Amy D.
I suppose I should write about ONEderland...
Jun 10, 2012
Okay, to be honest, I hate the term ONEderland. Cheesy plays on words kinda irritate me. Although I do love a good pun, so maybe I'm just trying to be one of the cool kids who's too good to say ONEderland. Who knows. The important thing here is that I now weigh less than 200 lbs. Call it what ever you want, it is fabulous to be on this side of that particular heart breaking number. You could even say it's....ONEderful.
I reached this goal on May 28th, according to my weight loss journal. I'm not sure why I didn't post about it then. I think there is a part of me that has bought into the whole "WLS is cheating" crap. And it's not as if anyone has expressed that sentiment to me or anything, but I sometimes feel as if my weight loss accomplishments don't mean as much since I had the surgery. Like when I report to my weight loss email buddies (neither of whom had surgery) it's like, "well of course you're down again this week....you had surgery and it's EASY for you." But they don't say that. Hell, they are encouraging and excited for me. So all the perceived negativity is squarely in my own messed up head. Also, I've always been the sort to downplay my accomplishments so perhaps that is why I'm not tooting my own horn. I just don't like attention, even when it's positive. I think a lot of people were raised to take humble to unhealthy extremes. I know my husband gets very frustrated with me when he gives me a compliment and I deflect it like it's radioactive waste or something. Like it's bad to graciously accept a genuine compliment or something! This is probably something I should work on, but it's hard.
So, as difficult as it is for me, I'm going to say I am PROUD that I have lost 80 lbs. as of this morning. Going from 272 to 192 is a huge accomplishment for anyone regardless of how their digestive system works. I am PROUD that I know I will continue to lose weight. I am GLAD that I have a tool I can use that will help me achieve the goals I need to achieve. And when my husband tells me that I look great I will say, "Thanks, babe, I do look pretty good, don't I?"
And that will feel ONEderful.
