Alisha R.
October 2nd 2010
Oct 02, 2010
Im enjoying this fall weather so much! Today has been a great day its s windy and just hot enough to be outside and not break a sweat! The nights are cooler so we get to leave our windows open. My weight loss is still at a stand still and Im thinking about joining a gym... I hate to admit this but I MISS THE GYM! I dont like going but I love how my body feels the day after. Other then that Im just dealing with some mind games that goes along with the surgery and some mind games that boys play on you! I have being getting much needed advice and I am thankful for it. I read the other day about the increase risk of suicide after WLS. I realize why now! I have had a hard time with my surgery and I went to support groups and I have been the online support. Anyone that says it wont happen to me is just kidding yourself. There is a big adjustment with the surgery whether is RNY (Gastric Bypass), a Sleeve, or A band. I never realized why I was overweight. I never thought there was a reason of why I was over eating. Its not just a love for food. We all love food to a degree. When you find comfort in food that's when you have a problem. I passed the pyshic exam but that didnt going the reason as to why you eat. There needs to be more that the physic exam covers. I know that I was honest but some things the Dr. didnt ask. I want to share my journey and what has happened. I always though that you could just lose the weight and the issues would just leave as the pounds were dropping off. I know that didnt happen. I have realized that I was overweight and an over eater because of my childhood. I lost my dad when I was very young and I had a mom that thought feeding me and a full belly was the way to happiness. I was brought up to think of food as comfort. After my dad died when I was 3, my mom was a single parent that owned her own business. Many times I would play sick to be around her. I felt very lonely as a child. I was an only child that didnt know how to cope with losing a parent. I realized that I was different then all the other kids around 4th grade. By middle school I became very much of an outcast. Trying to become invisible but it was hard to do being the tallest girl and the fattest one in school. I always had friends but it felt like I was alone in the world. In high school I dealt with even more problems then I realized at the time. My junior year I skipped most of my 2nd semester and ended up failing the 2nd semester. I had thoughts of I dont want to graduate without my dad being there. The fact of it though was that he wasnt going to be there whether I fail or I graduated. I graduated with my class in June of 2008!
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About Me
Plant City, FL
Location
40.6
BMI
Surgery
12/22/2009
Surgery Date
Aug 31, 2009
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