Andria A.
Frustration....
Mar 10, 2010
I cant possibly explain my frustration and please pardon me if I curse as I dont mean to offend anyone, but dammit I gotta vent... OK.... so I havent posted since October because I suck.... ALSO I am still jumping through hoops for this surgeon.... I have done all this preop testing and all the nutrition supplements and all that jazz... I am just pissed because this is headed for the 5th visit with the damn surgeon when I have already completed Kaiser's entire program!
So why the fuck do I need to now lose extra weight after meeting Kaiser's goal?
Why the program fee of $775?
WHY the repeated psych eval?
Why the repeated NUT (Surgeon's private) appointments? I should have had my surgery by the end of last year... I mean, I got my approval around Sept 12th! WTF!?!?!?!? So THEN, on top of all the shit, I regained 13 of the damn pounds I lost for Kaiser... So now the damn surgeons office says that I need to lose the 13 lbs back down, but THEN another 10-15 additional lbs and they dont wanna move forward until I lose damn near 30 lbs!!!! If I was able to lose the weight in a damn timely manner and keep that shit off, I wouldnt need surgery now would I?!?!?!? What the FUCK! I am so discouraged by the entire situation, so I have contacted my original NUT at Kaiser who runs the wls program and directly works with the approval committee, and I told her that I am not able to pay the $775 program fee and overall I am not happy with my surgeon. She writes me an email back and said that she was surprised that I waited this long to contact her and that she is not sure that my approval is still good OR if they can refer me to another surgeon,,,, I begged and begged her and since she and I have a pretty good rapport, she agreed to contact the committee and try to get me re-approved and my surgeon changed.... I also have decided to switch my surgery to VSG instead of RNY... Kaiser has recently started covering it and I am going to jump on it! If they dont absolutely HAVE to reroute my intestines then I would prefer not doing so.... but at least with the sleeve if absolutely necessary, I can revise to DS,,, But I really dont intend on that happening.... Guys please keep me in your prayers and lets hope that with the new surgeon this doesnt take 3 more months...
My Kaiser NUT said that she should hear back from the committee within a few days! Lets keep our fingers crossed that this turns out for the best.... So in other news, I am separated from my husband that I have been with for 7 years, because I just cant take it anymore...I cant raise him. I dont have any sons and I have been trying to help him to grow up and become responsible with money, kids ect for all 7 of these years, but his mom just raised him to be totally dependent.... He is economically and financially "poisonous" to me and the girls, I have to file bankruptcy mostly due to his irresponsibility as far as getting and keeping a job.... I am not saying that I am an angel, but DAMN! Theres no reason that I should work all damn day and come home from that damn slave compound called work and the whole house is dirty, homework not done, dinner not even out and thawing, NOTHING! No reason why if he needs a doctors appointment or something like that, I should have to make the appointment, take off work to take him there, talk to the damn doctor for him, AND follow up for whatever reason necessary! Its like that in all aspects of our lives... he is like a bag of wet sand that I am forced to carry around..Not to mention that he is also morbidly obese and has the absolute WORST eating habits ever and refuses to change them at all...Its almost like he is playing the "devils advocate" on purpose! He says he supports my wls decision and wants to lose weight but then continues to eat like a crazyman! I hate to sound so mean, because I LOVE this man and he is a great man, but I cant raise him.... we have tried everything to make it work, and I cant let 7 years turn into 14 he is miserable as well, so he moved out (back to momma) and we are proceeding with the divorce....So thats what has been happening lately in a nutshell....
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About Me
Baltimore, MD
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26.1
BMI
Surgery
06/15/2010
Surgery Date
Sep 23, 2009
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