but I've gotten used to that. I take medications at night and sometimes I throw up after cuz of the drooling, but if I manage to time it right with a meal within the previous 2 hours it seems to cause me no problems.

I stopped working out as I was feeling weak all the time. I will start again once I figure something that I can do longterm and not just for a couple of weeks. I really hate starting something and not following through. I'm thinking of getting the Wii Fit and doing that. It looks like a lot of fun and great exercise at the same time. Course the economy is really bad right now so I can't afford it, but I will wait . . . I am patient if nothing else.

I added new pics to my profile. My hair is finally in the cut I like it. I could grow it out this way and be happy with it now. Just those darned grey hairs that make me need to keep putting a gloss back on to cover them up. Grrrr. I turned 37 two weeks ago. This time next year, I fully expect to be down to my goal weight. 

I had gained about 10lbs back in a period of about two weeks, and this week I lost it all plus more and it's still dropping off nicely so maybe now that I have some momentum this will keep up awhile. I have changed what I'm eating though. I stopped going to the movies hungry and make sure I eat before going so I stay away from the buttered popcorn and nachos&cheese. Also at dinner I stopped ordering the easy to swallow risotto in the creamy creamy sauce and have started ordering meat: lamb venison, baby veal chops, lamb chops, etc. All the tender meats that are easy to chew. I feel more satisfied at the end and not like I've overeaten. I really hate that overeating feeling and had gotten used to not having it until I started the risotto up. I am still eating my Lobster Roll at the sushi place. Only now, I am ordering a half order. If I order the full order I end up sitting there for 3 hours and eventually eating it all. I don't gain weight then, but I don't lose it either.

I'm pretty bad about eating with frequency. I eat a bite of something in the morning (pringles snack pack) and then at night about 8-10 hours later I have dinner. I've gotten used to it but it took some adjusting.

Anyway, that's about all for my update. Happy Holidays.