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Progress
Jun 06, 2010
It's been a minute! Wow, so much is going on. I am maintaining my current weight, however, I do feel guilty about my lack of excercise. I haven't loss any more weight but I believe I have gain 4 lbs. I will have to work on that. I believe I may have become comfortable and I certainly do not want to forget the hardwork it took to get me here. So far I am holding steady in a size 10-I think I would like to stay this size or go down to an eight. I feel better than I have felt in a long time. I am so thankful God gave me the courage to have this surgery!
WHO YOU ARE COMES OUT IN THE FIGHT...
Jul 11, 2009
Shopping has never felt this good!
Jul 11, 2009
I have been holding onto my old clothes. Don't ask why...mental thing I gues. I have decided to donate them to a women's shelter. So far I have seven garbage bags full of clothing. Crazy huh? Well, I am currently a size 12 and loving it! My goal is to exercise more. Wednesday I did 30 minutes on the eliptical machine (without crying ) It felt incredible. I hope to up my routine to 3-4 times a week. I am sure my lack of excercise is hindering my weight loss progress. All in all I feel great. I don't cringe when I see myself on camera. I still see the same person in the mirror, but I FEEL different. I think I will take some current pictures to see the difference.
Six months...and lack of progress
Mar 29, 2009
I don't know if I have hit a plateau or if I am just "plain and outright" doing all of the wrong things. I am embarassed to say I have only lost 60lbs. That's right only 60! I know it's me. When I look at my pictures I fail to see success. I believe my constant mental battle associated with my relationship with food is a factor. I attribute my lack of loss to drinking, lack of excerise, intake of high calories and who knows what else! I am disappointed and embarassed with myself. I have done so many things wrong I just want to start using my tool right. I won't dewell on all of the things I am doing wrong. I do know that at this point I should be further along. I amy going to try and step up my exercise and reevaluate my food intake. Pray for me and wish me luck. I have the tool-I want to use it efficiently!
RESOURCE
Feb 14, 2009
I discovered a cool new resource on one of the message boards. Check out:
www.thinnerself.com
The website was developed by a weight loss surgery patient and offers good information.
OOONNNEEEDDDEEERRRLLLAAANNNDDD
Jan 18, 2009
I AM FINALLY THERE! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! THIS IS A WONDERFUL MOMENT IN TIME! I HAVE MADE IT TO ONE-DERLAND! I WEIGHED MYSELF THIS MORNING AND MY WEIGHT DIDN'T START WITH A "2"! NOW I KNOW HOW IRENE CARA FELT WHEN SHE SANG "WHAT A FEELING" I DANCED AROUND MY BATHROOM SCALE LIKE A CRAZY WOMAN! I HAVE TO ADMIT I PROBABLY COULD HAVE MADE IT HERE A LOT SOONER IF I WASN'T SUFFERING FROM ISSUES SURROUNDING WORK AND MY PERSONAL LIFE WHICH RESULTED IN MY LACK OF CONSISTENT EXCERCISE. BUT TOMMORROW WILL BRING....AND I AM HERE! WHAT A FEELING!
...and as Irene Cara sang....take your passion and make it happen! I decided to paste the whole song! What a feeling by Irene Cara
First when there's nothing
But a slow glowing dream
That your fear seems to hide
Deep inside your mind
All alone I have cried
Silent tears full of pride
In a world made of steel
Made of stone
Well, I hear the music,
Close my eyes, feel the rhythm
Wrap around, take a hold
Of my heart
What a feeling
Bein's believin'
I can have it all, now I'm dancing for my life
Take your passion
And make it happen
Pictures come alive,
You can dance right through your life
Now I hear the music
Close my eyes, I am rhythm
In a flash it takes hold
Of my heart
What a feeling
Bein's believin'
I can have it all, now I'm dancing for my life
Take your passion
And make it happen
Pictures come alive,
Now I'm dancing through my life
What a feeling
What a feeling (I am music now)
Bein's believin' (I am rhythm now)
Pictures come alive,
You can dance right through your life.
What a feeling (you can really have it al)
What a feeling (pictures come alive when I call)
I can have it all (I can really have it all)
Have it all (pictures come alive when I call)
What a feeling!!!!
Finally...Juice I can drink
Dec 19, 2008
So...this is going to sound very "unimportant" but I finally found a juice I can drink YEAH! I have been having a hard time finding juice that doesn't make my stomach "clinch". But finally I lucked upon a juice called "Motts for Tots". The juice is good, it comes in a small container and is cut with a nice amount of water. The juice drink comes in a bottle and small box (the only thing about the small box is that it requires a straw). Actually you can squeeze the juice out of the box into a cup. I just thought I would mention it because I really have a hard time finding juice, even the 100% fruit juice, that won't make my stomach do flips .
Protecting the "old me"
Dec 13, 2008
This is going to sound wierd but...I find myself still taking up for the old me. I still want to protect that fat girl inside. I have received compliments at work about my face. Many co-workers and friends shared with me that they can see the weight comming off in my face. And what do I do? I immediately get my hackles up and ask "what was wrong with my old face?!" It's wierd but I feel like I have to take up for the "original" me. If you get what I mean? I don't know if it's my barrier to compliments or if I trying to protect that big girl with self-esteem issues. But I know it's ridiculous. OF COURSE THERE WAS SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH THE OLD ME! That's why I had the surgery. It's obvious I was not happy with myself or I would have continued on that way. If I'm honest I would say "thank you" because I love the way I can now see the bone structure of my face and I love the ways my body indents before my hips! So I am working on letting go of that protective barrier and accepting the compliments with a smile. This tool God gave me is a blessing and I will stop trying to protect that old me and start enjoying the new me.
...I always feel like somebody's watching me....
Nov 07, 2008
...and more good news! I am now able to eat regular food (smart food in small portions of course!) I find that I eat slower now and my stomach definately lets me know when I have had enough!
So, now this next thing. Maybe I am paranoid but I feel like people (at work) who are aware of my surger watch everything I put in my mouth. Do you know what I am saying? It feels like they are watching the amount I eat, what I eat, and how long it takes me to eat. I have had some poeple who told me they know people who have had the surgery and they gained their weight back. I persist that I know the weight may come back. After all the surgery is a tool, the rest is up to me. I have chosen to share my surgery information with everyone but at what cost? I shared the informaiton because I know several women like myself who could benefit from medical intervention. So, honestly, despite my paranoia I am going to continue to shared...and if they are watching me...well...I hope they pick up my good habits.