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I have been overweight for almost all of my adult life. I have tired all the diets known to man and I just could not seem to stick to them and lose any significant weight. I had gained and lost the same 20 lbs a million times. 

I lost my mom in 9/2012 and I just gave up trying. I gained quiet a bit of weight and I was feeling like my health was just failing. I went to see my Dr in April of 2013 and she told me I was borderline diabetic and had high blood pressure. she suggested I start a few medications. I begged her to let me try to get serious and for a few months, I really was trying. But a year later in June, and with new health insurance I went in for a physical. I was diabetic and in need of medication and still hypertensive and just given a run down of all the physical things that I could not do. In June I was 423 lbs and I was just terrified of going on like this anymore. My Dr suggested that I think about gastric surgery and she referred me to Dr Emma Patterson. 

In July I started the liquid modified diet to lose a few lbs before surgery. It was hard to drink shakes all day while everyone was enjoying bbq's and family parties, and I developed a hate for food. I was so angry that food had the hold it did over me. I was obsessing over the food and not the fun of the situation. It was during this time that I realized I had given food way too much power. 

I really decided that the surgery would be my best option because I needed something permanent that would NOT allow me physically to go for plate after plate of food. I was never full, I had eaten such large amounts of food that I never felt full. 

So, I decided I would do this and after a a long tug of war with my insurance, because they wanted me to do a 6 month diet monitoring and I had already done weight watchers and many more, but after an appeal and a few words of encouragement from my surgeon the insurance accepted my appeal and I was moved to a date! So this is what my numbers looked like up and down throughout the weeks, but here they are

June 5th 423 lbs

July 2nd 403 lbs

Aug 7th 387 lbs

and on the day of surgery, Sept 17th 383 lbs 

When I was released from hospital I weighed 391 lbs but they assured me that was all the IV fluids. Today is 9/29 and I am just approaching my 3 week post op and I weigh 369. 

I will be starting pureed foods this week and I am very excited to be moving to the next phase and one step closer to getting to the normal side of all of this process. 

I have a strong feeling that I am going to make this and make the best of it. I have a much different outlook on food right now. I am no longer thinking about food as a means of support, or happiness. I am not thinking about all the food I am going to miss or all the food I wish I could eat...its just not the same anymore. That makes me very happy!!