My Goal is met...

Mar 26, 2009

So yesterday I stepped on the scale, and I was at my goal of 150 pounds! How exciting, right?

Yeah, well I thought I would be thrilled. I don't get it, but I'm not. I'm not satisfied at this weight. I still don't like what I see in the mirror. Maybe I need to lower my goal to 140...my husband said that he could see me getting down to 130, which is what my surgeon originally told me I should weigh...so maybe THAT should be my new goal. I don't know. I just don't feel comfortable at this 150 pounds.

I'm not sure what's going on, but I'm not excited about it...not thrilled like I thought I'd be. Just kinda sad that I'm not where I thought I'd be at 150 pounds. I have lost 165 pounds in 13 months. If that's not success, I don't know what is! So why is it I can't be proud of myself? Why do I just feel disappointed and down? *sigh*

That's all I can think to write at the moment...later...

Oh...here are my goals...again...


Goal 1: Reached early March- To reach Twoterville (under 300lbs)

Goal 2: I didn't make this one, and since surgery is past, it will not happen.  Reach 289 before surgery. 

Goal 3: Reached May 2, 2008 - BMI Under 40, which is 260 lbs (the weight at which I would not qualify for surgery).

Goal 4: Reached May 9, 2008 - Under 250 lbs

Goal 5: Reached July 11, 2008 - Be over half way to my goal - 232 pounds.  I will have lost 83 of 165 pounds.  82 pounds until goal.

Goal 6: Reached July 11, 2008 - BMI Under 35, which is 229 lbs (the weight at which I would not qualify for surgery with co-morbs)

Goal 7: Reached August 10, 2008 Weight of 214 - have lost over 100 pounds. Century Club!!!

Goal 8: Reached September 17, 2008 Make it to Onederland!  (under 200 lbs)

Goal 9: Reached September 17, 2008 No longer "obese" BMI, just "overweight" of less than 30 BMI: 199 pounds.

Goal 10: Reached November 5, 2008 Under 190 - this was my all time low weight of my adult life (which lasted a few months cuz then I got preggo).  And at that point, I will wear non-plus size clothes!! It was at 180, but there's no way I have ever weighed 180...I'm smaller now at 188 than I ever was even in middle school. Go figure! Can fit into size 10 jeans (one pair of 8's) and wearing L and XL shirts.

Goal 11: Reached January 2, 2009 To be under 175 (just because I need another goal) -
25 pounds to my ultimate goal!

Goal 12: Reached March 1, 2009 Normal weight BMI less than 24.9 = 164 pounds. Ok...well I'm at 164.6 and my BMI is at 24.7!! Woo-Hoo!

Goal 13: Reached March 9, 2009 Weight of 157.5 - I will have lost half of my body weight - loss of 157.5 pounds!

Goal 14: Reached March 26, 2009 150 pounds. Evaluate to see if I feel I need to lose more - YES I do need to lose more!

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