My Goal is met...
Mar 26, 2009
So yesterday I stepped on the scale, and I was at my goal of 150 pounds! How exciting, right?
Yeah, well I thought I would be thrilled. I don't get it, but I'm not. I'm not satisfied at this weight. I still don't like what I see in the mirror. Maybe I need to lower my goal to 140...my husband said that he could see me getting down to 130, which is what my surgeon originally told me I should weigh...so maybe THAT should be my new goal. I don't know. I just don't feel comfortable at this 150 pounds.
I'm not sure what's going on, but I'm not excited about it...not thrilled like I thought I'd be. Just kinda sad that I'm not where I thought I'd be at 150 pounds. I have lost 165 pounds in 13 months. If that's not success, I don't know what is! So why is it I can't be proud of myself? Why do I just feel disappointed and down? *sigh*
That's all I can think to write at the moment...later...
Oh...here are my goals...again...
Goal 1: Reached early March- To reach Twoterville (under 300lbs)
Goal 2: I didn't make this one, and since surgery is past, it will not happen. Reach 289 before surgery.
Goal 3: Reached May 2, 2008 - BMI Under 40, which is 260 lbs (the weight at which I would not qualify for surgery).
Goal 4: Reached May 9, 2008 - Under 250 lbs
Goal 5: Reached July 11, 2008 - Be over half way to my goal - 232 pounds. I will have lost 83 of 165 pounds. 82 pounds until goal.
Goal 6: Reached July 11, 2008 - BMI Under 35, which is 229 lbs (the weight at which I would not qualify for surgery with co-morbs)
Goal 7: Reached August 10, 2008 Weight of 214 - have lost over 100 pounds. Century Club!!!
Goal 8: Reached September 17, 2008 Make it to Onederland! (under 200 lbs)
Goal 9: Reached September 17, 2008 No longer "obese" BMI, just "overweight" of less than 30 BMI: 199 pounds.
Goal 10: Reached November 5, 2008 Under 190 - this was my all time low weight of my adult life (which lasted a few months cuz then I got preggo). And at that point, I will wear non-plus size clothes!! It was at 180, but there's no way I have ever weighed 180...I'm smaller now at 188 than I ever was even in middle school. Go figure! Can fit into size 10 jeans (one pair of 8's) and wearing L and XL shirts.
Goal 11: Reached January 2, 2009 To be under 175 (just because I need another goal) -
25 pounds to my ultimate goal!
Goal 12: Reached March 1, 2009 Normal weight BMI less than 24.9 = 164 pounds. Ok...well I'm at 164.6 and my BMI is at 24.7!! Woo-Hoo!
Goal 13: Reached March 9, 2009 Weight of 157.5 - I will have lost half of my body weight - loss of 157.5 pounds!
Goal 14: Reached March 26, 2009 150 pounds. Evaluate to see if I feel I need to lose more
- YES I do need to lose more!