Tirza T.
Mental Insanity During the Christmas Season
Dec 21, 2013
Today was another day that really tested my willpower. I definitely ate anywhere from 40-65 more calories than I normally would on any given day. But, I am not going to beat myself up about it because, I still had nearly 100 grams of protein and was slightly under 20 grams of net carbs. I ate everything that was on my plan. I don't know if it is just the holiday season, all of the added stress of running around twice as much as I normally would or all the food that seems to constantly be in my face...but, staying on plan has been tough and the carb monster definitely wants to come out and play. That b@tch needs to stay on the bench and not get in the game. The only way to do that is by letting the better version of myself play the game of her life. I must be my own MVP. As long as I am in the game doing the best I possibly can, then the carb monster, food addict and compulsive binger will need to stay on the sidelines or on the bench. With any luck I can get that b#tch ejected from the game permanently.
I never truly understood why people always give the advice.."take one day at a time". I didn't get it, it never made sense to me and how did I incorporate that type of metaphoric advice into my life? Then recently lightening struck and I had that "A ha" moment. I get it now and I live by it. I will not be a human yo-yo anymore, going up and down increments of 10-50 lbs over and over and over again. I have finally started to live one day at a time. If I have to, I will take it one hour at a time or minute or second. Whatever needs to be done to calm me down and give me peace and mental clarity to remain focused on my goals and my life. If I hit a stall or the scale goes up a pound; I refuse to continue to see this as a sign of my failure, to only then throw in the towel, undue all of my hard work and become the failure that I feared. I now realize if I hit a stall or gain a pound I need to re-evaluate my behaviors and adjust or, realize that my behaviors were sound and I just need to ride it out and continue to trust myself and what I am doing for my health and my body. Eventually, the scale will show me what I want. If I do not do this history has shown that, that one pound can easily become 10 or 20 or more.
My Christmas wish for everyone on OH (including myself) is mental clarity and strength that will motivate us and see us through another holiday that is surrounded by sweets and goodies. May we make the best choices for ourselves and whatever works for us. Most of all I wish everyone a very Happy and HEALTHY Holiday!
