Feeling Blue

Jan 31, 2010

Well today I have my doctors appt. and I'm only at 247.

I was at 308 but this just sucks.  I know overall it's good that I've lost about 61 lbs. in less than a year but since Sept. 09 I haven't lost anything.

I've been stuggling with eating the right foods and I tried a plateau diet but I only made it a half day and my husband called me weak for only making it that long.  I wanted to be successful but I'm finding it so hard to be.

I'm so depressed right now.  I just feel like a failure and I don't want to be at work right now and dealing with all my emotions but I need to.  My husband has been great support throughout this and has told me I've been bad when I am being but my mom doesn't yet.  No matter what I will eat bad food and she won't say anything.

I know I should be able to do it myself especially since I'm 30 now but what is my problem.  I just don't get it.  I feel upset right now and shitty.

Melissa

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