angie12
Being on the Losers Bench
Sep 01, 2008
September 1, 2008
Its been so long and Iwant to first thank everybody for all the love support I have gotten. I would like so start off by saying that i has lost a great big 85lbs since my surgery and I am officially under 400lbs which havent been that in 10 yrs. I am 395lbs and i started out 480lbs. It so hard because I have so much knee pain I really cant do much exercise. And since I only had the sleeve my weight lost is a little slower I was losing like 15lbs a month for the first and now its slowed down to 10 lbs but i probably could do better. But i have to get down to 350 by January so i can have the second part of my surgery whuch will be the bypass. I have made such big improvement on my walking and my breathing. It been hard for me to see the weight although everybody tell me i look so much better. I stiil see 480lbs when I look in the mirror. But i trust my family so i take their word for it. My mother has been my #1 supporter and she gives it to me straight , so i know she would tell me the truth.. I guess that just a part of the mental part of all this and that harder to work on then losing the weight.
Its been so long and Iwant to first thank everybody for all the love support I have gotten. I would like so start off by saying that i has lost a great big 85lbs since my surgery and I am officially under 400lbs which havent been that in 10 yrs. I am 395lbs and i started out 480lbs. It so hard because I have so much knee pain I really cant do much exercise. And since I only had the sleeve my weight lost is a little slower I was losing like 15lbs a month for the first and now its slowed down to 10 lbs but i probably could do better. But i have to get down to 350 by January so i can have the second part of my surgery whuch will be the bypass. I have made such big improvement on my walking and my breathing. It been hard for me to see the weight although everybody tell me i look so much better. I stiil see 480lbs when I look in the mirror. But i trust my family so i take their word for it. My mother has been my #1 supporter and she gives it to me straight , so i know she would tell me the truth.. I guess that just a part of the mental part of all this and that harder to work on then losing the weight.
Being Blessed! ~August 06, 2007~
Aug 05, 2007
I am so excied about my surgery. It has been a long struggle and I have so much hope and look so forward to my future.
I am 31 rs old, I am on 3liters of oxygen 24 hrs a day, I can hardly walk from knee pain, I lost my job, my home, and my best friend and I never felt soooo BLESSED in my life.
It took me losing the things that I thought made me who I am to realize that I am so much more that I thought I was.
I know that once you reach the bottom you can only go up. I wasted so much time grieving for what I lost that i didnt see what I still had.
I lost my job because i got too sick to work but me or my daughter have NEVER one day went without a meal, always had clothes on my back and shoes on my feet.
I to move from my home but I NEVER lived ONE day on the streets.
My very bet friend died on December 16 2002 and I miss her like it was yesterday but I have My daughter who with her I dont know what I would do, she is the best 7 yr old I ever knew she helps me and never complains.
I have my mother who is my rode dog, she pushes my 450 lb ass all around the city in a wheelchair, we go to festivals, concerts, and anywhere else she can push me, she has taken me to every doctors appt. I had In the past 2 yrs. And although its hard on her she does it anyway. She never tell me "when you have your surgery we gonna........" She always says you have to live now!
My mother took me into her home when she had no room for me but she made it work. I felt so ashamed that i got so fat that I had got so sick I had to move back home. and now I can't imagine leaving but I know eventually it will happen.
I have my 2 brother that make me laugh all day long. They look out for their big sister. And push me around when my mother needs a break. They are good boys who never been In trouble one day of their lives and im so thankful for that .
I have all m cousins and my grandparents and my other friends, long lost friends I'v found on MYSPACE, go figure!
I may be on oxygen with bad lung but there were plenty night I was afraid to go to sleep because I thought I would never wake up, times when I probably should nt have made it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO many hospital stays. I prayed and prayed for God to bring me through it. And im here to tell my story. I know God is real every time I wake up . He keeps me. When my knees hurts so bad I cant walk he gets me up those stairs. I love him.
I did nt know how my baby would get to school because I could nt walk her and he made away for me Everything i needed he gave me and even things I wanted.
I have to admit I'm nervous but i know God has not brought me this far to leave me now. I had faith. I KNEW he would forget about me.
The only thing I ever prayed for was the courage to face whatever came my way .
I have been through a lot, alot more that people know about me.
I used to feel all alone without a chance and i knew one day my life would get better, I knew i would get a chance.
As sinful as my heart maybe. He has not forgetten me.
Some people counted Angie out and I counted myself out too.
I will not take the chance to have this surgery for granted. I have come such along way from when I first thought about having this surgery.
So many obtacles that got in my way that I had to pray through to get here,
I AM BLESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I will NEVER forget it!
I am 31 rs old, I am on 3liters of oxygen 24 hrs a day, I can hardly walk from knee pain, I lost my job, my home, and my best friend and I never felt soooo BLESSED in my life.
It took me losing the things that I thought made me who I am to realize that I am so much more that I thought I was.
I know that once you reach the bottom you can only go up. I wasted so much time grieving for what I lost that i didnt see what I still had.
I lost my job because i got too sick to work but me or my daughter have NEVER one day went without a meal, always had clothes on my back and shoes on my feet.
I to move from my home but I NEVER lived ONE day on the streets.
My very bet friend died on December 16 2002 and I miss her like it was yesterday but I have My daughter who with her I dont know what I would do, she is the best 7 yr old I ever knew she helps me and never complains.
I have my mother who is my rode dog, she pushes my 450 lb ass all around the city in a wheelchair, we go to festivals, concerts, and anywhere else she can push me, she has taken me to every doctors appt. I had In the past 2 yrs. And although its hard on her she does it anyway. She never tell me "when you have your surgery we gonna........" She always says you have to live now!
My mother took me into her home when she had no room for me but she made it work. I felt so ashamed that i got so fat that I had got so sick I had to move back home. and now I can't imagine leaving but I know eventually it will happen.
I have my 2 brother that make me laugh all day long. They look out for their big sister. And push me around when my mother needs a break. They are good boys who never been In trouble one day of their lives and im so thankful for that .
I have all m cousins and my grandparents and my other friends, long lost friends I'v found on MYSPACE, go figure!
I may be on oxygen with bad lung but there were plenty night I was afraid to go to sleep because I thought I would never wake up, times when I probably should nt have made it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO many hospital stays. I prayed and prayed for God to bring me through it. And im here to tell my story. I know God is real every time I wake up . He keeps me. When my knees hurts so bad I cant walk he gets me up those stairs. I love him.
I did nt know how my baby would get to school because I could nt walk her and he made away for me Everything i needed he gave me and even things I wanted.
I have to admit I'm nervous but i know God has not brought me this far to leave me now. I had faith. I KNEW he would forget about me.
The only thing I ever prayed for was the courage to face whatever came my way .
I have been through a lot, alot more that people know about me.
I used to feel all alone without a chance and i knew one day my life would get better, I knew i would get a chance.
As sinful as my heart maybe. He has not forgetten me.
Some people counted Angie out and I counted myself out too.
I will not take the chance to have this surgery for granted. I have come such along way from when I first thought about having this surgery.
So many obtacles that got in my way that I had to pray through to get here,
I AM BLESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I will NEVER forget it!
My wish list ........June 10, 2007 5:11 p.m.
Jun 10, 2007
I have read alot of profiles lately and on alot of them they sometimes have a list of what they want to accomplish after WLS. So...I thought about my own and I wanted to list them.........hereee we go! and not necessarily in this order:
1. I want to walk the Inner Harbor...starting from the aquarium down to the Science Center without my oxygen tank or a wheelchair following me. (Now i can't walk 20 ft. without my oxygen sats dropping to 80%).
2. I want to go to Wal-mart and not have to hope they have one of those motorized ridin thingys, so i can sit and shop.
3. Be able to walk my daughter to school and pick up so I can stop payin Chidren in the neighborhood to do it. I want to being able to visit her class whenever i want to.
4. Go in my basement and wash my own clothes.
5. Inhale/Exhale freely!
6. Go to Kareoke again!!!
7. I want to buy clothes from somewhere other than the LaneBryant/Romans Catalog.....(Don't Laugh but, my goal is to be able to fit wal-mart clothes......hahahahahahahaha).
8. I want to go to work.......I used to pray that God would make possible that I did'nt have to work anymore. I dont pray outloud anymore the devil has a way of twisting your words.
9. Take a shower standing up......not sitting on my shower chair.
10. Not have to use a bedside commode because i cant go up and down the stairs often.
11. I wish i did nt have to avoid seeing old friends or classmate when i'm out because i don't want to have to explain why at 31 yrs old i'm in wheelchair, on oxygen. (They always seem to be soooooo concerned).
12. I want to go swimming.
13. I want to meet a man and fall in love and get married.
(I mean a good man not a no good asshole who i think i have to settle for because i think thats as good as i will get).
14. I want to get a slick ass haircut....my fat roll in the back of my head is to big to expose right now.
15. Stop being a burdon on people.
16. I want to dance til I cant dance no more!!!!!!!!!
This is me on a
average friday night >>>>
17. I wanna ride a rollercoaster!
18. When people ask me how i'm doing.....when i say good Iwant to be tellin the truth.
19. When my daughter ask me if we can go a certain place...I dont want her to have start her question with when you get your surgery.(Her when get your surgery list is longer than mine).
20. And last for right now is: I just wish to have peace of mind.
1. I want to walk the Inner Harbor...starting from the aquarium down to the Science Center without my oxygen tank or a wheelchair following me. (Now i can't walk 20 ft. without my oxygen sats dropping to 80%).
2. I want to go to Wal-mart and not have to hope they have one of those motorized ridin thingys, so i can sit and shop.
3. Be able to walk my daughter to school and pick up so I can stop payin Chidren in the neighborhood to do it. I want to being able to visit her class whenever i want to.
4. Go in my basement and wash my own clothes.
5. Inhale/Exhale freely!
6. Go to Kareoke again!!!
7. I want to buy clothes from somewhere other than the LaneBryant/Romans Catalog.....(Don't Laugh but, my goal is to be able to fit wal-mart clothes......hahahahahahahaha).
8. I want to go to work.......I used to pray that God would make possible that I did'nt have to work anymore. I dont pray outloud anymore the devil has a way of twisting your words.
9. Take a shower standing up......not sitting on my shower chair.
10. Not have to use a bedside commode because i cant go up and down the stairs often.
11. I wish i did nt have to avoid seeing old friends or classmate when i'm out because i don't want to have to explain why at 31 yrs old i'm in wheelchair, on oxygen. (They always seem to be soooooo concerned).
12. I want to go swimming.
13. I want to meet a man and fall in love and get married.
(I mean a good man not a no good asshole who i think i have to settle for because i think thats as good as i will get).
14. I want to get a slick ass haircut....my fat roll in the back of my head is to big to expose right now.
15. Stop being a burdon on people.
16. I want to dance til I cant dance no more!!!!!!!!!
This is me on aaverage friday night >>>>
17. I wanna ride a rollercoaster!
18. When people ask me how i'm doing.....when i say good Iwant to be tellin the truth.
19. When my daughter ask me if we can go a certain place...I dont want her to have start her question with when you get your surgery.(Her when get your surgery list is longer than mine).
20. And last for right now is: I just wish to have peace of mind.
