Motivation

May 19, 2012

Since I have gone back to work I can slowly see my life spiraling out of control again. I work six days a week and I go to college online full-time and I have 3 small children ages 2, 7 and 9. I took as much time as I could from work after the surgery which was 9 weeks (most of which was FMLA and I was not paid), but I cherised that time at home because I was able to just concentrate on me and doing the right things for this huge lifestyle change. Now that I have gone back to work I stress about everything and my hunger has returned. Obviously, this must be head hunger that is triggered by the stress. Also, when I was home I watched a lot of sleeve VLogs on You Tube and was constantly on OH for motivation. I mostly post once a month now with my results and that is it. I think I need to carve out some time for myself to start watching the Vlogs again and logging on to OH. I learn so much from the Vets and even more from the Newbies. I am still a Newbie I guess at four months out, but I mean the pre-op people. Their struggles were my struggles, their concerns and worries were mine to, their desire to get well and get healthy and yes fit into a size ten or twelve pants damnit were once my thoughts and ideas. Best of all I love, respect and admire their hope, positivity and determination regarding the sleeve. I need to get back to that. I once said I am only in this to get healthy and to stop taking all of the medication I needed to take if I want to stay alive. I was not concerned about my outward appearance but, my inward health. Does losing the weight make us more vain? Because suddenly my priorities have gotten twisted and all I think about is the appearance and the saddness I feel because of the loose skin and continued struggle with the battle of the buldge. I need a good swift kick in the ass so I can go back to that hopeful pre-op girl who just wanted her health and life back. So bring it on people, kick my ass, I will love ya for it :)

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