Happy Surgiversary

Nov 09, 2011

Today is my 4 year surgiversary.

I hadn't realized it'd been so long since i visited obesityhelp and my profile. I never posted anything last year. But then i've been a busy girl :)

Me and my pouch have been busy travelling all sorts of places, in general it's been good, and while sugar is hit and miss, dumping is very infrequent.  I try to curb the amount of sweets i have and the quantity when i do, a little can go a long way. My labs have all been good and i'm happy to say that i've not had any complications along the way.

Recently due partially from a challenge from the PA at my surgeons office i've taken more seriously the role exercise has to play in my life. Never really embracing phsycially activity i never really got down to my goal weight, but since making a renewed effort i have to say exercise for me especially is a huge key to not only progressing with weight loss but maintaining it. Even 4 years out the combination of using the tool of my bypass and exercising is extremely effective. It's still hard work (i sooo hate morning workouts) but the results speak for themselves. I have some size medium tops in with some loose Larges and and am in a 13 bottom (have a store here that makes the inbetweens 12's are uncomfortably tight 14's unflatteringly loose). XL's are too big and i again found myself this winter having to swap out my wardrobe.

I still struggle with the mental/emotional aspect. I don't know about others but it's still hard to shake the feeling of being your former self. That could just be me. A lifetime of low self esteem doesn't erase itself in 4 years i guess. I'm unhappy with the loose skin i have, although it is minimal compared to others i've seen, but i know it's there and i don't have the finances to do something about it now, and may never have. So it has to be something that i just learn to live with, certainly appreciate being in a fully clothed society..

I hope to continue to make progress in my weightloss. Even though my surgeon's office is happy with me losing 76% of my excess weight, i've now set my own goals that i'm working towards. Everything is new territory here, so i've somewhat arbitrarily set numbers in my head as a goal, but since i've never been any lighter as an adult (and i can say that's been the case for like the last 70lbs of loss) the goal markers keep moving as i see where that number actually leaves me in real life. Things are so much different in your head..

Till next time

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