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Son Hunter...The Future Baseball Player!

 

This Me and Adam Im 218 lbs here I believe   

 

Me and my Woderful Fiance'....I think Im somewhere around 218

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I am 25 years old,Im 5ft. 1 in. and 218 lbs. I think I have struggled with my weight for the last 10 yrs. old!Ive never been the so called "Perfect Weight"I always was a little bigger,when I was younger.Ive had to do alot of different test and medicines because of my Endometriosis and they all made me gain weight!I then got pregnant in 2001 after trying for like 6 months or something like that,I remember it felt like forever!!I had to have a laproatomy to laser the Endometriosis and clean out my tubes,my right ovary was stuck behind my Uterus with Endometriosis, so they had to cut that apart,and woke up with 19 staples from the surgery,and was told to try to get pregnant as soon as possible,the sooner the more fertile I would be, so a week later I took a Pregnancy test In January 2001 and found out I was pregnant!!!!!! and 9 1/2 months later I had my little miracle baby boy named Hunter Logan Timmerman who weighed 8lbs. and 6 oz. and 19 in. long!!!He is  now 4  1/2 years old- I had an awsome pregnancy all the way through , I loved being pregnant and feeling my baby kick inside of me!! It was the greatest feeling!! I also have a stepson who is 11 yrs old!And then there's my awsome fiance',Adam, that Ive been with for 7 years!We are practicly married, but Im hoping to really have a wedding sometime soon here, but haven't been able to because of my health and insurance reasons. I was diagnoised with Endometriosis when I was 15,I struggled all through High School with exscruciating pain and having to take pain medicine and being tired all the time....If it wasn't for my mom I wouldnt of graduated High School, I never wanted to go cause the minute I woke up I was in pain, not to mention the whole night of waking up from the pain, but my mom was always like Amber you need to go, you need to graduate cause you need a diploma inable to get a good job after High School and you are going to regret not doing that later in life....So I would go and I would try to do my classes and try to pay attention while feeling what I found out later in life a feeling of being in labor pretty much when it reached its highest of pain! I had to have my Doctor write a note to my counselor.....who I have to add said I would probably not graduate and made me feel even worse about my self......then my counselor sent it out to all of my Teachers my senior year and they all were great except for one guy teacher who was an ASS! I graduated with a low grade average, but I do have my diploma!!THANKS MOM!!! 
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I've been through so many different surgeries , I had 3 laparoscopy's, 2 laparotomys, I had to do Depo pravera, different birth control meds to fake out the Endometriosis and at age 19 I begged for a Hysterectomy to get rid of the pain, but doctor thought I was tooo young and told me I would regret it even though in the state of mind I was in I kept telling him I wouldnt regeret it..and that it needed to be done, and that I would just adopt....I was told to go to Iowa city to see if they had any idea of what to do next, and they wanted to cut the nerves to my bladder and uterus and bowels, My mom and I were to scared to do that. I was also told that having a baby would help the pain of the endo.if I was ready to have a baby....Well after begging my boyfriend, we started to try to get pregnant, and wasnt able to so thats when I had my second laparotomy and they cleaned my tubes and Endometriosis,I got pregnant at age 20, and we were so happy!!!We had a healthy baby boy!!3 months later started having pain eventually I had a Hysterectomy for the last resort, and I m still in alot of pain! 

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This is me at like between 210 - 218

 

This is sooo funny cause I am around the same weight 218,but yet it doesnt look like it!!Trick of the camera angle! 
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I suffer with depression and anxiety because of my weight gain and pain.I ve been on acouple of diets and I lose 5 - 10 lbs. then I gain it back plus more. I cant do much physical work, so I cant work out or walk long distance because of the pain! Sometimes I cant stand on my feet no longer than 5 minutes.I havent been able to work for 3 years now and when I did work it was because we were short on cash and I would call in all the time and leave way early, spend most of my days in the bathroom crying cause noone really understood what Iwas going through unles they had the say problem!  Thank God that I found Adam my fiance' becuase he is a good hard working man that knows how to take care of his family! And TRIES to understand my situation! He doesnt really want me to get this surgery but is fully there for me!
 
 I also have a very close family who have tried to help me get through all of this! My mom had this surgery done- the RNY, about a year in half ago I think and she looks fabulous.....She really needed this cause she has struggled with her weight her whole life pretty much.She is like a totally different person now and has fun!! I love seeing how happy she is now! Loves her picture taken now and never used to!
I hoping that if I get this surgery, my depression wont be sooo bad....And I've had alot of Doctors say " Not that Im saying that its all in your head but most of it might be and with your weight gain it just adds to it" Well I HOPE that most of this is in my head, so when I lose my wieght if I get this surgery, I can go on with my life and enjoy it! Cause right now Im not enjoying most of it!I have thought about death before when I got really low before taking antidepressants because of my pain controlling my life! I dont have those thoughts anymore but am still depressed....and my weight is getting worse and that doesnt help matters...I KNOW!Alright talk to you later

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This is me,my dad,and my mom

Christmas 2006!!!

My mom,Dad,and I

 

My Brother Austin and My Son Hunter

 

 

My brother Austin and my son Hunter 

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   I am like the weather,
always unknowing.


I am like a tornado,
ready to destroy and rip apart with no warning.


I am like a super ball,
going in all directions, of which you cannot control.


I can cause you pain, and
I can make you cry, and
I can make you angry
and you have no idea why


I can make you SCREAM
from the pain,
from the unknowing,
or just because


I can make you confused
or forgetful.


I can make you sick,
and make you stay in bed.


I can make you depressed,
and people think it is all in your head.


I am the BEAST that lives within your body. I am Endometriosis
 

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****June 06, 2006****

Well I went to my family Doctor to talk to him about referring me to a surgeon and seeing if he thougt I would be a good candidate..........well he said I would, I weighed in at 213 lbs., I am supposed to weigh between 105 and 135lbs.my BMI there was a 40. That kinda confuses me cause when I did on here it was lower than that??
My Family Doctor called Dr christophersen's Office( I know thats probably not the right spelling)
And I also talked to Terry from Genisus and talk to her and asked her what my insurance would pay and what there thing is on getting approved.......she said I had to do 6 months of watch diet, and will probably have to pay $800.00 out of pocket......I better start saving cause thats alot of money for me!
I still am kinda scared about getting this surgery, I feel kind of like its a wrong thing to do, but I cant lose wieght on my own, so I think I better go ahead and do this otherwise I will keep gaining weight and watching that scale go up!I dont feel that Im HUGE, but when I see my self in pictures if its not the right angle (LOL) or if its a full body shot then I'm like WOW, I cant believe that is me!

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****June 18, 2006****

Well I am on my way!!! Tuesday I have an appt. with my family Doctor to start my 6 months of supervised wiegh in !!I guess Im getting kinda excited about this, and I know its still way early, but it's all I can think of right now,is me being skinny and beautiful!My fiance doesnt know what he is going to do with a skinnier me cause he thinks my fat is packed in all the right places!! LOL I thought that was funny!!! He has such a way with words!!!

Well today I did a little too much activity! I had my nieces graduation party today and was having fun playing a outside game with the family, that doesnt have much movement, but involves bending at the waist alot and it irritated my stomache and now Im paying for it ! I took some vicodine,but its not helping! It looks like its
going to be a long night!

 


This disease of "Endometriosis" isn't one you hear of every day;
But IT IS insidious, painful and progressive...
as it steals your future dreams away.


Doctors of great knowledge and modern medicine
sadly say, "There is no cure of which we know"
There are experimental treatments, operations and "pain management"
and the research is far too slow.


So you pray and listen for a word of HOPE
to help with the pain you endure;
And you're determined to be BRAVE and STRONG until,
MAYBE SOMEDAY there will be a CURE...


But as this disease takes its certain toll,
you decide perhaps there is something we can do;
YOU CAN SPEAK OUT - GIVE VOICE TO ALL
the silent sufferers;
a calling of the heart that you must follow through...


The path of pain and suffering, no one could choose to go;
but it's been said you can't appreciate the beauty of the highest mountains
until you've walked in the valleys far below.


We support each other with hugs,
Your Endo sis,
Katen - Long Island, New York 

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DIET TEXTURE PROGRESSION FOR GASTRIC BYPASS
THIS IS A GENERAL GUIDELINE OF WHEN TO INTRODUCE VARIOUS FOODS. IT STARTS WITH THE EASIEST FOODS AND ADVANCES STEP BY STEP TO WHOLE FOODS. THE GOAL IS TO EVENTUALLY TOLERATE MOST ALL FOODS, PROVIDING THEY ARE LOW IN FAT AND LOW IN SUGAR... DAYS 1-3 POST-OP: Nothing by mouth to clear liquids. No concentrated sweets or carbonated beverages. Progress from clear liquids to a puree diet. Try to consume 3-4 oz of fluid every waking hour(ie 3-4 oz x 16 hours=48-64 ounces per day)Liquids need to be separated from meals. 3 DAYS TO 3 WEEKS POST-OP: Puree high protein foods and protein powders.Try to comsume 4-6 oz of fluid every hour. You should be consuming approximately 600-750 calories and at least 30 grams of protein. 3-6 WEEKS POST-OP: Soft mushy foods,(juniorbaby food texture),tofu, baked or poached fish and seafood, thinly sliced deli turkey or ham, crackers, and well cooked pasta(avoid bread, dry meat, raw vegetables and fruits). Chew food slowly and thoroughly. 6-12 WEEKS POST-OP: Poultry (no skin), soft cooked vegetables, soft fruits(watermelon, honeydew,peaches,plums) 3-6 MONTHS POST-OP: Rice,soft bread, lean ground meat and turkey. 4 MONTHS POST-OP: Crunchy fruits and vegetables, including salads. 6 MONTHS POST-OP: Lean cuts of beef and pork such as round steak, flank steak, pork tenderloin, center loin chops. Trim all visible fat.
THIS DIET SHOULD ALWAYS BE HIGH IN PROTEIN AND LOW IN WHITE SUGAR AND WHITE FLOUR. PROTEIN FIRST, THEN FRUITS AND VEGETABLES, AND THEN PREFERABLE WHOLE GRAINS. INTRODUCE NEW FOODS ONE AT A TIME. IF THE FOOD IS NOT TOLERATED(DIARRHEA, VOMITING, NAUSEA) THEN WAIT A WEEK OR TWO AND TRY IT AGAIN.




FOLLOW THESE 9 SIMPLE BUT CRITICAL RULES TO ENSURE YOUR SUCCESS
1. EAT THREE SMALL MEALS PER DAY.
Supplement between meal cravings with a protein shake.
2. EAT ONLY GOOD SOLID FOOD.
Healthy foods will fill you up faster than junk food.
3. EAT SLOWLY, SENSE FULLNESS AND THEN STOP.
Remember this is a tool. Let it work for you.
4. THERE MUST BE NO EATING BETWEEN MEALS.
Grazing behavior can add over 1000 calories a day to your intake.
5. TAKE NO LIQUIDS WITH THE MEAL.
Liquids will empty solids from your pouch quickly and you will feel hungry sooner. It may also induce vomiting.
6. ALL LIQUIDS MUST BE ZERO CALORIES (except protein supplements).
Liquids pass right through the small stomach and do not produce a feeling of fullness. It is easy to consume several hundred to a thousand calories a day by drinking alcohol, fruit juice or other non-diet beverages.
7. EXERCISE FOR AT LEAST 30 MINUTES EVERY DAY.
Regular physical activity will keep your weight loss going, reduce stress and help you feel better all around.
8. CONSUME YOUR PROTEIN.
We encourage you to get at least 80 grams of protein a day. Some specialists in nutrition suggest you get a minimum of 100 grams of protein per day. Taking in adequate amounts of protein will aid in preventing fluid retention, muscle loss and will definitely slow down hunger pangs. Patients who consume adequate amounts of protein for their body size will enjoy a much greater weight loss.
9. DRINK PLENTY OF WATER.
This may by taken in the form of any non-calorie, non-carbonated, non-caffeine beverages. Try Crystal Light, Snapple diet drinks or decaffeinated coffee or tea.
 

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This is Me,My Cousin Jo,and My Cousin Erica!At my highest weight!

Me,My cousin Jo,and Erica!@Erica's Bachlorette Party

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****Oct 24,2006****

I am 4 in a half months into my 6 month diet thing for my insurance.......and it is  going pretty fast actually!Ive gained and lost,like always!staying pretty much at my same BMI! Wich if I go lower I won't qualify for the surgery.I think its probably time to call and get all of my other appointments set up now!And hopefully before I know it I will be on losing side!!!My mom Deb Davis, shes in my friends list!will be on 2 years on the losing side this November !And she is doing very well!!!She looks really good!And she is enjoying her life to the fullest now!And I can tell she loves life sooo much better!I hope that I do as well she has!!She is worried about me,but I tell her not to worry,that I will be fine!Ive got through all my other surgeries,soo this should go just fine!Love you Mom!!! 

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****October 30th, 2006****

 

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Well today I talked to Terry The person thats helping me with all of this at the bariatric Center...And she had set up my apptointments!!!!November 2nd, 2006 - Talk with Thresa the Nurse @ 9 am!!                                  - Dietician appt. @ 10amNovember 13th, 2006 - Psych 1 pm ( They say it will take about an hour  or hour in a half)I will have to pay 500.00 out of pocket for that,and that has to be paid 10 days before surgery!Ive have been doing really bad with my 6 month dieting thing!I dont think Im suppose to lose wieght nor really gain weight,but I am losing a couple then gaining like 3 back and so on!So I just wighed myself up in the bathroom and it said 221 lbs??????What is up with that?!I know I dont eat really healthy,but Im still kind of watching what I eat!Its obvious that I have a weight problem,otherwise I wouldnt be doing this surgery!So hopefully the insurance company, doesn't says something like..........It doesnt look like you have been trying with this 6 month supervised weigh in!I dont think you are ready for this surgery!.................I hope that doesnt happen!I am ready for this surgery!I was right by my mom's side through out her whole time studying this surgery,I was right there reading the same stuff!I was there when she had the surgery,I was there helping her with her liquid diet!I know what to expect!I have read the good and the bad!I do hope that my surgery goes as good as my moms did!And I hope I do as well after the surgery too, just like my mom!I hoping my last 2 months of supervised wiegh in's go pretty fast!

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****11/07/06****

Well every thing seems to be going pretty smooth so far!Except for my life,Well I was going to start  working again after 2 yrs,nowhere important,just Walmart.They called me and asked me if I was going to beable to make orientation on Wed. @ 9 am,even though they know I am dropping my son off at preschool at that time,it says it right on my availabilty!But anyways this was left on message on my phone,so I called them back and ask for the woman that hired me(Mindy)and of course she wasnt there,so I talked to a different person,who was rude.................I told her I will try to make it by 9am or a little after,she tells me,no, you need to be here by 9 am cause there is other people that are doing the orientation with me.Im like well Im going to try,its not like I hadnt told them before that I have a 4 yr old and I cant work until 3 because of him going to preschool!Well basically she was just rude!And its  not a good start to me going back to work!Plus I just found out that I have no babysitter,so I will have to find someone to do that,and pay them for that,and I really dont know how all of this is going to work,casue Im starting to work so I can make my $1,000 for the surgery that I have to have out of pocket!But if Im paying a babysitter while only working part time and not @ good pay!Its basically going to take me forever!On top of all of this Hunter doesnt want me to go to work,cause he wants me to be here with him all the time he says.I said dont you want extra stuff,new toys or whatever,and he said no and was going to start crying,I feel so bad!He says mom its not good!My fiance just got his child Support raised,double the amount it was!I think its just wrong, when they do this to good dads!He does everything for his son,but yet,EX gets $550.00 for childsupport!We dont even spend that much on Hunter,not even close,we can afford too,and now we definetly cant!I dont know how that works,on how you can spend that,but I dont think its all going on there son!She has 4 other kids,and owns a house now,  2  cars.And here we are struggling with everything!We lost our home because it was based on both of our incomes,and I had to stop working cause of my Endometriosis!So now we have that on our credit!I cant have anymore kids!I know poor poor me!But this is my blog and I am going to vent!So I dont know what to do,I dont know how there is ssooo many working mothers out there???I feel like Im stuck!Im not going anywhere and I need help getting out of a big deep hole! Hunter is wanting to do sports,how the hell do you do that,when you have a dad that is working 60 hrs a week,to pay the bills and pay child support!Is barely home,and not because he doesnt want to be,but becuase he has to be, to just get by!And then I need to go to work to make up for the child support,but dont have a babysitter,need to take my son to sport practices,to school,be there for him!I am lost!!!And I am very confused???!!!???

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****11/21/06****

Well today I found out that I passed my psych availuation!!!So I am not crazy!!And I have an appointment with Dr. Christopherson on Dec. 19th at 9 am!!!!!!!!!I am getting closer and closer!!And at the end of Dec. they are suppose to send in my letter to the insurace company from my family doctor,saying Im medically needy and My 6 months of weigh ins!!!And then I will find out if I am approve somewhere around there!!Keep your fingers crossed for me!!!!!!

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****December 21,2006****

Well I had a Dr. Appt. with Dr. Christophersen,and he is really nice!!I feel I have alot of confedence in him!Im a little nervous,the waiting is crazyness!!I found out that I have a hernia from my last surgery I had this year.I didnt even know that I had one,and Ive never had one before.He said he is going to have to make a seperate incision to repair the Hernia. He also says I have about a 85% chance I will be able to have a lap done instead of open!!!!WOOOHOOOLets just keep our fingers crossed for me during my surgery!He also had said dont be surprised if I wake up and he had to open me all the way instead of  just the lap.Man oh man I hope he doesnt have to do that,Ive already have enough major scars!So Im hope that this waiting game isnt long!I wont beable to get the surgery untill after taxes!Cause thats how Im paying for it!I have to pay $1000.00 out of pocket 2 weeks prior to surgery.I wish they would just let you do a payment plan afterwards!That would be sooooo much better so I wouldnt have to wait till I get my taxes back!So everyone that is reading my story keep your fingers crossed for me,and pray that I get approved!!!!Talk to you  later!!!! 
 

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My whole family Christmas Eve!!
My whole family!!!
This is my family christmas 2007
Christmas 2007  

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****Jan.4th,2007**** 

Today is a very special Day for two reasons...............today is Adam's Birthday!! He is 28 yrs old!!!And I  just found out I am approved for my surgery!!!!!!!And Im thinking Im going to be having my surgery on March 5th,2007!!!!Thats is the only time I will beable to have the money to pay for it!I have to pay $1035.00My Appt. Dates are....Feb.15th I see Denise the dietician @ 10 amDr. Christophersen @ 10:30 amFeb.26th Pharmacist Wesley @ 10 am@10:30 am I see Dr. Bingbridge(something like that,I couldnt hear her)@ 11am I see Clair the physical Therapist@12 pm I see a NurseSo wish me luck!!!Talk to you later!We are off to go celebrate my fiance's Birthday at his sister's house !Here is something I made that I thought was funny!!Here is what I want to look like!!!! HAHAHA Love It!!!This is actually my face,and I think it looks so weird!!

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****Jan.9th,2007****

Well Ive had a stupid flu going on 4 days now,and its the one that stays with ya for like 10-14days.And Im already sick of it!!Adam and Hunter already had it.......I think they got around the same time,cause they have both gotten over it recently.Well....I have been having some discomfort in my stomach.Some is on the right side like it always has been,and the other kind of scares  me,and I think its because Ive never have had a hernia before,and I dont know if this pain Im feeling down by my hernia is from the hernia or is actually just in my head.......And I hate saying this, cause this is all I heard my whole life about my Endometriosis pain.........So Im not sure what to think.............even though I knew the Endometriosis pain WAS NOT in my head!The feeling is like a pulling feeling,and sometimes  sharp pain on the right side,it also feels like its getting bigger(the buldge,where my hernia is) The hernia is right at the bottom of my stomach down into my pubic region.I think more or less Im just scared,and would like it taken care of before it gets worse or something!But Dr. Christophersen seems to think that its ok,and that it can wait untill my surgery on March 5th.I do trust him,he is a very good doctor!

Well today I have an interview at Family Video,Im still not totally sure what to do,and here is my reason,Im haveing my surgery March 5th,which isnt too far away,and we are struggling finacially,so Im having to work,but Im sick of working these dead end jobs,at places I really dont want to stay at my whole life,and Im sick of getting jobs like Im still a young teenage girl......But here is my problem,I dont want to go get a good job,where I want to work,for the rest of my life,and then screw it up,by telling them,I have to have surgery,and be got for 4- 8 wks........You know????!!!!SO Im stuck!!! It sure is hard to grow up......................I really want to change my life around,since God has given me a second chance at life,with being pain free for so long and however much longer,hopefully forever!And when I say change my life around,I dont mean Im a bad person,cause Im not,Im just sick of sitting at home and watching our family struggle,becuase of my Endometriosis,cause in this day and age,both parents have to work,unless.....the Husband is not paying child support,and has a very good job,because they went to school,or becasue they were just dealt a  good hand in life!I would love to get a job working with babies!!Toddlers!!!I just dont know where to start.....And cant seem to find the time to do so.....I so wish that I hadnt had Endometriosis when I was younger,so I could of went to school after highschool,before I had a child,and became somebody important!!That helped kids out!Now its just too hard to be away from Hunter way too long!I cant go to school and go to work at the same time and be a parent................but I also want Hunter to get what he needs  and wants......I want to beable to own a home,a home that was stolen from me because of Endometriosis 5 yrs ago!Im tired of seeing everyone else around me succeed!I am a freaking good person,and I deserve better,my whole family does!!I am tired of struggling!

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About Me
Davenport, IA
Location
35.0
BMI
RNY
Surgery
03/05/2007
Surgery Date
May 25, 2006
Member Since

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Latest Blog 39
Hi everyone!!Im sorry I havent been on here in a while.....
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My man in a tux!! Sexyyyyyy!!!
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Just a new update down 46 lbs.
Well Im down 41 lbs. by my scale!!!
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Kidney Stones
picture of me, a month out weighing 198.5
4wks - 20 lbs. weigh 199.5

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