Victory Kid
I am 37 years old and I am weigh 282 pounds, and gaining weight every day. I look at myself in the mirror and think, “I look awful at this size”. I weighed 170 pounds in 1992 after the birth of my first child, 230 in 1995 with second child and 265 with my third daughter. At the beginning of 2008 I went to the doctor and weighed 297 pounds and I was devastated. I have five children in which two are adopted and want to be able to live to see their children.
I am the youngest of six children and needless to say the fat that my mom would call “baby fat” is now “grown up fat”. I have battled with being overweight all my life and being picked on by my siblings because they are all thin. I realized that I was fat in high school we all were trying on our caps and gowns and someone asked, “Why my gown was different?” I was at 185 pounds compared to the little 100 pound girls.
I try to excel and master every task but to overcome the real issue that I have “overeating” has been the hardest for me. I'd tried several different diets out there, from Slimfast shakes to prescription pills to “fat doctors” getting shots and appetite pills, and yes, even Weight Watchers. I'd become a yo-yo pro, easily losing up to 40 pounds, then gaining it all back. I feel that I am basically eating myself to death and at this point. Everyday I start fresh with a new plan and a strong desire to lose the weight but I have not been very successful and I need help.
I feel that my spouse and children are ashamed of my weight although I feel that they love me very much. I think about my weight constantly and I feel that it prohibits me to enjoy life to the fullest. I feel that a roller coaster will not close so I don’t ride with my family. I want to ride a plane without an extender or feeling like I am in someone’s personal space. I want to volunteer at my child’s field day and be physically involved more than I am now. I want to experience life and not just look at it from the sidelines.
