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I hit the century mark!  Finally! 

It only took about three and a half months, but I am finally down to 170!!!  Which puts my overall weight loss at 100 pounds!  :)

I never thought I would get here.  Ever.

I am now wearing size 10s, mainly 12s though.  But I feel so good.  This surgery is soooooooo worth it in terms of self confidence!

Anne

Remember those Bugs Bunny cartoons where there was a little skinny runt in a litter and someone would say, "What happened to you?"  ---  The response?  A pitiful, "I've been sick."

I have had a bad sinus infection since Sunday, and although I thought I was still eating as much as I normally do, and I haven't worked out since FRIDAY, I somehow lost THREE POUNDS for a total loss of 97 pounds!

I cannot believe it!  I am now 173.  UNDER my personal goal!

Now I have a new goal.  I would like to lose these last three pounds by March 7.  That would be an awesome anniversary present to myself.   To have lost 100 pounds in one year.   :)

More another time,

Anne

And down three more pounds.  I am within 31 pounds of my overall goal, and I am just ONE POUND away from my personal goal of 175!! 

Not that I am trying really hard.  Honestly, I eat a lot.  I have been working out quite a bit, so maybe my metabolism is working harder.  My workout routine is simple, though, and not too strenuous.  I walk at 3.2 mph for 30 minutes (usually a mile and a half), then I get on the recumbant bike for 20 more minutes. 

Tomorrow my sister and I are going to go try on my wedding dress!  The DH and I are renewing our vows in June on our 10th anniversary and I get to wear a REAL wedding dress!!!  Trying them on has been fun, and seeing my shape change as I try on different ones at different stages has been interesting.

Wearing a size 10 jeans....  nice.  :)  I don't think I have EVER been a size 10.  It feels REALLY GOOD!

More next time,

Anne

So, I am now fitting into all the items in my closet.  Sizes 12, 14, 16...  I have gotten rid of all of my 18s.  They were too big.

I was really sick this weekend, and I couldn't eat at all hardly yesterday.  My weight plummeted.  :-)  Which is nice, because the scale hasn't been moving much.

I am within a few pounds of my personal goal of 175.  I have wanted to weigh 175 for quite some time as that is how much I weighed when I first started seeing my DH.  I haven't seen these numbers on a scale since 1999.  I am encouraged and I want to see success.

I am still trying to battle the snacking monster.  I think I am winning.

Part of me wonders if I will ever lose more weight.  Part of me doesn't care.  I like the way I look.  I like being a size 12/14.  I don't see anything wrong with my body type.  :-)

More later,

Anne

Recently I heard the term "slider foods" for the first time.  Apparently, someone has coined this term for all those foods that a post-op person can consume rather quickly to sate a quick hunger.  Chips, pretzels, crackers, etc.

The problem with slider foods is that they go down easy, but stay with you in terms of carbs, calories, and pounds.

So, I am steering clear of them.  And it works.  Instead of coming home from school and having a stack of Pringles while I cook supper, I still snack, but I am eating grapes, carrots (with peanut butter), and cottage cheese as my snacking items.

The proof is on the scales.  I was gridlocked at 189/190 pounds for about 3-4 weeks -- and the scale was even creeping the other direction.  Ridiculous!  But --- when I examined what I was doing to keep myself gridlocked, I realized that I needed to change my habits --- my BAD habits!!!

Once I started snacking on appropriate snacks, the scale started moving the right direction again.  I still have my occasional slip up, but, I am aware of what I need to change, and I change it.

Halloween CANDY!!!  My first Post- Op Halloween, and I survived!  I didn't even eat ONE Reeses cup!!!  Those are my all time candy bar crave.  All I kept thinking about was how sugar makes me feel all sick and shaky and I steered clear of them.  And it was totally easy.  We still have a huge bowl of candy, I'm not touching them.  Not worth getting sick over!

I guess the lesson in all of this is that I apparently do have willpower.   I have to MAKE myself eat/not eat the right things, but it is much easier now that I am smaller than I was and that I have seen such success on the bathroom scales.

I now weigh very close to what I did when I met my DH.  I am within 10 pounds of my original --- and very personal -- goal.

If I stay a size 14 for the rest of my life, I will be happy.  Would I like to see a size 10?  Maybe, but I am happy with where I am and I am very close to the numbers that I want to see on the scale.

Anne

Here I am almost 6 months out... weighing under 200 pounds for the first time in at least seven, if not eight, years... and I am celebrating!!!  :)  Yeee hawww....

But I realized that I have only mentioned my most immediate family (DH and the kids), and not the rest of my family... and here I have been writing on this website for the past 8 months.

First, my mother, who has struggled with her own weight her entire life, has supported me endlessly with all of my own weight struggles.  She sympathized with me when I hated myself, helped me through some tough times, and she has celebrated my successes, both recent and in the past.  She always knows what to say -- even if I don't agree with it at the time.  :)

Then, there is one of my very best friends -- my sister.  I was so scared to tell her about my decision to have this surgery because it seemed like the "easy way out."  (yeah, well, it isn't! ;-)  )  But, when i did finally admit to her that I was going to have surgery, she surprised me.  Happily, she was willing to support me as well, and was a significant help with the children during my brief hospital stay.  She always asks me how I am doing, sometimes is concerned with my poor choices --- hey, I never said I was perfect!   But, she always loves me FAT or THIN!!!   It is so easy to forget about the loved ones that have always been with you because they seem like such an extended part of yourself, that you assume everyone knows about them.... and their love for you. 

So here I am honoring my biggest fans and staunchest supporters, my mom and my sister.  We have been through so much together, and only the three of us can really relate to all of the experiences we have shared.  We may get mad at each other, but at least we always tell each other WHY we are mad --- heheheheh!  And when the shouting is over, the hugging begins!  I love you both very much and if it wasn't for your support the first 42 years of my life, I know I wouldn't have had the courage to go through with the RNY that has given me a second birthday! :-)

Much Love,
Anne

I am now 205 pounds.   :)

I wanted to say something about B12 shots.  I have been "shooting myself up" for the past 3 months.  It has been really easy to do because I asked the pharmacist for the smallest needles possible.  :-)  What a difference!!!  It is sorta like getting a lovenox shot.

Anyway, I went back to school today and the kids all said I looked "hot" and even though I blushed  a little, WOW did it feel good!!!  :)

more later
Anne

This morning I got on the scale and it said 207!!!  I am just eight pounds away from being under 200 pounds!!!  This is so amazing to me!  I measured my waist and I have lost ELEVEN inches in my waist ALONE!!!  That is almost a FOOT!

I followed the advice of many on this website and went to Goodwill for clothes.  I bought an Old Navy skirt size 12!  (But I think their sizes run weird, because I wear a solid 16 right now)  I also got a Paul Harris corduroy skirt size 14 (that is too tight still)...

The best news is that I tried on all the skinny clothes I have been keeping for YEARS! and I will be fully outfitted for school in the fall.  :-)

Another thing that has happened is that I went to my 25th class reunion last night.  It was a LOT of fun!  My DH was wonderful!  He put up with me walking away from him and ignoring him, and re-introducing him to everyone.  I felt really good about myself!  :)

One of my classmates is going to have Lap Band Surgery.  I am very excited for her journey to begin.  I know how my RNY has saved me from hating myself.

More another time,

Anne

And, drumroll please, I have lost 51 pounds!!!  Just 20 pounds away from being under 200 pounds for the first time in about ten years!!! 

At this point I realize it is a slow but sure process.  I am eating anything I want... just not as much.  Usually I can only eat 1/4 to 1/2 a sandwich.  I find that I can NEVER "clean my plate" like I used to... but it doesn't bother me.  I find that I am hungry more often, but I eat small bits each time.  This is so much easier than getting really hungry and eating a lot and being miserably full.

That is the only way that I can describe the "fullness" in my new stomach.  Miserably full.  I have to take a lot of deep breaths and sit up straighter and try to rub the pouch through my ribs...  sometimes if I get up and walk around I can lose some of the painful tightness.  Basically, I just try to avoid that full feeling altogether....  Once I start feeling that tightness, I will push my plate away, or ruin my plate by putting a napkin on my food, or give it to someone else.  When I am at home, I get up and put my food right down the disposal.  Because I know that if I continued to sit and pick at my food, I would continue to eat my food.  Period.

I re-iterate ----  If I had willpower, I wouldn't be fat!!!  So, I have to force myself, even at this point in the post-op season, to STOP EATING!!  Admittedly, it is easier with finally feeling full for the first time in my life!!

About my DH.  I have to confess something.  When I first started reading profiles, I was concerned.  There certainly seem to be a lot of divorces among the "newly thin" people...  I was worried that my relationship with my DH would also deteriorate.  I just want to reassure anyone reading this that our relationship is not only GOOD, it is BETTER!!  I think it is because of my self confidence.  Granted, I am still a size 16/18, but I was just a size or two smaller than this when I met Duane.  Finally, I am comfortable taking off my clothes in front of him --- with the lights ON!  :)  I know I am still flabby and have some fat to lose (specifically 74 pounds), but I feel so much better about myself that our sex life is improving as well.  Not that it was ever really bad, I just hated the way I looked and I didn't want him to see me.....

My theory is ---  if you are in a healthy relationship, it will remain healthy as you get healthier.  If you are in an UNhealthy relationship, your new body will give you the self confidence to lose the unhealthy parts of your life as well as the pounds.

Enough for now... more later...

Anne

And I'm doing everything wrong.  I forget to take my vitamins.  I never exercise or work out.  And, just recently, I stopped drinking my protein shakes.  Why?  Because I was not losing any weight.  It took me four weeks to lose four pounds.  Three of those weeks I was just holding steady.  This last week, I have dropped all four pounds.

The experts would say that I should go exercise and do all the stuff I am supposed to do.  I agree with them.  I just like seeing the scale move.  Am I so different from you?  Isn't it a glorious feeling when the numbers are lower than they were yesterday?????  Exactly.

I have been fitting into most if not all of my old 18s for a while now, but now they are getting looser!!!  Finally.

I keep making myself throw up.  Not by sticking my fingers down my throat, but by eating too much of the wrong things.  French Fries? NEVER AGAIN!  Plain White Rice?  IN YOUR DREAMS!!!

I guess I am trying to eat right for the most part, though.  I try to eat the protein first.  And I rarely eat more than 1/4 to 1/2 of what I put on my plate.  More than 90% of the time I pass the rest on to someone else.  Which is fine with me.

I have decided that I would rather choose foods that I know will not make me sick and instead help me rather than choose foods that I crave and could be disastrous.  In that, you could say I am growing.

Now that summer is here I plan to walk/exercise more.  I do.  It is on my list right next to keeping the house cleaner and getting all the laundry caught up. :)

Ok, enough for now.  I will write more in four weeks.

Anne