Hello!! My name is Carmen and I have battled my weight all of my life. I've always struggled with accepting myself even after having my WLS. I had surgery in May 2003. I've not reached my goal yet and I've seen the scale go both ways. I don't know if I'll ever reach my goal weight. I know that I'll try, but what is considered successful? I feel I'm a success story.
I have a long way to go, but I've come a long way. I will always be a work in progress. I have to learn to love and accept myself at any weight. This is something that is difficult for me since I'm used to having total disdain for myself since I was a child. I have changed my way of thinking since my surgery. I knew going in they weren't performing brain surgery but a little part of me believed the surgery was going to be the answer to everything. I focus on food a lot. I know that is something we as post ops need to do. But I need to remember that it isn't about the food. Obesity in my case was never about the food. I have always fed my emotions.
I have an uphill climb ahead, but I have no doubt I'll conquer the summit. It won't be a victory with a number on the scale, but instead it will be a victory of gaining optimum health and turning self loathing into self love.~*