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Been a while since I have posted an update, so here I am at 17 months post op writing an update for anyone who actually cares to read.  I have been maintaining my 115 lb weight loss since 9 months post op.  I bounce between 138 and 143 lbs.  I wear a size 5 pants and a medium shirt.  I eat everything and anything.  White four gives me gas.  I upped my carb intake to stop losing weight.  I am sure at some point that will come to an end and I will have to watch my carbs, but for now I eat more to maintain.  I am loving life and all this DS has allowed me to accomplish.  I have taken part in 2 5Ks so far.  I have found that I enjoy running.  Just every day tasks like picking things up off the floor, getting clothes out of the dryer, climbing stairs.. are so much easier.  I am so glad that I made the decision to have the DS.

Today is the first day of my pre op diet.  I will be having surgery on August 11th.  :)  It is getting so close I am soo super excited!

Started a blog:
http://pathwaytotheswitch.blogspot.com/

So Tonight is my first ever walk with relay for life.  I am very excited.  My husband and I are both walking with team Hi Hope.  So I am going to count how many laps I can do per hour then how many hours I can walk straight.  Then next year will hopefully be my post op year and I can compair.  I know my back, legs, and feet will be hurting but I am going to push myself just to see what I am capable of.  Then maybe next yr it will be better.  Wish me luck!!

No soda Day #4..  AND I have a headache.. YUCK.  Figured I would quit now before surgery and maybe help with the pre weight loss.  Hope my husband stays on board and doesn't bring soda home.  He is not quitting soda. He says he "needs" the caffine.  So he can have it at work but it totally can not be in the house..that would suck wicked bad and my whole not drinking soda deal would go out the window.

So I called my insurance company and the DS is a covered serivce.  :)  no requirment of a BMI of 50.  YAY  I am so excited.

So last night in my A&P2 class we started the digestive system.  We we going on for about an hour and I knew it was coming.  I knew he was going to say something and he did..  Gastric bypass... He went on a rant about gastric bypass, half of the information was untrue.  What is sad is that he is trusted by the 60+ students in the class to give truthful information.  I was so mad after he got done with his little rant.  Who is he to say anything.  "Most people who get the surgery, should have never been excepted, as they are just going to go back to their old habits".. "in RNY surgery they cut the stomach in half, cutting in down to half a liter"  He then went on to explain how RNY is done and never mentioned any bypass of the small intestine or anything.  It was almost like he was kinda describing the sleeve but even that would be wrong.  He just had no idea what he was talking about.  It was irritating.  So that is my little rant LOL...

SO first off I will give a little back round into my family.  I was one of three girls.  My mother and my father both small, 5'2, 5'3 My father was thin but now has a little pot belly.  My older sister 5'3 was thin with big boobs growing up and my little sister 5'2 and has always been a stick like my mother.  Me on the other hand 5'6 and have been big since 8.  My sisters have always picked on me for my weight everything from fatso to 12 rolls.  I had a dozen ya know... anyway.  so since coming out and saying I am going through the process of hoping to get WLS my sisters are very against it.   My older sister has gained alot of weight in her adulthood.  She now is smaller then me but still qualifies for surgery.  She even want as far as to say that me having the weight loss surgery was going to make me a bad mother because my daughter would wind up having anerexia b/c she was going to see me eatting so little.  That is how much she knows nothing about the surgery.  My little sister was just like, well you got down in size once (lowest weight 182) Why don't you just do that again.  OMG.... so anyways one day I was looking through the before and after pictures on here and seen this one VERY dramatic change.  So I was like come look at this to my little sister.  She was like that is crazy.  Your not gonna get that small are you??  I didn't really know how to take that.  My response was well, IDK..  I have never been thin so it is hard for me to imagine me being that way.  But that is the goal..  That then got me thinking about what goals I have to get out of surgery.  I am so scared of failure I don't even want to set a weight  goal for me to fail reaching.. Does that make sence?  It is almost like my sisters are not being supportive because what if I do get that skinny.. Then my little sister will no longer be the only thin one and my older sister will then be the fat one.  Is it bad of me to think that this is the reason that they are being so unsupportive.  I have other goals that really have nothing to do with the scale and that is enough for me right now.  I want my knees and back to stop hurting.  I want to wake up feeling like I have slept.  I am good with that.

So I am half way though my 6 months.  I have my psych appt coming up on the 16 and then my sleep apnia test on the 27th.  On the 29th I have my 4 month appt at the baratric center in which I will attend a behavior modification class.  I am starting to get a little jittery.  Nervous!!. 

So I have been going through the 6 month required weight loss program prior to approval from the insurance company.  When I started this program my BMI was like exactly 40.  So with no health conditions this is what is required.  Only isssue is that during this 6 month program, I am supposed to lose some weight.  If I lose weight I can get denied the surgery by my insurance company for a BMI that is to low with no health issues.  So now I am in a catch 22.   I am worried about gaining and losing.  IDK what to do.

As I have been going through my pictures trying to find some to upload on here for my before pictures, I have noticed that 99% of picutres of me are face shots.  Nice..