Amanda S.

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Well I am down roughly 118lbs.

Just getting used to things others take for granted everyday!!  Crossing legs for one!! That I am really enjoying.  Running on a treadmill without being winded!! Climbing stairs!!! (Love it)  Doing things that I didn't even know I wanted to do.  It is funny how when you have a lot of energy how much more you actually want to do!!! I was reading the forum today and I saw how someone is having sooo many complications from their surgery and I felt so badly for them.  I still would say for the hundreds of others to just do it.  I am kinda apprehensive about recommending it to anyone because I don't want them to go through with it and then having complications but I feel it is the right decision for so many people.  I truly think I am learning who I am now as opposed to before.  And I really liked myself before but I am truly liking myself even more.  I guess because I am one of those people who the weight did not even start to bother me until it was my time to change. But the year prior to surgery it bothered me a great deal. I guess because it was my time. Maybe because I was so busy focusing on everyone and everything that I never took time for me.  Now I take time for others and for myself.  I know one scripture says to love your neighbor as you love yourself well now I am not only loving my neighbor but loving myself too. Learning how not to feel guilty when needing to rest or take care of myself.  I think the DS has helped me in more ways than one. If not directly then indirectly.  I was so upset and defensive when anyone discussed my weight because everyone had the problem but no solution.  So even though I saw the weight I didn't really see it.  God has been extremely good to me because I only really notice the weight moreso now because I am focused on it and knowing that I still have some weight to lose. Which is soooooo crazy because everyone who sees me say "wow you look so great!!"  So I guess the outside is catching up with the inside.  Because I always felt great!! People say "You are really pretty!!!"  And for years I use to say that to myself all the time!!  So this is crazy.  I don't even think I am making sense right now.  I guess you would just have to experience it to understand.  Also I say God was extremely merciful to me because no one really ever treated me cruelly about my weight.  Or if they did, I never noticed!!! A lot of my friends tell me horror stories and they were never as heavy as I was.  In fact,  I have noticed that quite a few really thin people have people calling them names all the time.  I never experienced that.  Well then again I never insulted people either.  As a child yes but as an adult, no way.  I know that was only the mercy of God.   I am truly just grateful for the opportunity that the DS has given me even if I didn't know I needed it.  Those of you who know what I mean will understand.  For all the rest. Sorry if I am truly sounding like I don't make sense!

Yaay for me!!  I put the pic up!! What is so funny is that I can't see it!!!  Sounds stupid but to me I see little changes but people around me are like!! Oh my God sooooooooooo I guess they would know!!  I still am glammed up.  Still dressing and wearing make up etc... But its still hard to see.  I see the male reaction which is always a good thing.  Never knew that it would feel so good.  I guess I would recommend this to anyone and everyone because you just don't realize the advantages.  I am really liking it

I am a lot quieter now!!!  Wow!!who knew???  I guess with all the extra attention lately I am lot more laid back.  Also I have been working on me un DS related. I have been trying to let my anger about past issues go and I am becoming a calmer individual.  I was in TGI Fridays this week with a friend and one of the workers was flirting and slipped me his number.  Of course he is 25 and much too young for me but it was sweet. My friend was egging the whole situation on as if I am looking for a bed partner!! That just isn't me.  Glad to know I still have it but that is not who I am as a person.  My friend felt totally upset that the guy didn't talk to her!! Which was shocking to me because she is married. Oh well life is funny. I am learning not to sweat the small things.


Take care
Amanda

Well I am still a fairly new DSer but being 70lbs down from my highest weight has really helped me.  I decided to post this in order to encourage those who are comtemplating the DS.  Yes the first couple of months I was feeling real funky, icky and food either didn't taste right or didn't sit right with me. Even now high carb foods still make me feel a little bloated and/or queasy but I shouldn't be eating those anyway.  Overall my energy levels are through the roof!!!  I am a whole new person because I am reinventing my myself every day.  I am nowhere near goal but trust me I am a true Diva to heart!!  I don't dare go out without being dolled up makeup fresh etc.... Prior to the DS I was probably sooooooo fatigued I just didn't care.  Above all what I appreciate the most about the DS is that I still have days when I miss the mark.  I still eat entirely too many donuts if I am really stressed but unlike before I will actually lose weight instead of gaining 5lbs in a day. Another thing I appreciate is the energy I have.  I walk more voluntarily which never happened before.  The fatigue, malaise, or whatever it was that held me back before is no longer there.  I am trying new things and overall just finding out who I really am.  The energy has helped and I am laughing a whole lot more. Although I laughed alot before but I am finding things just a bit funnier now.  Anyhoo I am gonna stop now but I really think if you wanna try it you should just dive on in!!

Take care

Amanda

12/14/09 314.0-  43.0 lbs
Day of Surgery 357.0- 43.0
Highest known weight    374.4 -60.4lbs

She was unconscious all these days in renal failure.  Now she is conscious. Very weak but conscious. God has been very merciful to us.

She is in ICU in renal failure.  They just started her on dialysis.  We need so much prayer.  I am just realizing when your parents get older you have to make sure that you help them.  This was soooooooooooo avoidable.  Being younger than them we assume that they always know what's best.  If anyone has aging parents, make sure they go to the doctor and even if they are unwilling, Make it a priority.

Lucky I had on a coat!!!  Never again will I wear elastic pants with no belt.. I only bought those 2 weeks ago!!!!  I was running for my train and down they went.  Anyway my DS is sure working!!!  I never wore a belt because I could never find one that fit. I think I need to rethink that.   The guys are actually following me around now. Although I never had a problem in that dept.  I am dressing better now since my weight is not something I am stressing. I now wear my make up every day and take pride in how I look. I think the DS helps mentally as well. I guess when you know that you look good you try even harder.  Who knew? And the guy!!  The harrasser!! You know the one I have been trying to ignore my feelings for a few months now actually took my picture the other day!!!  Yay me!!  Anyway I am extremely appreciative.  My coworkers are saying I seem more confident.  I think I feel less overwhelmed by the weight thing.  All my life the weight never really bothered me.  But this last year it was really getting on my nerves.  I guess because I was really trying to get rid of it and it wouldn't  budge!!  Anyway those are my wows for now.  Everyone thinks that next year I won't be speaking to them.  But actually I would prefer to stay with those who loved and appreciated me all this time.

Take care
Amanda

11/14/09 321.8-  33.0 lbs
Day of Surgery 357.0- 35.2
Highest known weight    374.4 -52.6lbs
 

Just got a new hair do today and I am soooo happy about getting the DS.  I am not near goal but I can already see the changes in me.  I am no longer struggling to get weight off.  I am no longer stressed about it.  Got my hair did.. LOL.  Lashes and Brows done and I look like a totally new person.  Feeling great .  I feel just like a person feels after they finish school and have landed their dream job.

I am really starting like this DS and what it has done for me.


Or maybe its the new guy that I like that keeps harrassing me everyday!!!  LOL....

Either way it feels good being me right now!!