angel325
Back on track
Sep 06, 2021
Hello it's been many years since I've been on this site & sad to say I have gained most of my lost weight of 160 back since my RNY surgery 3/2/2009. I'm totally discouraged & embarrassed with myself & have become very withdrawn & depressed. I have made the decision to get back to basics & begin my weight loss journey again! I still have the tool of my pouch but really need to focus on good healthy eating habits & increase daily exercise! This is a bit of a challenge since I have incredible back & knee pain but I'll begin slowly & hopefully as I lose the weight, I'll be able to move more!
I just thought the first step is to be accountable and come back here for support and encouragement and maybe in the process find a weight loss buddy who has also we gained some weight back over the years since surgery
I'm back
Dec 29, 2014
Well Hello my Friends!
Its been many years since Ive been on this site & it pains me to say I've fallen off track & I gained 70 lbs back
from the 160 I lost 1 yr after surgery. I've been eating junk carbs snacks & have not followed the program & am
back up to almost 320 lbs. I'm so depressed & disgusted & angry with myself for losing such a positive part of myself
I know I shouldnt be so hard but I went thru the most extreme thing I could go thru to lose wt & feel like I'm a failure!
But enough of this pity party! I'm being proactive & learning from this! I am determined to lose 100 lbs this year
by following the program & beginning an exercise program & getting my mind body soul ready for this amazing
challenge! I will post weekly with update & pics of my progress! Thanks for sharing this journey with me!
1 year surgiversary!!!
Mar 23, 2010
Wow…time sure does fly when you’re having fun!!
I can’t believe a yr has gone by already! I’m not only celebrating my surgiversary on 3/2…but I’m celebrating my actual birthday on 3/20 & will be turning 44 yrs young! I am finally LIVING my life…not just existing!
I started this journey at my highest wt of 404 in Nov 08 when I first met Dr. Boe. I am now 244 & have lost 160 lbs, 94 total overall body inches, & am presently wearing a size 18 from a womens 36. I have put together a little book of my monthly pictures from pre op to 1 yr showing front, side & face views. My personal goal is 190 or a size 10-12 but I have realized that this is not a race to the finish. It is not about the number on the scale…it is about feeling healthy, strong & getting fit! This journey is a lifelong commitment to my health & happiness!
This was by no means the easy way to lose wt. As we all know, the choices we make every single day still influence our wt loss or gain, our mental health & overall well being. In my opinion, this is when we really rely on those people closest to us in our lives including our Barix family.
I want to take a minute to give a personal Thank You to my son Adam who so patiently took my pictures every month & has actually survived living with me this past year; to my sister JoAnn who is my best friend & confidant & who has supported me every step of the way; & my 2 best friends Cathy & Bill who have never judged me & always accepted & loved me even at my heaviest weight! Words cannot express the gratitude & love I have for each of you!! You have all seen me at my best & my worst & have always stood right there beside me offering support, guidance, encouragement & unconditional love . For all this & more…I thank you!!
I also want to say thank you to all my friends here at Barix and all my facebook & OH friends. Your support & advice has made such an impact on my life & have made this journey much less challenging!
When I think back on the restrictions I experienced at 404 lbs…I feel truly blessed with my wt loss to date! Regarding food…I can now say that I eat to live…not live to eat! I feel in control of my life & do not feel that food is controlling me anymore!
I have realized that it's the little things that have meant the most to me! For example...being able to wear a seat belt without an extender, sit in an airplane or movie seat without putting up the arm rest, bending over in my car to release the trunk or gas button without actually having to get out of the car, sit in the drivers seat without my stomach pressed against the steering wheel, walk up/down the stairs “normally” without taking one step at a time, shopping at the mall without sitting on the bench every 5 minutes, dancing the night away without getting tired or having my legs ache & having the option to sit in a booth at a restaurant. The first time I sat in a booth, I was with my friend Cathy & I just about broke down & cried! People around us must have thought I had won the lottery because I was so happy! Doing all these activities have brought me such joy this past yr & makes me thankful for my "new & much improved life"!!
Also, I am so happy to say that I have recently met someone special about 7 wks ago! He is a great guy who makes me feel absolutely beautiful & wonderful in all ways. After being alone for over 15 yrs, I am finally able to open myself up to giving & receiving love! I am finally able to say that I am blissfully happy!! What an amazing journey this has been for me & the best decision I could have made for myself! Here’s to the next 44 plus yrs!! I'm going to just hang on & enjoy the ride!!! Thank you!
11 month post op update
Feb 09, 2010
thought I could be so happy or content with myself! The overall feeling of peace & confidence is sometimes unbelieveable to me! I am still not at my personal goal of 190 yet but I'm taking it a day at a time! I seem to fluctuate between the same few lbs & have not really had a big wt loss in a few months. That is also because I eat way too much junk sometimes & do not log my daily food in myfitnesspal. I have also stopped going to gym which is a big NOOOO!! I know i need to get myself back "on track" so I can lose this last 60 lbs! To date...I have lost 156 lbs & weigh 248 lbs. Wow!!
I have been so busy with my new social life lol...it has taken over my life! I am dating like I have never done before & having the time of my life! But i do know what I must do to achieve my goal! And I WILL achieve it before 2010 is over!
I usually eat anything I want at this stage but still can only take small portions. I still do protein shakes or bars daily to get in all my protein each day. But I am eating way too many carbs & have to begin limiting them again or i will see the scale creep up slowly! I have also just posted all my monthly pictures & I am finally seeing a difference in my body! I have begun to wear more form fitting clothes instead of ones that are 10 sizes too big lol & they do show my shape & make me look smaller! Imagine that lol!
Well...i will write again in March to share my feelings of my 1 yr surgiversary!!! Until then...
Hugs,
Diane
9 month Update
Dec 24, 2009
Happy Holidays!!
What an amazing year 2009 has been & I predict that 2010 will be even more magical & wonderful!!I just posted my 9 month pictures. I have lost a total of 156 lbs since my journey began this yr.
All I can say is WOW!
This has been the best decision I have ever made & I have 0 regrets!! I am feeling wonderful both physically & emotionally!!I have begun dating & am having an amazing time!! Who would have known life could be this good!! I made a commitment
to myself this yr & have put myself first! And it feels amazing!!! This will continue on thru 2010 also! I have my own personal goal to lose an additional 60 or so lbs but I'm not in any rush or have any scheduled date to acheive this goal! I will get there...I continue to take things 1 day at a time, 1 meal at a time, 1 choice at a time--some are good ones & others are less than perfect...but I just refocus & get back on track quickly! I dumped for the first time last week when eating a piece of chocolate brownie...I have never been so happy to be sick in my entire life lol! It told me that my tool is working & I have to definitely respect the pouch!! I got refocused very quickly...learned from it & moved on!
The holidays are not intimidating to me as I have changed not only my eating habits but my view of food! I rarely want the junk food & if I do splurge...I only "cheat" a little bit! I don't need to eat 2 big slices of cake to be satisfied anymore! A bite or 2 is just enough!
I have not done my measurements yet this month since my Curves membership expired & I usually got measured there mid month. But I will do that myself within the next wk or so & post here.
Wishing everyone a Happy Holiday!!
Love
Diane
Long overdue post
Dec 03, 2009
I've lost 142 lbs to date (I have been up/down the same 5 lbs for wks now) &
90 overall total inches lost. I feel amazing...so much energy...& I have to be honest...
so much more confident, flirty, etc. Having a great time!
I have slacked off with visiting this site, journaling my intake of food daily & weighing my portions!
I still basically eat the same foods each day which include cheese, protein shakes
& bars, edamame, nuts, yogurt, cottage cheese, chicken/protein, some fruit & veggies.
But I have tried an occassional sweet/bread, etc & I DO NOT DUMP!!
This is NOT a good thing really since I have had to catch myself & not fall into the old bad habits
that got me fat to begin with!!! This is a daily struggle for me!
I have also slacked off a bit with going to the gym...but have just begun going 4x a week again. My Curves
membership is ended this week so I am going to increase my membership at my gym
to be able to go anytime--not just 8-4 M-F. This will allow me to take some dance classes
(esp Zumba) 2x a wk in addition to water aerobics & a regular aerobics class 2x a week.
My goal for the new yr--I will hire a trainer--maybe for 12 sessions to get me started
on the equipment & a more organized routine everyday. I want to get these last 70-80 lbs off
so I can be at my goal by summer!
I cannot believe I have hit my 9 month post op date on 12/2/09!! Time sure does fly when
you're having fun!!!
I just posted my 8 mon pics--sorry so late & will be taking my 9 month
pics in a few days.
I still attend the monthly support meetings at the Barix Clinic in Langhorne & find them
so helpful!! I also promise to frequent this site & read the boards more regularly!
Bye for now!!!
Hugs
Diane
total wt & inches lost to date
Oct 12, 2009
I've lost 131 lbs & 83 inches total to date:
Breasts--13 in
Waist--12 in
Abdomen--15.5 in
Hips--10.5 in
Thighs--11 in each
Arms--5 in each
What an amazing journey!!
Hugs,
Diane
7 months post op
Oct 08, 2009
I just posted my 7 month pictures! I do see somewhat of a difference when I look back
at my earlier pics. But in my eyes...I'm still huge!
Still working daily on accepting compliments & being proud & happy with my success to date!
I have lost 130 lbs since beginning this incredible journey & have had many many WOW moments!
I feel wonderful & have been able to stand & walk further/longer & I don't need to find a
chair/bench when I'm out & about!
And when at work in the hospital, I can work a 12 hr shift without having sore legs, feet or back!
That is a big Wow moment for sure!
My closet is bare lol...had to give away most of my clothing but I've been buying a few things
on clearance in smaller sizes. I actually went into Target & was able to buy XL active wear pants
in the "normal" size area!! Some of the shirts I bought from Roaman's online are Large! Go figure!
Now if I could just find a decent bra that fits....lol
It's an amazing feeling & I have no regrets with my decision to have this surgery!
I have not dumped on anything to date but I am still very cautious with my choices. And thank
goodness that I have not had the foamies in many months. I still measure out my food & try & eat
4-5 oz per meal, drink all my water & take my vitamins daily.
My daily calories are 900-1100 per day. I was told to keep below 1200 by my nutritionist.
I have also gone back to the gym to exercise faithfully each week & feel wonderful!
I still go to water aerobics 3x a week, Curves 2x a week (most weeks) &
I joined a regular aerobics class 2x a week also.
Trying to increase the workouts. I am planning to hire a trainer after xmas when my Curves membership is expired.
Then I can focus 100% of my attention to the gym workouts.
So that's all my news for now...I will update again soon.
Hugs
Diane
6 month Surgiversary
Sep 07, 2009
I can't believe how the time has flown by!! I also just posted my new 6 month pictures to my
photo page...I'm coming along slowly but surely! Down 116 lbs...of course I'm hardest on myself...
I still see "fat" when I look in the mirror...even though I can see some differences in my pics
each month...guess it IS true that it takes our minds a bit longer to catch up!
There are so many changes going on with my body--I never realized fat can distort you like it does!
I have deposits of fat that hang lower on 1 half of my body! Go figure, lol! The body image stuff
is so hard to adjust to!! But...I just keep thinking that I'm feeling better/walking better overall
& every pound off my body is getting me 1 step closer to my goal! I also cannot wait until I'm
ready for plastics! I definitely need a whole total body lift, lol!
I'll get my measurements at Curves next week! I haven't been exercising over the past 3 wks!
But I will get my butt back to the gym tomorrow! No more excuses!! Also...I will get back to
journaling my meals everyday! I don't want to fall into bad habits again!
Ok...I'll post again next week...Hugs,
Diane
The scale isn't moving but the inches are shedding!
Aug 13, 2009
Yes...the scale has stalled again...up/down the same 1-2 lbs. But I had my monthly measurements done this morning at Curves----(drumroll please)
....I've lost 15 total inches since last month! Amazing!! I guess adding water aerobics to my weekly exercise routine IS helping!
Dec 08 Aug 09
Bust 61 in 50 in
Waist 58 in 48 in
Abd 70.5 in 56 in
Hips 64.5 in 58 in
Thighs 39 in 30 in
Arms 21 in 16 in
Wt 404 lbs 298 lbs
So...just remember...keep working the tool & the weight & inches will come off!!
I have no doubts that the scale will move again soon!
Still taking this one day at a time!!
Hugs,
Diane
